silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007 @ 21:40
anxious with an unacceptable theory... past few weeks ...almost 2 weeks to b exact..i've been very very anxious upon things which dunno wat the hell it is... sigh~ ah~!!!! wta izzit???? wat izzit???? as i ponder...i do get a lil idea on wat that is all~~~~ about...BUT ...from wat i c... its just a freaking problem in my head yg tak serik serik ini... i keep on telling myself tmolo's gonna b fine...and when im so happy..POOF~! sudenlly keep on appearing infront of me are damm weird stuff that i think are realated to my this so called anxious-ness... which the more i notice it...the more ..confused n...anxious i am? 0.O and the more i ignore it... the otehr side of me tells me that i shouldnt b ignoring it n that ntg is imposible n maybe teh sun is shining...but ewatever which decision i made, I STILL CAT FIGURE OUT TEH REAL REASON~!!!!!! AH~!!!!!!! SOME1 PLZ SMACK ME IN THE HEAD~!!!!ugghhh~~~ ah~!!! im going nuts~!!!!! T_T .... sigh~ mayb i should just accept the only teory i have... but ... there are also contradicting supporting n non-supporting deatails /proof.... but..but...*sigh* I DUNNO DAH~!!!! mayb i should REALY forget about teh theory but then again... i dun feel tahts right... and even if i do accept the theory..i dun feel quit right either... 0.o ...AH~!!!!!! T_T ..wta the hell am i talking abouyt now???? T_T okok....mayb im thinking too much...but theres gotta reason for y im feeling this way!!!!??? ah~!!!!! is..just...just...IMPOSSIBLE~!!! i knoe ntg is imposible but hor...it realy is ma...jalan buntu...but then again...apart of me wish to have hope? heh? GREAT~! now i have contradicting views...y izit always like taht when i finally got hold of a theory...swt betul... hai~~~~~... swt betul... must be the battle btw the ID, EGO & SUPER EGO ....tsktsktsk... sigh~... n bcos of this i realise things that i dindt realise b4... i do tailed the shadow n always wishing that ** *** ****** ***** ******** & i do get ****** **** ***** *** ****** *** all the time... sigh~ ...masaka... watashiwa ... *********** ***** ********???? 0.0 AH~!!!!!!!!! *slapslapslapslap* wake up~!! wake up~!!!! sigh~ heh~~~ .... no~!! no~!! no~!!! AH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO AR~!!! NO AR~!!!! T_T NO AR~!!!!!!!!! *muka terhempap ke lantai* Labels: thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |