silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Thursday, March 31, 2005 @ 13:02
slacking these days... im slacking..always slacking...especially these days....slack alot...dunt even know wat to do...im bored...darn bored...turn on the comp and just stare at it...dun even know wat to surf 4...hai~~~...so...finally make up my mind to re-download all my anime mp3s...but unfortunately...not all were found...just a few...hai~~~...y did dad ever go and update the comp, huh?...deleted all my mp3 files...ish! tak guna betul!...hai~~~...curently..only got: 1. digimon 2. ranma 3. ayashi no ceres 4. samurai-X 5. Slam Dunk 6.Sakura wars hai~~~..thats all...god!!!!...where's all my VANDREAD, RAVE, BOYS BE, GENSOMADEN SAYUKI, SPIRITED AWAY's mp3 gone too!!!..it even seems to be disappear from the web sites....what the freaking hell!!!!?????hai~~~....kek ki nia...ish...oh, ya...ros ar...me forgot to return the dell badge la...ehehehe...i'll pass to jac when i meet her la... :) ....hai~~~...slacking everydday...eat. ..sleep, eat sleep...internet also lag alot...hai~~~...friends?...ahhaha...all sudah pergi belajar....ish...tinggal aku la yang tengah slack ini...hai~~~...all my family members have been urging me to continue working...ish!!!...mata duitan punya people...i say dunwan means dunwan la...alway kira 4 me how much i'll get if i continue working nia...bising betul la!!!....people want holiday ma...long time didnt slack dee...so must slack la...akakkakak...hai~~~...play online games also..cacat...computer lag...kena virus...cis! bedebah!!!...dad naik gila dee n delete all the games...wah lau eh!!!...hmph!..nvm..still got another comp to play with...but...teh games there play till sian liao la...hai~~~...pa also play till dunno wat to play dee...hai~~~...try following dad around island yesterday...lol..go out whole pagi...balik rumah malam...lol...jatuh sakit terus...kakakaka...teruk lah i ini...sakit kepala...y??? dad la...drive so fast for what?...the road somemore tak rata...keep on tekan brek ...entah wana hantuk my kepala how any times...ish......rushing 4 time coz we were late 4 lunch with his frens...hai~~~..sampai the restaurant also tak lalu wana makan dee...getting lil nausea..ahahhahha...luckily didnt puke on the food...MUAHAHHAHAHA...hai~~~....AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! siao liao la...got ntgelse better to do..so i guess...shout la...AAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!...ahhahah...nyway...finaly, my virus on he comp has been cleared...and my blog's music is back running...of coz...i've change the song according to my mood la...ish...where can everytime same song 1...hai~~~...wish life were like the olden days...hai~~~...ladies and gentelmen...my immortal by evernasence... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Thursday, March 24, 2005 @ 06:21
...juniors... recently after such a great turn of event in life...things seems to be looking good....akkaka...well..can't deny that life seems to be kinda boring these days...ntg new happening much...just plain old life!...hai~~~...i've been guiding newbies these days...one after another...today they gonna transfer a newbie from uma to me....i dunno y...ahhaa...hai~~~...1st was jamie who has was with me for 1 week stint or cmg job before starting her training as a sales person, then it was elina both of them are doing fine...but elina still need more confidence....the managers just approved to let her start taking calls on her own....but i'm dont agree with them becoz from my view, she's not so confident yet and she still have the habit of rushing in and cutting off cust easily....if can, i would like to keep her with me for a lil more time till she gain her full confidence and completly kick off the habit...but since she is seated just next to me, it shouldn't be a problem ...infact she's doing just fine...so far so good...ehheheh...yesterday uma ask for approval from the admin to transfer the newbie under her, kevin to me...and it got approve???...wat the hell???...uma, cant u handle him???...well...i can c y when he sit in with me for 1 hour yesterday...i diagnose him as...fear of the customer...lack of confidence... how i diagnose him???...ahhahaha...easy......from the way he qualify the cust on the phone i can tell...akkaak...his sounded very stiff on the phone and seems to be 'to depand on the script' not creative with his words...so the medication???....gonna teach him how to speak with custs and be creative with his words...gotta brain wash him to boost his confidence...hey...that's what i do to all my juniors....ahahaahah...gonna diagnose him further later...ok...juniors are checking in now...will blog later. Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Tuesday, March 22, 2005 @ 05:48
...guidiance from above... "where is the love'...song by black eye peas...was answer yesterday in my case...not a direct answer were given but guidiance were sent down to earth, not by a messanger but by HE, himself. :) having HIM to personaly answer all my doubts to all my questions of years of pain in just not less than half-an-hour, makes me feel that...somewhere in this world there is still hope, love and there is still souls who can accept people's mistakes and who can realy accept people who are trying their best to change for the better. all these people need was just guidiance from above, to make them feel that their effort are much aware and that they are not left out in this world by the beings of the surrounding as these people are hard to be accepted by their own kind. *sigh~~~*...their effort to change was usually taken as a matter of laughter from their own kind...which makes their life miserable...makes them feel useless and no where to go, no 1 to turn to, lost trust and confident just because they feel so guilty to live as they do not feel the acceptance by their own kind. these kind of people are usually left hangging by themsleves...wondering alone what have gone wrong and why is it so hard for people to accept them especially when thay wanted to change to a better person???....hai~~~`life~~~....some to the extend canot take it anymore...results?...death...suicide... but how many people are shown the right way to free themselves from this, although its just temporary...guess, i must have lots of good karma in the past...but didn't i realise it...i dun have pretty mush of it in this life...sigh~~~...i was hinted by 2 divine beings, i guess...2 days ago poh sa told me that if something were ever to happened, i must be steady...realy steady...then yesterday, dad's master told me that i gotta have all those basic suttas in my head, (well, its been a very long time since i continued chanting)...most of all i gotta uphold the 5/8 precepts. he repeated that twice i think...and it makes me wonder have i not uphold any of the precepts???...well, since HE mentioned that more than once HE must have his reasons. come to think of it...HE's right...i never uphold my precepts properly...some even dated back years ago when i was a kid...i was very rebelious to my parents and other people since the birth of my lil sis untill now, but i'm not as bad as last time but still rebellious (HE reminded me 4 not to be a anak derhaka)...ehhehe.....as i get older, i shut myself out from the outside world and retreat to fantasy land...(HE told me to always be mindfull on what im doing in other words dont dream alot...ehhehe)...my temper was x-treamly hot!...though i never voice out how i feel...but it was killing me from the inside...once again its the factor that makes me to retreat from people...dad always tell me that watever happens, seek your own fault...told me since i was a kid till now...so i often blame myself on watever happens, which makes me feel useless...once again i kept everything to myself...and i don't trust people easily...not even my parents...ehheehe...people often betray me so i dun wana care about them...things gotten worst and i gotta tell white lies...white lies or not, its still a lie...and i drink... and lots more precept i had break...hai~~~...this is what i whisper in my heart...HE seems to hear it and tell me with understanding that whenever i feel so down and lame inside, i should chant itipiso :)...niway...HE also stressed that metta sutta is very grand and very helpfull in all time of needs...hai~~~`...even tell me not to be lazy and dont bathe too long...ehheheheh...lol...nyway....i'm very sleepy now...gonna slack on job again...hohohoho... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Monday, March 21, 2005 @ 11:31
...the heaven is in line with me... the heaven is in line with me...thats what i've found out yesterday...ehehehehe...can't believe it that poh sa will actually support on my dessicion to go to kl. ehehehhe...now...since heaven had make it clear that my next destination of life will be kl, no soul...will have any say on to this!!!...akakkakaka...nyway, just got back from lunch...had roti telur and now i'm eating sushi!!!...ahahhahahaha...order to the office...ahhahah...must be wondering y am i blogging at this time from the office, huh?....siimple!...this morning a trainee sat in with me...so...cant blog la...hai~~~...omg!!!...6 more days!!!! and i'm off!! akakkakakaka...wah!!!...so excited...suppose to go out with the cmg 4 a farewell party 4 ed as he's no longer in the cmg team...*sob-sob*....btw...cant go coz its so obvious that dad wont let me too coz they'r going late at night and me working at 5am the following day?...no way!! hahaha...blah!!!...basically there's ntg that can keep me awake now except by eating sushi...akakaka...read some blogs...bla-bla-bla...some one so long didnt update blog daa...ahem!...hai~~~...3pm only go back...oh, ya!!!...sat morning ...went for dim sum with ee ling...then go watch hitch with her and my lil twerp sis...akakkakaka....then at night go had diner in a thai restaurant with the other side of the family....then overnight at my cousin's place...lol...miss her soooooooooooooooooo much!...ehehhe...she just gotten back from kl and will b leaving tomorrow...which is yesterday...so teman her for roti bakar as breakfast...and was crapping to each other on her life in kl and introducing her to kl frens...ehehhehe...hai~~~`...life~~~...aiyo!...now back pain...ish! tak guna betul...sit too long dee...back sudah sakit....hai~~~...tua dee la... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Thursday, March 17, 2005 @ 21:32
eheheh...i've won the 1st battle victory is mine!!!...akkaakakak...but the second battle for my stand on igs is about to begun....ehheeehe...lazy to write liao la...sleepy u know...ehehehe...next time only blog la... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Wednesday, March 16, 2005 @ 05:16
the truth is...i've been dying to get out hated my life...blogging from the office again....my home is no longer a safe place 2 blog 4 now as school holiday is here, my lil twerp sis had returned home and as usual being a kpc, checked all my stuff...budding in all my conversation and pretending to stand behind me while the main purpose was to c what did i chat on and who am i chatting with....in other words... my parent's spy!!!...hmph!...what a joker...anyway, for god heaven sake, why did mum go tell dad that there is course of mass comm offered in penang colleges itself???....eeeeeeeeee...geramnya aku!!!...i've been dying to get out of here and now this at the momment of my victory ?what the hell!!!???...10 years...10 years....for 10 years i've been waiting for this momment...the momment when 18 is the key for me to get out from here..miserable life!!!...for more than 10 years i've been doing things out of my will...when will this end!!!???...bakamono!!! how many times must i free myself from the thought of death!!!??? idiotic fools...they should b happy enough with me still being alive!!!...if i were to let myself drowning in the thought of death 10 years ago...they for-sure sure will not see me agian....took me 3 years to forget my thought of death...thinking everything will be different and well once i get into secondary school....but i was wrong...1st few months were like an angle's bliss...then here comes the devil again....life realy sucks...hated my secondary school life....hated all of them!!! forced to do stuff againts my will again...how i wich i could end all of this in a single blow! life gotten worst as i began to be black- listed in school among teachers due to my sleeping habit in class...i've given up hope to study the subject which i was force to study...soon...i became anti-social and dunt even know what the hell is going on that make me famouse in all schools in penang???...come on la...everyone seems to know who i am even though i dunt know them at all?...what kind of freaking shit is that?..anyway...lets c what's the stuff that i was forced to do for more than 10 years by all the peopel that i've known... 1. forced to pierced my ears at 4 just because my cousin sis had them too? 2. forced to learn to play piano when i was 7 just because all my cousin sis are playing? 3. forced to admit stuff that i didnt do and receive punishment? 4. forced to wear clothes which i dun like at all!!! 5. forced to cut my hair short in primary and keep my hair long in secondary? 6. forced to joined competion 7. forced to agree in what ever my sensei say? 8. forced to tell lies 9. forced to go into science stream 10. forced to continue my karate trainning 11. forced to work 12. forced to break up 13. forced to made a promise and keep it? and the latest... i will be force to take up form6!!!...god!!! i hate it and hate it and hate it!!!! dad had finaly comply with me that i'll be going to igs colege next week...we even had register in that...i was so damm happy coz finally i will be free...and the devil will be gone soon...and here comes mum!!!...ruining everything!!!...telling dad yesterday that penang also offered mass comm subject. no!..is not that i dont wanastudy in penang itself its just that...when she mentioned about studying in penang, dad will start his f6 plan again...he's been dying to get me into f6. and i dun like f6 so somehow he's gonna get me into f6 if i decided to stay on in peneng!!!!...AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!....force again!!!...but not this time...my decision wont change...i'm leaving and that's it...final!!!! if i were to stay...i wont even go into f6...so,dad, nice try, i'm not gonna fall for it now nor in the future! NEVER!!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!and mum...i'll go look up on the college which u sugested...but there's no guarantee that i'll study in penang and i'll prove you wrong that igs is a better choice! FOR THIS I PROMISE U!!!......AAKKAKAKAKAKKAKAKA Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Monday, March 14, 2005 @ 07:05
lallala...ehhehe blogging in the wee hours of morning from the office again~~~~~~...ehehehe...nonsense people i m...akkaka..nyway....just got back from kl which is yesterday...settle all my stuff on the college ...well..not all actually,...still on hold with the accomodation thingy...ehhe...and still waiting for approval from uiu...ya...wat a ding-dong, wanna go college also must get approval from the univerity in u.s....blah!...have anyone heard of such thing b4???...nonsense la...nyway...spm results sucks....it realy is...though its better than my trial results but...why???!!!!...y must the graph rise this year!!!!????....if not ar...sure get 6 As dee...*sob-sob*....darn the stupid graph!!!...akkakaak...im so mean...ahhaha...as usual la...akkakaka...hai~~~...c la...havent send in my resination letter...this edzil and naginder already start bugging me to treat them for japanese buffet at EQ...chis!...nyway,..talk about my 2 days life in kl..ahahhaha...it was...uhmmm...well...pretty exciting...suppose to put up a night at yvonne's...but dad was like changing his mind last minute...and we end up in hotel furuma...fuh~~lucky us there was one room left!!!...akakaka...hai~~~...peopel in kl basically speaks cantonese...but unfortunatly i cant speak with them coz..my cantonese is not local cantonese...kakakaka...speaking in the hong kong style...akkakaka...so if i were to speak to them...they'll give me tourist's price!!!...ahahhahaha...so...let dad do the talking but too bad dad doesnt speak well in cantonese...ahhaahahha...so...just talk to them in english la...akkakaka...how stupid is this...akkakaka...living in the same country but does'nt understand each other...akkaka...hmmm..it seems that i gotta learn the local cantonese...blah!...no wonder people got hard time understanding me when i spoke in cantonese...ahhahaha...btw..cant believe that this is happening in kl!!!...i mean i nv had breakfast under the highway fly-over???...akkakaka...and the main customer's there are the police themselves.....akkakaka...funny scene...nyway,...basicaly wat we did in kl was just go settle my college stuff...hang around petaling jaya...wah!!!...got alot of freaking en tau mat salleh lo!!!!...akkakakaka...teruknya i...hai~~~...ermm...there's ntg more to say since its still early...so...uhmmm...will b updating later la..that is if i'm hardworking enough...akkakaka Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Tuesday, March 08, 2005 @ 23:30
yay!!! i'm finaly 18!!! yesterday was my 18th bday...and thst is why i'm blogging this early from my office....ahhaahha... this year bday was fantastic...although i did not had a grand party or wat so ever...life could b unperdictable as of coz to my suprise every family mamber of mine remember my bday? since when does that happened? ahahhaah...anyway....this year i celebrated my baday for 4 consecutive days...ahhahaha..lets start wif last sat. i dun even bother to celebrate my bday but it was so sweet of ji-ni to arrange a lil party 4 me...well...it was not going the way it was suppose to b...but who cares...ahhaha...jazz and jarryd suppose to join us but they got smtg up last minute so it was me and ji-ni...ahhahaha..we went to kfc 4 lunch then go watch the movie 'sepet'...wah!!1...nice~~`...its the best local movie ever made...*sob-sob* tears of joy...ahahhaha...nyway...later cancle our plan to hav diner at chef and brew...but still...happy that ji-ni is the 1st to remember my bday...hahahah..then here comes sunday...got up realy early to hav dim sum wif the whole family include the aunts and uncles....akkaka...im so full...then later went to gurney. omg!!! evening only go home...ahhahaha...then later at night had kfc again~~~ wif the other side of the family....ahahahah..then here comes the big day!!! MONDAY!!!...ahhahaha...7TH MARCH!!!..eat again~~~ ahhaahaha...all my aunts took me out for supper at jalan jelutong...lol...fried oyster...char koey teow...belacan chicken...hokkien char...ais kacang...ahhaha...im growing fat these days...AKAKKAKA...then here comes sweet ferero rocheas...my faviourte....ehhehehe...reminds me of the stupid roket trip...ahhahaha...realy miss that trip...ahhahaaa...god!!!...and as for today,...dad plans to take me out for diner wif the family at gurney drive for the bday celebrations again!~~~...that means i gotta eat again~~~~...ahhahahahha..nyways that is tonight...so i'll talk about that later...btw...spm results will b out this thursday..already apply 4 my anual leave on that day...god!1 i dun dare to go to school to take my results....arghhh!!!!...ahhahah...that's all for now,..will be updating later in the day...ahhahaa... fuh~~....just got back..well...not realy...nvm..dun mind that..nyways, there's been a slight changes on dad's diner plan...he took me and mum out together with his friends for dinner at penang sports cebter at macalister road...the thing is...found out that the foods taste nice, got all his friends to treat me lots of cakes...and meet a lil a gal who bday is also on 7th march but in the year of 1997...ahhahaa...funny~~but cool....same date, different year..her's 1997, mine is 1987...akakakak...im damm full now ...jini called...crap so much about her life in college and what will b like during this thursday...akakkaka...hai~~~`....life... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |