silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Thursday, August 31, 2006 @ 22:09
on the merdeka day... heres wat i did on merdeka day... wake up at 1.30pm!!! ahahha...bangun buka mata terus online terus kena marah dr kenneth... T_T .... kenneth: morning!?...i eat my lunch and stuff d now u wish me good morning!?...u siao ar!? ...shzeli: ...just wake up...kenneth: how dare u come wish me morning when i aledi blablabla....shzeli:..just wake up lor...kenneth: oh..okok...y sleep so late? yesterday nite wat u do?...blablabla...then after that...go bath...do laundry...chat wif jar...n here we go again....jar:uh...morning? ...shzeli:..yea...just woke up 1 hour ago...jar: y so late? wat u do last nite?....shzeli:...blablabla... and so after that, at 4smtg...i finaly make up my mind to go makan kfc at giant...since no1 is at home...n no1 wana teman me out makan...then go makan alone lor...T_T ....giant was so packed...n oh look! im a star!!! yay!! every1 in kfc is looking at me while i eat my Fillet Meal at the table near the window on the end corner...aww....blah! nv c ppl eat alone b4 izzit!!!??? *gribfist n shake shake* ....heres wat i had anyway,...  then...makan balik right in time ...5 minutes after that..parents got home from taiping...ahahha..lol~!...so hang about in msn..asking sm about cracking files...ahahha...games files..ahah...but end up..found out that my device got prob...so cant crack..hai~...then at 6smtg..go dinenr again with dad...fuh~!...had Mee "cheng th'ng" after dropping sis at her tuition center...then go to granny's n get some spanking on the butt from ko...ish!...XP ....say i..*coughcough*...ish!..then somemore *coughcough*...u dun have to *coughcough* like that 1 k...ish! ..but netherless...ah~~~...i miss ko alots...*huggles* ...*sniff~*...starting to miss my otehr KOs....T_T ...nvm nvm nvm.... then after that got home...feel hungry...no1 wan ateman me out makan again..so..go makan with dad...lol~!...check ak nia...everytime wan amakan no1 wan is free eh...*sobz*...so dad ajak me go makan..at 10pm...but he sendiri didnt makan when sampai there...n i eat alot!! seriously alot!! heres wat i eat... :D
ehhehe...n dad say im not suppose to eat so much for supper...but but...im hungry mer...T_T ...i am still hungry now..i can hear my tummy grumbling...*sobz* ...got home n jazz was shocked from wat i eat...ahaha..lol~!...im hungry mer...T_T ...then we had quite long conversation on my eating style..ahahhaha....>_<...and talking on food...just found out n realise that this year lots of ppl died of heart attack...sigh~...pity....jane say even 17 year old aso got risk of heart attck...sigh~...must b the food we eat...our lifestyle...hai~...better take care u ppl!!!...lol~!...especialy xill!!!...better eat more healthy food!!!!...lol~!...n drink more warm water!!! cut down alcohol!!!!...lol~!...hai~... and who say merdeka is just all about food,huh?...i celebrate aso k?...one day earlier...ahahha...c...me zooming down the jalur gemilang!!! WoOOOooHoooOOOooo~!
c~! bertapa patriotiknya aku!!!..ahahhahah!!!! XP ...pic taken by mich while me zomming away in the peugeot 206cc convertible...ahahhaha... ^.^ MERDEKA!!! x 7 Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Wednesday, August 30, 2006 @ 22:42
wat life would b on d merdeka eve... there seems to b no ending to how patriotic u are..ahaha..so lets just leave it... drove the peugeot 206cc convertible today...ahahah...well..just 4 one day nia...hai~...but nvm ler...at least get to drive mer...whole day raining..skiped morning class...then go watch monster house with mich..ahah..n!!!...we terkutip rm10!!!! while playing datona!!! fuh~!...ahaha... then which is now...sudenly so many ppl come asking me about my coursemate...n chin suey sudenly come asking me wetehr i think he' s good enuf to b a bf bor...ahhahahaha...then end up with which hair style suit him best...n strangly...he didnt ask about bak kut teh, kampai or dim sum...ahahhahahah!!!! lol~! and i sudenly feel like eating roti cheese+egg combo...ahahhahahah!!! yummy~...i can just feel the taste of it...ahaha...darn!,,..now im hungry!!.ish!...hai~ ...and thanks to our oresentation which always cause ppl to remember alot for it...n a big thanks to yesterday anti-denggi presentation ...we now end up known to ms.alice as the "mosquitoes!!!!" ugh~! ok..now we just start back our bah kut teh eh topic...lol~!....we keep on next sem next sem..but end up tak pernah keluar pi makan...ahhahahah!!!...ish! this budak chin suey..now keep on say "shitz! shitz! shitz!"...ish!!..tsktsktsk....dah! malas aku nak update lagi...anyway, today's drive was nice..i like it...griping is good...balancing is good..stability is there ...love the acceleration...fuh~! ...n the transmition!!!!! wah lau eh!!!!...omg~!...the "thingy" that happen when u stop , pull the hand break n...let it go..fuh!!! thats fantastic..ahahhahah!!!! wa~!....T_T ...now kena marah d....eh eh,,not my fault we didnt go out makan this sem,k!?...ish!...busy mer.....then somemore our timetable didnt match..then wat to do ar....chin suey is blaming me for not taking him out to makan ...*sobsob*...say i always busy....then i realy busy ma!!!!...lol~!....somemore tell me tak syok go eat with oteh rppl..c!~ c!...who;s fault is that...har!!!...ish!...haiya! we plan 1 day n go with michael la...then makan makan makan...must kumpulak those can makan eh....lol~!...gemuk aku nanti...ish! n this mel is bcoming like the fitnah guy...tiam tiam denial!! denial!!!... =.=" ...dunno wats wrong with the world nowadays...tsktsktsk.... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer @ 00:19
just 4 u...demi mel... >_< fuh~!...i dowan to blog d eh..malas la..then this mel come luan pulak..ahhaaha...nah! nah! nah! blog 4 u, mel~!..c~! i so good...demi u, u knoe!? ...malas i wan awrite long long...so u'll c lots of pics here...but...so far...out of the many pics that i took n send..only 2 arrive in my inbox...the otehrs still lost in cyberspace!!!...ahahha....but i'll post up one 1st... fyi...today which i consider as still tuesday... XP ...sees an eding to the terminally ill-fatted assng period...uggh~!...but..yay!! lets hear some cheers!! hohoo..our group has finaly complete everything for assng this sem!! oh,yea babe!!! and look~!....we went out for dinner at the usuall..G-Block...ehhee...we are suppose to "celebrate" with " o-kau" ....ahahhaahh!!!!...and we end up with our own stuff n i end up with these for dinner!!! lol~! and it all cost me for not more than RM 4 only!!!...ahahahah!!!
and oh, look! here comes my anotehr pic!! ok...the sending of mua mms is failing 1 by 1..im fed up of waiting now...so heres the 2nd pic that comes into my inbox...oh, would u just look at them...ladies in black...specially dressed for our final presentation on Anti-Dengue Campaign...awww...how cool we are...or how "mosquito" we are? O_0 ....eek!
Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Monday, August 28, 2006 @ 17:32
sunshine over the rainbow... yeah!!!! yay~!...im finaly done with denggi slides!!! muack! muax! muax!!! ...lol~!....finally...dun hav eto c that mosquito face d...ahahha...bangganya...then somemore ponteng whole day class just to finish up assngs, presentations n home test which all due tomolo...T_T ...anyway, went out for lunch in mcd with jar today...argh!!!...paksa me eat my fries!! *gribfist*...n stop mocking me like that,jar~!...lol~! ...one day...one day...one day i realy canot tahan d...im sad to say that u might end up bruttaly hit in the hospital...lol~!....kejinya aku ni....ahhahaha...anyway,...wa~!...still got 3 things to do..do till whole day baru complete 1 presentation nia..celaka! still have to edit translation assng..then translation presentation slides...then home test..omg~!...*faint*...nvm nvm nvm...shzeli!!! add oil!!!!...lol~!...*ps: this is wat u call my self motivation!*...ahhahaha!!! XD.. heh... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 14:33
stardust... thats the theme for this blog...falling star the original theme of the layout...but du eto some technical probz which i cant get the real "dark star" to appear..i subsitute that original pic with that bottle of stardust *pointsupthere*..ehhehe...n the midi...yea...its nice...suits the layout alot...got it from a blog layout that i love so much but its not very appropriate to put it here..ahha...that skin is nice..but too sad kes for me d ler...ahhaha...i think mich should b able to know which 1 im refering to...ahhaha...anyway..im still trying to make the snow flakes to turn into star...ahahha...i know tehre are lost more of those falling snow flakes thingy..argH!! just need time to go search 4 it...darn!....but nvm...lets bare with this 1st..ahhaha....anyway, im very hungry now...no1 is at home...n...still havent do anything on my assng...oh,crap! later got dinner somemore..hai~!...n seriously..been days talking to jazz and jar...n 3 of us..seriously sebuah kisah klasik ler...aahhaha... sam ko lao yau... sam ko heng tai... sam ko sam si... phek kam tho chau... wan kam tho ngan... chou kam tho ke si... chi kei chi kei ke si... chuin pou tao hai sam si... chui em seh tak... hai chui ngoi ke yan... chui seong mong kai... phin phin hai chui ngoi ke yan... sam ko lao yau... sam ko heng tai... sam ko sam si... li ko chan hai... sebuah kisah klasik... lol...omg~~..tak sangka..my poeting skill in foreign skill is building up ,man!!...ahahhaha...heh! XD...watever it is..i better get my butt moving...ahahaah... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Saturday, August 26, 2006 @ 16:10
heating up the spices!!! omg!!! omg!!! omg!!! omg!!!! ahahhaah!!! OMG~! SO YENG!!! SO YENG!!!!! AH~!...SAT SEI YAN AR!!! SAT SEI YAN AR!!!! HERO!!!!!! MUACKS!! MUACKS!! MUACKS!!!! OMG~!....TAK TAHAN AKU!!!!...AHAHHAHAH!!!!...the damm renungan...fuh~! hahhaa...okok..enuf about hero... ah~~~...here's the pic we took during fresh bday which is on the recent monday...in red box...ehheheh....  n i finaly finish download "Lips of an Angel" by Hinder...the current song that Jar's into....ehhee...even have part of the lyric as nick...must b smtg, huh? ...n no..i dun wana ..upload the song into my blog...d song get me thinking though..so no..i dun wana do that here...ehhehe...n he being lazy to send over n stuff...ask me go download ..tsk!..end up have to wait for almost more than 1 hour to just download that freaking song...lol~! ...n d song..hmm..ok..i've listened to it n..my comment is...the song is not bad..nice...but..but...it kinda reflects to me abit ler...ehhe..hai~! biakpi lah! lantak lah!!! lol~! ehhe...*bitlips* btw, i finaly managed to clear my head off certain stuff ...my long curious doubts on sms...ehehe...finaly got the guts today n asked him directlyt...n got a few words directly from the boss...ehhe..yea...thats a good thing...ehhe..at least i knoe wats wrong with all the fuss that i make...ahhaha...ruparupanya begitu~...lol~!..but still..thers not a very nice move ler dear...it may generates wrong signal to the sender u knoe!?...n im actually quite pissed bout it for quite sometime now..ehehhe..try not to do that often ler...dun b so lazy la!!! just pick up the damm stylus n start tapping on the screen!! !lol!!! n yes call..since u mentioned it..ngo chau em hak hei la!!! eehehheheh~~~~ n i still wana watched that nacho limbre thingy!!! tsk! u 2 better b free that day...ish!...n yes!! i'll remind u guys!!!...uggh~! *mumblesmumbles*..guys~!..forever sad kes 1!..tsk! 4getfull n inuendo pun tak faham...argh! *slapslap!*...ahhahah... XD anyway..suppose to b doing my power point now..but no..ehe..busy converting cd format to mp3 then into WMA..ahhah..finaly get to figured out how to do it..lol~!...n look! thers the songs that i've done so far.. *point at "other"*...n ladies n gentlemen..i might b changing layout soon..no..not bcoz of my mood change...just that mich say theres smtg wrong with my layout nowadays...smtg about the layout pic wont appear...hmmm...okook...i also realise that..sometimes its sudenly like that...lol~!...so..mayb ler...mayb i'll change the whole damm thing or just keep it intact by republishing..which it does help for the first few times...ahahhaha...guess i better go get my butt done with the assngs n hom etest!! argh!!!!! n next week is the last week of colege!!! hohoho!!!Oh,ya! I finaly got that colgate smile from AK...ahahhah!!!...so long~~~ d...baru sudenly bumped into him back n gav eme that colgate smile each time we bumped into each otehr...lol~! heh! XP Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Tuesday, August 22, 2006 @ 20:13
soulless trash... im soulless today...n im trashed!...my id is very very high due to current events and the lasck of sleep yesterday nite....which i end up sleeping at almost 5am!!! n woke up at almost 9am!!! ugghh~~~... n all i have to say is... some1 plz save me from this freaking shitz im in... its more than enuf... dun force me to force myself nymore... i can no longer take it... im blowing off soon...very soon... my ego can no longer tolerate the id anymore... its just a matter of time... but my superego is trying its best in helping my ego... argh!!!.... help me some1, help me plz... the devil wants to break lose... my eyes are in blaze... soul on fire... heart with a hole... mind displaced thrashed body i am... smack me some1..i need a grib of reality!!! tame the beast in me... bring life to me.... a hard job , yes it is... but help me tame this beast in me... i dun wana shut the doors... going back to bad old times... pain in the ass it is... but if the door keeps on open... i'll just blow! destruction it will caused... n i dun wan that to happen nymore... enuf! is enuf! i dun wana caused more trouble... i dun wana be a "burden" nymore... history will not repeat itself!!! thats all i want... all i wish... for now...forever...i dunno... so let me go! set me free! let me 4got all these misery! so help me to tame this beast in me... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Monday, August 21, 2006 @ 00:31
a piece of cookie jar...  *munchmunchmunch*...yummy...im addicted ...crazy on this all new chewy munchies!!!!! ahahh!!! its nice...its tasty..n its fantastic!!!!! *2 tumbs up* ...n i think im gonna have a sorethroat soon..uuggh~~.. =.=" ....but nvm..all 4 the sake of munchies!!!!chewy munchies!!! yay!!! ahhaha...n here's the group pic we took for physco assng....thanks to sm!!! muacks!!! he edit all this stuff...ehehhe...so good~~ awww....*huggles*..thanks pally!!! ^.^
ehhe..oh ya..mind u guys..its 12.56am now...ehehe...n i just finish chatting with mich...we n our "talks"...ahhaha...ppl..heres a thing 4 u to ponder...."does it realy matters when it comes to love?is it worth all our time n sacrifices? wat does love promise u? wat can it holds 4 u? wat do it holds 4 u tomorrow?does it satisfies u? does it matters so much?".....think about it ppl...answers is definitly diff from one to another...
"People have said time and again that it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. But what they will probably never understand is how I'll always be a winner for having loved you. "
update:5.24pm...jar's grandpa just passed away...minutes ago...but the boy is ok..he's doing fine...yea..glad he's fine...take it better than last time...anyway...yvonne is back for holiday..she's staying till next week...too bad that i dujn realy have the time to hang around wif her...hai~~~...but she say its ok..she still got other pg frens...yea..i knoe...with chia li they all mer...
ahahha...and thats my current wallpaper...awww...i think its just lovely...n heres HERO!!!! omg!!! he so yeng!!!!!! went to red box today 4 fres's bday...n managed to c rising sun's mtv!!! ah~!...im so gonna die!!!!!
HERO!!!!!, UR MY PALING YENG EH HERO!!!!! AH!!!!!MUAKC! MUACKS!MUACKS!... and that linkin park song..is making sense to me now...heh! Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Saturday, August 19, 2006 @ 19:23
a thought or two... basically fasination is about the world that u live in..the wolrd u lived behind..n the world u try to live in...without this passion that hold us in a piece, this life source would be empty..more than an empty shell..wat is left of the wolrd when there's ntg to b facinated about?...heh. and wat if when u found smtg to much of your desire n that u loose it in time when u have none? ...subsitiution is not an answer..may look and sound good...but to the extend..a certain extend actually that u dun feel good at all...coz its just a subsituition n not much of the original process or so, that the facination isnt just as wat u demand for. fair enuf ...but wat if a subsituition is more then a subsituition...it gratifies...it gives wat u demand...the fasination of desire of yours being fulfiled!...yes! ladies n gentlemen...when u thought all hope are lost...it appear sin the rear corner just infront of..actually its been there all the time...a desire which can at last to be fasinated about...ah~~...n wat hapens when u finally found the desired n yet somehow there's no fasination occuring at all...eek!...wat diff does it makes then finding ntg at all? ...hmm...time could b a factor...and many more other factors...but life just doesnt end there...coz tehre salways smtg fo rus to ponder about...a desire to be fulfilled..n smtg to hold us in fasination~! today began in early morning..around 7smtg when i was abruptly called by the"sound of nature"...argh!!! cirit birit!! gawd~!...been having that since midnite ...ugghh...but its ok~~..luckily today mornig's was the fnal blow..ahhaha..glad ...so went off with cici n jane for dim sum!!! yummy!!!!...so long didnt eat d..someore...someore..hmm..someore got so many things i havent eat!!! this holiday must go makan!...hmm..or mayb  not..no need to wait till holiday...ahahhahaa...n guess wert!?..i saw this heart shape beanie pillow at island...which cozt only rm25+...ugghh~~~...damm! if i have enuf money on that time..i would have bought it..lol!!!...but nvm...mayb 1 nice day i'll drop by the shop at prangin...the 1 taht sm went..ehehe...n get myself 1 big big n fat fat n nice nice..n super cuddly to hold on!!! ahhahah!! yea!!! *huggles*then come back around 12pm...slept terus till 4smtg...lol~~...wake up..eat mee..now full d..dun feel like having dinner..watched some shows...n viola..im sitting hre blogging...thinking of stuff..running around my head..n giving u a piece of my mind...n look ! how adorable that puppy is...awww.... kawaii~!!! eee~~~~..*hugglestight*...^.^ update:12.37am...i just wana add in this "...n i thought its gonna b ok...but it doesnt seem to b that way..." Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Thursday, August 17, 2006 @ 22:01
temptation... temptaion of the heart...desire...is always hard to be ward off...ahha...somehow...i sudenly ...i think guys in x-game is cool, n hot!!!!! ahahhahah!!!! muahhahahahah!!! ugghhh~~~~... XD ....eehheheh...entah leh...sudenly ter-siao...might b the stunts they pull,kut...ahhaha... anyway...im trying to edit the new layout...n i found it to b a lil complicated..so..dowan d la! dowan change d la..biak pi la...ahhahaha...tired...eyes very tired..physco assng has been postponed to next tues...coz 80% of the class did wrong..including me!! T_T...hai~~..y this sem all assng like taht eh!! suckie!!!!!! argh!!!!!!....then soemore entah an askip how many classes d...lol~~ semakin berani aku...ahahha..all aso bcoz of assng...demi assng...hai~~~...but always end yup assng postponed...skip d..only postponed dateline...*gribfist*...jahanam!...but nvm la..at least get to re-do..n re-check n stuff...ahahhaha today was prety high later in the day...in class i mean..n this morning was stim..very very stim...n im not the only 1...ahah...hai~...every1 has their own probs to settle...can c from every1's face...every1 was so tidak bermaya in canteen...all termenung saje...i pulak dunno wat to say...but canot stay still aso...so makan nasi n dim sum for...BREAKFAST!!!!...omg!!!! ugghhh~~~...n today's class turn out to b...9-7pm....hai~~...no realy knows the timetable nowdays...tsktstsk..but we were dismissed early..so went to kfc 4 dinner wif mich n may n guess wert!?...i saw a guy today during lunch....with..a pair of damm beautiful eyes!!! omg!!!! so..so..yeng!!! the pupil is out of ordinarry..its greyish...n a lil bluey..n u can actually c the iris..its so...so...crystal clear...its like..his eyes was crystal like eh!!!!...omg!!!! cant stop looking at his eyes...was starring in admiration n awww!!!!....ahahah!!!eyes nice...hair aso yeng...overall out look..not bad!!!!...ahahhahaah!!!! hohohoho!!!! muahahhahaha!!!!....can consider....ahahhahahahahah!!!!!!!! lol!!!!!!! *addtolist*...ahhahhah!!! mich!!!! our list is getting longer d...ahhahaahha!!!!!!lol!!!!! oh,gawd!!!!!! XP n jazz, i might get your meaning wrong the otehr day..but tahts wat i understand...n i dun wan atalk about that kinda stuff nymore...im thru with it...so just let it b,ok?...let by gone be by gone...n i'm wet from the rain today....hai~ Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Wednesday, August 16, 2006 @ 00:48
when your gifted... when your gifted...good morning ppl...yes..its 12.47am...n im just done chatting with jazz..."gifts" from heavens...a blessing sometime sthey called it...izit realy a blessing or its not after all?...well, it depends on how u look at it...tehre are many kind of gifts...the gifts that im talking about is not a born genius ...math whiz kid or smtg...im talking on gifts which are hidden...hidden gifts which often goes unnoticed by the society...gifts that are treated as somesort of horror to some ppl...yes! these are hidden gifts which ppl generally linked to the super-natural...gifts that most ppl fear of...well..thats the olden days...the new age has come.n ppl with such capablity were called ..physic...or watthe hell..i dunno how to spell it correct..ahahha..nvm... well..thers alot of such ppl in this world..but no1 realy know who they are...coz such talents are not meant to be known by public..u'll just freak ppl out!!!...ahhahahah... okok..enuf of that..coming back to wat just hapen...yes..was talking to jazz...n i just mentioned on how curious on wheter jar caught any fishes under the penang bridge or not...n voila! kena lecture!!!! ugghhh~~~....jazz,...i know wat u nag me on its 4 my own good..n i know u very care bout me...n i know wat u mean...n i get wat u wana say..n i respect the nagging n your point of view...but jazz...let me tell u this...its not as simple as u think it is..n its not as wat u see or think it is...mayb its the way i put my structure...but let me tell u one thing straight...n to all of u..hear me..im not gonna repeat anymore...im a person of principals (those who have read my previous blog layout should know this)...theres only 3 times for everything in my life...so bear in mind...jar has regained his title as my best buddy, right after jazz....though i may still care for him...but wat the hell? thats how i treated all my buddies...look at jane...when she was down the other day...i was dead worrying...i try to check up on her the next day..but to no sucess..but was very relieve that she' s fine...not enuf proof? ok...take my ex for instance....he mayb my ex...but it doesnt mean i cant care 4 him like i cared fo rmy other frens....some of u know that whenever he' s in trouble or smtg...he'll come looking 4 me...he once even waited 4 me to online at 3smtg am just to ask me wetehr im free to fetch him go c doc...obviously i cant..so late d..but i did offer him to take him go c doc tomolo....so ppl..are u trying to say that untill im willing to sacrifice my time n go take him c doc shows that i still care for him as my lover!!!???oh,god! for god heaven sake ppl!!! i treat every1 like that no matter who they are!!! lagi keng say la...i put aside n rush my assng so taht i can help edit my ex's assng speech...lol~~~...does taht mean i still care for him as my lover? no!!!!...he's still my fren...n he's trying to change...n im happy that he' s trying to change fo rthe betetr...im actually very happy for him by seeing him putting his education 1st...ahhaha...so tahts y i wana help him...n do u know taht i constantly folowed up on his well-being in kl!!???...no..u dunt know...i still remind him on stuff not to do ...caution him on stuff...asking when his gonna come back n stuff...hey! thats wat fresn are for...to show care!!!!...wats wrong of showing care like that!!!???...isnt the way i care for my ex is more xtremme than the way i care for jar!? ...y not say that i still love my ex,huh!? ...lol~~~..u all ar...hai~~~...i dunno wat to say....cant u all c that im a person who shows care freely!!!!???...i did that to every1 no matter wat rank they are...sometimes its more direct..sometimes its indirect... i realy feel like crying when jazz, u nag me on that...is like u r telling me not to care so much bout jar when all i say was wondering how his fishing trip turn out...hai~ ...well thats me...soemmore later u can nag me on asking me to be normal n be myself...im being myself, jazz!!! ....showing care n stuff is me!!! this is me...c....i told u...now do u understand y i tell u..its not easy to b yourself when ur diff from most ppl....do u think i do not care 4 u as much i care for jar?...no dear,...i did...just like every1els.e.i may not tell u..but thousands of questions were running in my mind when i heard ur in sega fredo...i know u will b allright...but i stilll have questions..wether ur ok or not? who r u mixing with...are theu good company or wat?..u know..stuff like that...does that means that i care 4 u as my lover?...no!~....look jazz...im not angry on u n stuff..i know u nag me just bcoz ur concerned...n dun wan me to turn into some of your frens...wasting their life like that...im diff,ok?...i know how to deal with such stuff...i know wats wat n wats not...i realy do appreacite u being direct to me n nagging me on this...but i realy hope u can trust me on this when i say i know wat im doing...n i only care for jar on best buddy basis,ok? ...n i know ur just voicing out your view...but it did cut thru me like hell...its worst hearing this then having jar telling me about being frens...sigh... i realy hope i've make myself clear for the final time....im tired of explaining again n again n again...hai~~~...n as for my blog layout n song....it will stay for as long as i like..till my next major mood swing...so u like it or not..u bare with it! i like it that way anyway...im feeling trashed anyway...it matched wat im feeling about everything now..my current mood...so deal with it...n remember...im kinda intune with everything...so i know myself better than any1 of you out there...anyway, i better go get done my factual essay...and jazz, you r my 1st ever best buddy in my life...n i just realy luv you for that... :) ..*huggles* ...thanks for always be with me... update: 12.28pm. - the reaseon that the sky is blue... im beng now...fed up...trashed...n a gulp of crushed sand im holding tight in my palm...hah!im pissed..yes i am...looking back at the process o thsi sem..realy pissed me off...im dumbfound...its upside down...evreything is...y ppl? y?..y isit so hard 4 u guys to believe me when i say i dun wana do this anymore?..im done with it...im very tired of it..n i dun wan ado this anymore...y izit so hard 4 u guys to trust me on that? ...hai~~...fine...think wat u wan athink..believe wat u wana believe...n i respected you thoughts n u should be with mine too... 4got to return my assng to ms.tan...doing it later in the afternoon...didnt write my essay during midnite..slepey lioa..cant take it nymore..will b passing up later though...guess later aso need to take physco assng 's pic...hai~~~...im thrashed...im devastated with this sem's assng flow...unbelieavable..cnat believe that this sem assng results is a huge dissapointment to evrey1...no..we didnt do our assng with much confidence as last time...somehow...we r just trying to get us thru with our own ways..own format n stuff...n cant believe that theres been so many lec that caution us in failling our course work...mr.goh even gives us so many chances...yet he keeps saying..stil lmany didnt pass...hai~~~...stressnya....buat tension saje...coursework would b seeing a drop for me...entah how many points wana b deducted for being late so many times!!!...ahhaha..cant help it ler..sleepy mer....ehehhehe... hai~~..its lunch time..n im not in the modd to eat...didnt even had proper breakfast...just a few sui mai...hai~~~...dun even know wat to eat...n no1 is available for chatting in msn now...this sux..wonder wher eevery1 go...hai~~~...class ends at 10.30am tody...will b continue at 5-7pm though..later inenr aso tak tau mau pi mana makan..hai~~~...it rained in the morning today...wind are now very cooling n breezy...ehehe...but almost had an accident this morning near union....sudenly teh front car goes on an emergency break...bloody!...luckily i slamed the break in time...if not ar...hai~~~...i dunno liao la...i know i will b all right...but that waj ainfront of me...ahha..i think his butt..gone case liao la....luckily my butt was save...there were no car bhind me that time...lol~...hai~~~...dunno y sudnely all in front were on emergency break...can even hear car tyres screehing...the traffic police who are on duty also stoped, n take a look...lol~...hai~~~...this sux... update:11.11pm...ahha...gees!!! im so dead by now..crisis!!! crisis!!! omg!! i just found out that teher will b replacement class tomolo...so taht emans..class will b from 9-6pm!!! omg!! with only 1 hour break!!! argh!!! then phsyco must pass up on fri...which i hardly edit anything yet..coz plan to do tomolo eh..mana tau...got replacement class pulak...hai~~n exam is like..in 2 weeks time!! that aso i saw jose's nick only know eh..omg!!! shzeli!!! wake up!!! *slapmyself*....omg!! wta the hell m i doing!!!???...im still in lala land!!!well..i didnt realise time fly so fast...ugghhh~~~n ppl i'll b changing layout soon...jbut nottoday...no time d...need to patch things up...hai! n jar actually caught 2 fishes under penanag bridge..wat a miracle! n my ex actually got 47/50 for his assng speech...fuh! tak sangka...ahaha...i aso sumbang tenaga 1,k!!???ahahhahaha...anyway,...arg!! assng!!!! assng!!! next week still got pr presentation....translation's as well...ugghh~~~....god! wat the hell i've been doing!?...not to say i was totaly in lala land..but i was taking everything too easy till i didnt realise this sem will ends in 2 weeks time!!! *faint*...bare with me ppl!! bare with me!!!...n mel!!! we shall strive for it!! n i'll b looking foward 4 u to come back n teman me!!! muacks! muacks! muacks! guess i better go OT now...argH!!!! GO! GO!GO! SHZELI GAMBATEH SHIYO!!!! MINA!!!! GAMBATEH!!!! USH!! OI,OI!!! ASSNGNO, MATTE YO! ANATANO KOROS!!!! USH!!!! *GRIBFISTTIGHTLY* IKUSO!!! Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 00:17
i dun wana b a murderer..... yea..i dun wana be a murderer(14th august)..thats the line of the song..this newly update song..."unfaithful" by rihana...matched perfectly well with the new layout...this is me..love it..so stick with it even if u hate it...k?...ahhaha... anyway,...was seriusly on a bling yesterday...entah wat crap i've been...but anyway..today was short..spend the entire morning ..sleeping till 5smtg pm..ahhaa...woke up at 9...30minutes late 4 class ...come back at 12smtg...n slept through out the day n finaly i was awaken by mels sms..ahaha...which is at 5smtg..lol~~~...now its late...planing to sleep aso...but lets make this clear...im blogging this at midnite...but wat i ssaid "today" refer to...14th august...ahhaaha... im fine dear...im fine every1..dun worry...im getting hang on it..this kinda things come n goes...so im kinda use dto it d...no worries...ehhehe...chat to lots of ppl today..the gals..jazz n jar...yips... was talking to my buddies on movie...but jar somehow left the chatroom..he was upset..coz he got a feeling that we r trying to be secretive on smtg...the kfc issue...no jar, thers ntg secretive among me n jazz....its just a talk on supper which turn into kfc...realy..theres ntg behind it...y would there b anyway?...i've explained it to u..so its now up to u wetehr to believe me or not,k? *huggs*... anyway, today was hilarious..dunno wat shitz i was doing....ahhaha...guess in the morning i was still a lil bling from yesterdya nite..or perhaps i was sleeptalking..dad was asking me about college while i was sleepong..n i goes.."jamaluddin!!!" then points here n there...lol!!!! ahahaha....got mocked out of it the whole day...lol~~~~anyway..here it is...my new layout...my blog change according to my life...n u guys know that...the song mean ssmtg to me...not the enitre song..but part of the lyrics...guess if u want to..im not telling much...dun wan aspoil the fun..ahhahaha!!!! nitez ppl... update:9.38pm-15 august today was ok..pretty lame actualy..i was being kinda lame actually today..ahhaa..canot tahan la..was looking for smtg to entertain myself...n started all those craps that doesnt make sense..well, it make sense to me..but it doesnt to my frens...ahahha...nvm... anyway...went for a show with my classmates..watching "the break up"...not bad actually..they make break up looks not so sad...kinda funny in a way...ahahhaha....anyway...had lunch at the food court...n im not tired..nope im not..n jane is acting weird...tsktsktsk...jane u better tell me wats up...i dunno wats up...but u r making curious with your words today...lol~~~...."err...have a nice nite..." ..."i mean...have a nice...u know ler..." ....jane, no..i dunno...n the "u know thingy" realy makes me very curious...ahahha...n i knoe u sound kinda reluctant to tell me wats up...coz u took kinda long to tel me...and end up with.."have a nice onlining"...hmmm...macam ada sesuatu saje...ahhahaha...though it might b ntg..but im curious k...u spark of my curiosity...ehhehehe....nvm nvm... hai~~~....im not tired today...but im looking blankly at my factual essay...dunno wat to write...lol~..hmm...wonder how's jar fishing today? ahhaha...fishing under the penang bridge!!??? my god!...ahhaha...nvm nvm..should b fun ..i guess...ahahha XD ...anyway..jazz's college is facing financial problems...hmm...poor thing...its such a sad thing to see...when ur half way thru..n everything just started to crumble down like that....hai~~~...*huggs*....this song..is rinnging in my head like hell...ahaha...*hummingtothesong* Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Sunday, August 13, 2006 @ 16:19
the crazy blue sky... the crazy blue sky..is indeed a crazy life..thats y this blog is called "wild fire" ...when passion meets life...luved jar...yes...the "ed"...its gone now...past...heh...nvm..it doesnt matter...hurt? yes...if im not then there's a serious problem..ahhahaha...cry? no..not yet...sad? yes...dissapointed? yes...happy? in a way yes...glad? yes...so wat the heck? tonite going to "kuan chau"and "fong tam hei" at the beach...dun worry...michael will b with me...n i'll c u guys in college tomolo...all for the sake of long-time friendship,huh? ...okok...fine....its the last chance anyway...my principles still applies here...anyway, still remember wat i posted  weeks b4? "if we were to ever get seperated, just whistled, and i'll come running" that will still applies no matter wat...hey, ur my buddy...best somemore...right after jazz...ehhehe...*hugglesall* love u all!! muacks! the 3 muskerteers...o_O ...ahahhahaha!!! anyway, really treassured every momment we spent together...n thanks for everything!!! ^.^ ...jazz, u 2 ok?..ehhehe...n tonite will be the nite..so no1 suppose to come calling me asking me about assng ar!!!???...ehhehe...anything, leave it till tomolo...if its not urgent la...ehehhe...ja ne~ ;)update: 6.01pm..jahanam punya mich..tag me pulak..ish! ahhahah!!!...come come..i so bored now...lets tag... :P i've been tagged by MICH D POTATO !!! name 20 person you can think of and tag another 5 person to do the survey 1.jar 2. jazz 3.jane 4.cici 5. sm 6.sk 7.kw 8.michael 9.kenneth 10.mich 11.mel 12.chin suey 13. ah pok 14.fresh 15.jose 16.peng 17.bobo 18.yvonne 19.yeng 20.jimmy 1. how did u meet #14 (fresh)? meet her in college lor...actualy pernah sit sam eschool bus with her..but 4get la..ahahha 2. what would you do if you haven't met #1(jar)?...my life will b very diff now...n i wont have a buddy that love me nymore n a buddy that i luved so much...i'll b lost...life wont b complete enuf..hey, like i said b4..take them away n i'll come falling down...eheheh 3. what would you do if #20(jimmy) and #9(kenneth) dated?omg!!!! ahhaha...GAYs!!!!...ahhaha!! i'll faint...ugghhH~~~..its impossible anyway!!! 4. would #6(sk) and #17(bobo) make a good couple?omg!!! CHOI!!!! CHOI!! touchwood!!! touchwood!! ahahah..... 5. describe #3(jane) jane ar..hmmm...she's sweet...very quiet...nice gal...pretty...n some1 i can talk to aso...^.^ 6. do you think #8(michael) is attractive? ....woot!!!????...ahahhaha!!! yes, ido!!!! ahahha!! he's good looking in his own ways ler...ahhaa...actually...when i 1st knew him during orientation..i got a lil crush on him aso..hohoohoh!!!!! kejinya aku!!!...he's a sweet guy ler...hardy on the out but sweet in the inside... ;) ...and very very reliable fren... 7. tell me sumthin about #7(kw) kw..is one of my childhood fren..aparently..my cousin cici's eh bf...ahhaha!!!..wat a damm damm world,huh!? 8. do you know anythin bout #12(chin suey) 's family? hmm..chin suey ar...er...i only he's the youngest in his family..n they lived in kl..n he got a dog like mine!!! awww!!!! 9. what is #1(jar)'s favourite? he ar...ahhaa...this guy likes teh peng!!! ahhaha....he likes cars(the mazda rx models especially rx7)...mod performance cars...yeah~~~...ehehhehe....likes clubbing...(though he deny it)...ahaha...n he likes to think alot...tsktsktsk..deep thinker....ahhahah...n he likes trance...n shuffling...lol~~~...n lots more...ahahhaha!!! *hugs* 10. what will you do if #11(mel) confeses that he/she likes you? OMG!!!! ahahah!!! i love u too, mel!!! muacks! muacks! muacks!!! ahahhahahha!!!! =.=" ...lame~~~ 11. what language does #15(jose) speak? ..erm...chinese usually...eng...bm very very seldom lor...ahhaha 12. who is #9(kenneth) going out with? itu budak ka? tak tau lo....dunno n dun care...ahahah!!! 13. how old is #16(peng)? same lor...19...or izit 18+ ???...ahahha... 14. when is the last time you talk to #13(ah pok)? ...ah pok ar...hmmm...long long time ago...i think..last month...yea..during the convo...ahahhaha 15. who is #2(jazz) favourite singer? ahahah!!!i dunno!!!! he wat song aso listened...but got 1 time he tergila with kelly clarkson..ahhaa... 16. would you date #4(cici)? cici!!???...omg!!! date my own cousin..ya sure...y not...kw wont mind 1 rite???? ehheheheh.. XD 17. would you date #7(kw)? KW!!!! THE HELL NO!!!! *faint* 18. is #15(jose) single? nope...taken liao...ehehhe 19. what is #10(mich) 's last name? WANZHEN!!!!! ahahahhah!!!! ooo..i love this question...hohoho!!! lalallala~~~~ 20. would you consider being in a relationship with #19(yeng)? i rather kill myself now...uggghh~~~ 21. what school did #17(bobo) goes to? entah la..soemwhere not in penang...ahah..then now in tar college... XD 22. where does #6(sk) lives?...tmn sri nobong lor...opposite my aunty's house...ahahha 23. what is your favourite thing about #5.(sm)? sm ar...hmmm~~~...erm...i like his care-free attitude...sporting is a plus point... *ting~!*...lol~~...ahahahah 24. what you think about #13(ah pok)? ah pok ar...this guy is desperate for a gf....not bad looking actually...but ar...last time when he c me ar...eek! geli!!!! i dun like guys loking at me like that n treating me like that...wah lau!! come n manja with me...omg!!!can c stars in his eyes,ok!!!??? ugghh~~...attitude is ok la..but still not my type la...not my lvl kind of guy...ahahha...next!!! 25. what do #4(cici) and #18(yvonne) have in common? er...they are both gals...pretty in their own way..n..smart...n both are taller than me!!!! T_T 26. what special qualities does #5(sm) hold in your life? wah~~~...hmm...sm is my hang out eh kaki...one phone call..settle semua..hohoho!!! AND NOW I WILL TAG MEL!!! TO DO THIS SURVEY!!!!!!!! update: 1.08am..tada ppl!! im home...well was busy talking in msn..n god! my head is seriously on a bling...no more kampai during gastrict..somemore 2 shot straight..ughhh~~...can die..anyway...cant imagine i acttually sniffing or sobbing ifront of michael!! ugghh~~...nvm nvm...thanks for accompanying me...thanks pal...n i better sign off now..need sleep man...hohoho Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Saturday, August 12, 2006 @ 15:03
from the bottom of my heart...-updated!- zen zen wakarimasen (realy realy dun understand)...yup! thats wats with me now...speechless...yes..im very speechless..i realy dunno wat to say liao...its beyond words n the only thing to describe it is for u to actually feel n experience it yourself...no words to describe...beyond my capabilities...pondering n knowking on every door i knew best...but ntg seems to work properly... chinese...yes...i blog it in chinese its not bcoz i dun wan u to read dear, its just bcoz i feel like its the best way for me to express it... n end up u r upset about it n thinked that i dun wan u 2 read...well jar, its not that,ok? .... i dun mind having u around in my blog...n im actually very glad that u r updating yourself bout me through my blog...mayb it means ntg to u...but to me..having u reading my blog IS SMTG TO ME!!! there are lots of things i cant tell u directly...i wanted to..but i just cant open my mouth to tell u about it...so im telling everything i wana say in here including things that i wanted to tell u...so having u reacting that way n telling me that u r gonna stop reading just bcoz i wrote taht in mandarine n u feel like its better for u not to read realy breaks my heart...its like...i just lost myself a way to communicate with ya...losing the only way to reach out to ya...n u were like slamming the door..wel..mayb u didnt realise the impact of it...but it realy hurts me this time...i may take it well otehr time, but not this time jar...not this time...say me silly..call me stupid...say watever u want...do watever u want...think wat ever u want...u still reading this or not..i have no idea...but who cares! im teling this to u anyway...i love u...i trust u...and cant u c!!!??? im trying very very hard to tell u things that i cant tell u personally!!!! u want to talk to your ex...u wan to go clubbing.. fine! i dun mind at all...n i dun realy care bcoz i realy trust u thats y im so fine with all these...but all i asked for and all i ever wanted its for u to constanly hinting..or tell me or show me that u still care about me...that im still in your heart...izit very hard to do that dear? ...i just wana know wetehr u still love me or not...every1 likes to know that they are still being loved sometime....dont,u dear?...sigh~...tell u frankly..i realy give up in sms-ing u...90% of me have given up sms-ing u..coz 90% u nv reply...n everytime i wana sms u...i will definatly prepare myself for not expecting any replies from u...do u know how sad i am...mayb im the one who is thinking too much or smtg...but sms-ing u is a way of telling u that i miss u...that i still got u in my mind...n i wana know how u are doing and stuff...n u dun have to reply me long long n stuff...it will only take u less than 5 mins to do that...isit very demanding to let me know about your wll-being? laypo? clal me kaypo if u want to..but im just being realy concerned. dear,im such a failure arent' i? ...i was once told that my caring attitude is my advantage and in the same time its my greatest downfall....i guess its true,huh? blah! watever~ well, jar..that all i wana say...lets not make this blog too fiery..ehhe...wont do us any good...but im glad that im giving u know wat i want u to know all this while...as a summary, love n trust is tehre for u to take....and all i ever wanted is for u to show that u still care... ehhe... :) enuf of matters of teh hearts...lets move on to today..hmm...well..aiyah!!!! hai~~...need to go dinenr now...will updat elater... update!!! : 7.29pm..yes im back from granny's..lol~~~ hohoho...bangganya aku lepaskan semua kata isi hati ku..hohoho!!! anyway anyway...look!!! its a plan flying by..ahhah...ok..so the gila-ness is back..so wat the?..oh well..going out with teh gang 4 pizza later...akkaka...muacks! ppl! muacks!! will updat later again update: 1.40am...yes ppl..its pass midnite..n im still awake..as usuall..i just got back from hangging out with the gang...went for pizza...then go watch ant bully...jar was exeptionally quiet....but he say he's fine..well..ok...i have no choice but to take it...lol~~~...anyway, ..erm..realy hjope he's fine.. ehhehe...worried,ok!!!!????...concern mah....i know ler im kinda harsh n dramatic in my expression up there...but hey...i was geram mer...then i think its time he should know wats in my head n heart mer...so mer just shoot all out lor...sowie lor....but wat is written or spoken, will not be taken back....coz thats from the bottom of my heart.... ;) anyway, the ant bully...i was shivering in the cinema!! oh,god!!! was trying to sit close to jar..but end up...canot tahan liao..i got back pain...hp entah wan ajatuh how many times...ok..i switch to blowing my hands...no..it doesnt work well aso...ok...4get it...keep on rubbing my hands n blowing..n hiding in my pockets...sit close to jar....repeat this same routine..n wala!!! by the end of the show...im still cold..but at least im not shivering nymore,k?....ehheehhe o..k...this michael budak ar....ish! phek chek again...now regards to his assng...ahhaha...la..like i can tolong him with business stuff...but according to him, he say...he talks to me better than dreaming...ahhahah!!! tsktsktsk...go sleep la ...canot think wat to write about assng still dowan sleep..still wana write smtg tonite..tsktsktsk...well..im a bad persuader ler...was trying to persuade him to go sleep..but now har...hai~~~...end up he bcome more active..look~ now he's telling me about y the mosquito come bite me..n that now chin suey's hair very yeng... =.="tsktsktsk...budak ini..hai~~~...lost my hp number!! wah lau!! so bo sim...padan muka..lost my hp number somemore ler..now have to wait till i got home only can ask 4 help...tsktsktsk....lol!! now must think of a way to cut off his conversation..sleepy liao leh!!!...n he wont stop teling me about chin suey's hair style...lol~~~ahhahha..now he got new story tell me d...lol~~~ and jar,...take care,ok? ...u look so tired today....*patpat* ...sleep so much today...no wonder so stim...ahhaha..get alot of rest doesnt mean must sleep 1 ler dear...ehhehe...*huggs*...nitez ppl...i'll try to c wat this michale hav eto sya now...lol~~~ok..he got love story to tell now...ahha...nitez~ Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Friday, August 11, 2006 @ 17:28
flying...soaring... wat a damm world...my eyes are ichy now..lol!!!....damming...yes...the effect of studying pygmalion and the effects of chasing time and rescedule the sceduled! untouchable..yes! unreachable...yes!!!...so wat the heck!? super efect of damming case per day....fire...yes!!! shuld have see the lava trying to ooze out...huh!... cool down si bor, bobo?...guess my afternoon super nap does suppress it...can still feel the heat though....come back at 12smtg after lunch with sm n sk at mcd...skiped mlsy replacement class and ps lecture for the sake of editting the phsyco assng..n guess wat!?...OOOooo...here comes the sms...physco due date has been postponed back to the original date which is next week!!! oh, yay!!! thats a good news...so wat the hell am im going to do at home!?...n wats the point o fme skipping class for the sake of his thingy n she has to tell us the changes last minute!!!????...oh,look! ms.yap likes to inform us things last minute...yay!! lets give her a damm hand...lol~! ....n here comes another sms...oh, now ms.yap wana make changes on the assng...BLAH! *gribfist*...im gonna kill her!!!...if this changes is going affect wat we have done so far, drmatically....thats it....im not gonna keep my mouth shut like pr ... *gribfist* and look!!! its 5smtg in the evening...n i just woke up...lol!!! took my afternoon nap at nearly 2pm...fuh! 3hours+ of sleep,huh?....ugghhh~~~....power? re-charged!...realy need such sleep...havent been sleeping properly....ugghhh~~~...going out later with the gang for bak kut teh...tapi entah wat time only go...lol~~~...u guys should have seen sk n sm in mcd...lol!!! macam budak budak, la!!!! ahhahaha...throwing papers at each other...sk even whined when sm took away his paper plane....lol~~~~...wat the hell!?....ahahha...i was like...BUDAK!!! BUDAK!!!...ahhaha...tsktsktsk...hai~~~...wat m i going to do tonite? update:12.30am...went out for bah kut teh...yam cha at starbuck...i dunno wat im feeling aso..but this all i have to say... wei shi mo da yau chang tau che mo shuai? wei shi mo wo yau che mo ai ni? wei shi mo da yau che yang tui wo... wo tau ti chua te che mo shi... wo tau ti yo na li pu hau... ni ching tian hen shiang pu ren she wo... ni gen wo shua hua... ni chua de tong shi... chuen pu de pu shiang ni... tau di che mo huai shi? chau thien pi ching thien...hoa tau hen tua... wo ke yee kan chu lai ,..ni ching tian hen lei... ke shi, wo chen chen shi chue de.. ching tian de ni...pu shi wo ren shi de ni... pu shi wo ee ke ren che mo shiang... ai, ni tau ti chai shiang shi mo? ai, ni tau ti yau chua shi mo? ai, tau ti ni de shing...hai yo wo ma? ai... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Thursday, August 10, 2006 @ 00:01
erm.... erm....so tired now...eyes hardly open...head going on a bling...ugghh~~...*rubrubeyes*...i wana sleep...*yawn*...but cant...must do my presentation transperancy....hai~~~...just got back from supper with sk they all...eat again....asyik makan saje aku ni...1st..had dinner with them right after class at 8pm in faces....suppose to be 8pm 1...wan atau aku tunggu sampai 8.40 like that baru campai...hai~~~...sad kes...mentahanlah the atmosphere is killing me...so chek ak nia sit in such place drink alone..hai~~~..n the nyamuk is feeding on me..lol~~~anyway the food ther ei skinda salty ler....eee~~~..dowan go d...tehn after come back..go 4 supper at 10pm at relau ..eat loh bak.....n look!!! tomolo is thursday!!! yay!!! so happy!!! *huggs*..ehehe...adalah saja hari tu...ahhaa..anyway...this whole week was damm busy with assng...mana tau my ex come and ask me to help him edit his assng...oh,god!..mati aku...was climbing over my head n dare to ask me to re-write 4 him...wahlau!!!..kena tembak dari aku...n so he go re-do himself...n just re-send over 4 me to correct his grammar and stuff...hai~~..told him his new mistakes d...n now...still dowan to let me go...wana ubah his speech till no mistake d only he kam luan...not to say dowan help..but cant wait d...sleepy liao la...so talk talk talk...at last...im free n come here to blog this ...ugghh~~..and he? lantaklah!..he finaly say he will bergantung to himself...lol~~~~hohooh!!!biakpi la...aku sendiri aso kau em tim.... tomolo mlsy presentation...fri...pr speech..(i aso hvent think on wat topic )..hai~~....sat...pass up physco assng...but fri nite sm wan ago yam cha b4 he go back on sat!!!! lol!!!!...n i wan ago~~~ T_T ....canot! canot! by friday afternoon must settle everything d!!! but...fri still got damm class till afternoon...argh!!! hai~~~...sadnye...nvm la...get over with this week...n i'll b free at least...hmmm...getting more bling now...jar,fight till d end,k? ...n i need to sleep...zzzZZZzzz Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Monday, August 07, 2006 @ 22:39
sweet thats just sweet...yea...that pharse keep on ringging in my head now as im blogging this..i dunno y aso..ahahha...anyway...wonder how jar faire 4 his 1st paper...hope he make it...didnt flug it..pass it...make it to the top...pass with flying colors...hohoho!!!..ehehe...how i longed to c him smile and come telling me that he passed all his papers...yea...jar running along or with a great nice sms saying him passing all... :)...that's just great! ehhehe....realy wish ,hope n pray hard that he'll get it thru...dun wana c him sad nymore bcoz of those silly lame damm test!!! hai~~~..who's happy to c him sad,huh? especially not me...dun wana c him like that nymore..like how last sem was...im so helpless n hopeless to c him like that....cant realy do anything ...may just share exp...b patience...listened to wat he has to say...n always on the stand-by...fuh~...no matter wat i say or do..in the end is still up to him to decide wat he wants in his life...im so helpless when come to this..seeing him like that...hai~~~...realy dun wish such things will ever ever ever hapen to him nymore...may he has succes in all...he works hard,u know???...netehrless!!! wat ever it is...i'll b standing by...promise... anyway...went out with sm,sk n his frens today 4 a movie...n dinenr...fuh! eat so much!! omg!!! im so broke now..lol~~..lets c wat i eat..german sausage...pizza..satay!!!!! 2 glass of kekwa!!! omg!!!!...my pocket?..my just got allowance is now...more than half dead...ughhh~~~~...plus my car magz!!!! ugghhh!!! somemore havent got hold of that torque special edition!!!! argH!!!! next week!! next week!! must bejimat to get that copy d!!! lol~~~...someore fresh bday!! *faint*...hai~~~...entahlah macam mana aku nak survive this week...today's presentation went ok , i guess...well i hope..ahahha....anyway..now so sleepy d..keep on yawning...sad kes...prtools assng just compiled them...n its almost 11pm now..n realy darn sleepy...got home from dinner with the guys at..hmm....at...around 10pm la...ahha..hai~~ tomolo class at 9-7pm..omg!! keluar makan lagi!!! tomlo sure dry 1 my wallet..tsktsktsk...hai~~ canot canot...must go korek money d...lol~~~ next time must start to claim from mum d..lol~~~hai~~~...realy dun feel like doing editing now..feel like sleeping nia...hmmm...sleep..or not to sleep?...sleep...yea...sleep...but sleep now...later tomolo tak sempat...so..argh!!! canot la canot!! must bertahan....til realy canot tahan only sleep la...hai~~...guess better get my butt go looking at the assng...chao~ Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 12:45
colorfull blog okok...this today's post will b a lil colorfull...coz..i feel like making it so..ahhaha..lets start with..the nite sm come back..yes..dowan to talk on the nite b4 sm come back..beh kua!! beh kua!!! ahahhahah!!! ish!..okok..on the nite sm come back...it was 9smtg pm...the plan? to skip dinner in order to study for tomolo's phsyco test...so here goes:...9smtg and im already in my nightgown...ah~~~...as i was begining to sit down on my pc...sm msg pulak....so he's in pg already n havent take his dinner...n feeling a lil guilty here....ok fine..go makan with him n jane...which all of us tak makan dinner..lol!!!...so we went down to gurney to meet up with jazz n his frens n had our dinner which is tehir supper...n let c wat time was that...hmm~~~...er..i think its around 11pm...aahhahah!!!then after makan..went to starbucks..only 3 of us..so go minum kopi..so heres the thing...its pass12am now...n coffee are suppose to make us awake yet ...we r high~~~ like drunkards!!! ahahah!! lol~~~...well..as u can guess..im the one who brings down the car...XD ....so here we ar at starbucks , drinking coffee and misinteprete each other..ahha..smtg is seriously wrong here...for example...sm was talking on his housemate hates him n stuff...n guess wats me n jane's reaction? shzeli&jane: what!!!??? your housemate kiss u!!!???...ahhahaha!!!! *faint*...lol~~ practically all of us were like that since the starting of the journey to starbuck...ugghhh~~~...okok..so we keep on talk n talk n talk...crapz n crapz n crapz...till reach home around 2am... next!! which is yesterday..oh,look!! mum just got home from sg...n look!! she got me an oversized skirt!!!!! *faint* ...nah!! c!! c!! c!!!...
anyway, went out with sm they all to makan loklok at pulau tikus...n guess wat!? we bumped into dear old jar with his parents...ok, actually i was making a scene in the car..ugghh~~ buat malu lagi...saw jar from the car already n i was liek..hey!! thats jarryd!!! sm, sk & jane: where!? where!?...shzeli: there!! near the loklok with his parents...sm,sk&jane: where!??? dun c !!!...shzeli: there!!!! c the lady in red!!! sk: oh! come! lets go bertegur sapa...and so after parking the car..we went down...bertegur sapa..n proceed with our loklok...ahaha!! sk's frens were damm funny..ahhaha....sm alone eat loklok for rm16!!! omg!!!...yaler..he eat all those weird stuff...eee~~~...i sit beside him aso..ahha!!!...but get to try out abit watever weird stuff he's testing....ahah..so its kinda cool ler..n we will both end up saying...i dunno how to explain this taste...ahhahahah!!!! best part is he can tell me..er...i think i got alergy d...shouldnt have eat the shrimp...ahhahaha!!!...then he was like..serious...my throat now very ichy...i was like..akk!!!...so..u wan to garu garu?...ahahha...then he say...i cant taste this sausage...its tasteless...u taste n c...shzeli:...*munching*...got ar..got taste wert...sk aso say got taste...tsktsktsk...nampaknya he;s the only 1 ...lol~~ anyway, after makan loklok..we went to the free school road there makan 'thong soi'..ahaha...then come back...got home..have a chat with jar...awww....nampak macam ada org kckc buat tak tau wat im saying...ish! ehehhe...*huggs*...jar shoudl b revising tapi entah la...guess should take a break aso soemtimes..ehhe... and jar, the previous previous preious days which i didnt blog were all mostly spend on assng ... ;) ...and sleeping alot...ehehhe...n today...sleep till almost 12pm...lol!!!...today will start getting busy with pr tools assng again~~~...here's my scedule 4 week 11...look ppl!! i'll b dead in this week.. mon= eng presentation...wed=duedate of pr tools assng...thurs=mlsy presentation...fri=ps presentation...sat=duedate for phsyco assng....my off day is sunday....c!!! tuesday will b used up for editing pr tools assng. but i'll be free on week 12 ONLY!!! ugghhh~~..week 13 have to start with translation assng...pass up on week14...n week 15 is STUDY BREAK!!! week16!!! exam!!!! ugghhh~~~~ *faint*...but nvm nvm nvm...we'll survive..hohoho....robinsoe crusoe manage to survive wert...so we will ler...ahahhah!!! but now can c some sign of crisis in pr tools assng d...tsktsktsk...havent realy start nia..got sign of leakage d...lol~~~ jahanam sungguh!!!...ahahha!!! blablabla..and as usual..canot sit still,...just embarresed myself yesterday for hitting my my cousin's frens's butt which i mistakenlythought it was my cousin...ugghh~~~...lol!!!! now must seriously listened to wat mel say d...need to control the devil in me...lol!!!! getting naughty n mishievious these days..n i can solemly tell u that im up to no good again...ahahahha...jazz say wana sent me to hospital bahagia that day...T_T ...so bad...i'll try to b more kuai lor...yestreday n today very kuai ar...honest,ok!!??? oh,ya..tomolo jar will start exam till friday...so dun think nonesense too much ler..ehehhe...go in n just do it. have confident, trust yourself, aim high and stand tall~! .. ;) n most of all..i'll b rooting 4 ya!!! yay!!!! ^.^ ...ok crapz!...im getting high again...ahahhaa!!!...guess better sign off here...ahhahahah...muakiez~~~~..ahhahaa.... Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Thursday, August 03, 2006 @ 00:02
blueberry truffle... ehhe..nope..i didnt eat blueberry truffle today..nor i ever did...but i wana try it someday..it looks nice n sweet...ehhehe...its exactly 12am now...lol~~~....n i just done bathing...lol~~ finishing assng mer...ehehe...glad that week10assng are all over!! yippee!!!! but we have to get start with week11 assngs soon... T_T...but nvm...i know we can do it! hohoho!!! if tehres a will there always a way...ntg is impossible!!!! *gribfist* :D anyway, tomolo will b a tiring day again..i mean today..as in..thursday..ahahha..pass 12am liao la...lol~~~..coz got ping pong competition again~~~~ hai~~..but nvm..last practice!!! n i can claim my credits hours at last!!!!n i off i go out of ping pong world!!! hohohoh!!! yay!!! muacks! muacks! muacks!!!!..ahhahaha... awww..ah~~~ *huggles*..lets keep it short thi stime..happy blated bday jini!!! muacks!!! n yes!! the crv!!! who say driving crv is fun!?,,..eee~~~~...not fo rme ler..the car doesnt suit my driving style..its not realy good in tackling corners at speed of 60km+ ....hai~~ anyway..i'll b driving back the lynx soon...ehheehe...peace ppl peace...lol~~~...and oh ya...jar will b having his exam on early august..but i dunno which day ler...coz havent been talking to him since his last assng...ahha.haha....so...jar, all the best!!!! i know u can do it!!! relax and add more oil, ok!!!!??? *huggles* XP ...hohohoh!!!!...lol~~~...omg~~~...im going nuts these days..them hyper active...hai~~~...dramaticnya...must b the assngs!!! must b the assngs!! lol~~~~...okok..better stop here....if not , crap till tak payah tidur d...ahhaha...nitez ppl!!! Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |
the beige 1 at least its ok...but the blue 1!!??? omg!! i can put in my hand thrug the gap of the skirt at my hip!!! ugghh~~~funny thing is ..she tell me..wert? when i tried it, i canot wear size M so i bought size L 4 u...=.="..i was like...for god heaven sake, mum!!! of coz u canot wear size M!!!! u and me where got the same!!!???...lol!!!! hai~~~ tulah...akibatnya...always think she's thinner than me la..say i no shape la..like botol la... blablabla...woi! mak aku..sedar la sikit...i keep my mouth shut doesnt mean i agree with u ...tsktsktsk....nah~~ then how ar?...now i have to pull down my skirt very very low my hip...my super low waist eh panty aso canot rescue me..hai~~...tepat tepat can rescue me nia...hai~~~...n its going to look funny..god!!! look at the firls!!! the flair part..its suppose to b at the butt now it will b below my butt!!!! ugghhh!!!! its so~~~ so~~~~ ewww~~~~ funny!!! weird!!!! n most of all!! it makes my hip super big!!!! *faint*...then lagi keng is...she bought some earrings..ask me to choose...i was like..eeek!!! antics oriental-style earrings!!!!???? omg!!!!! omg!!!! mum!!! u r so not understand my taste!!! *faint*..then she got otehr varieties...BIG MICKEY MOUSE EARINGS!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!! i feel like jumping out of the window at the momment...ugghh~~~n look at the bag she got me...well..actually its my aunt who got it for her then she dowan so she say its 4 me... =.="..i was like..*speechelles*...mum..i dun take such bags...im not into such bags!!!! argh!!!!...wats wrong with these ppl in this house!!!???...y izit always always always comes to such stuff it has to be screwd up badly...so ladies n gentlemen!!! u all by now should know y i dun like shopping with them so badly!!!...just give me the cash n i'll do my own shopping!!! ugghhh!!!! i mean, come on la mum..u often wear my clothes to work..u should at least know my taste ler...but this is like..hai~~ i dunno wat to say d...