silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 13:43
The Challenger-The Achiever now..as most of you guys know (or perhaps not) i got myself into deep shit last week on my mega campaign project... i indirectly made Rob, my CD cried *rolleyes* ..ya ya..he is a such a freaking sentimental and emotional guy..lol~!!! ..and he practically cried in front of the lec and also the entire class of 100+ ppl!!! *smackhead* anyway, yesterday i was summoned by my lec for a talk or two...asked me a few questions on that campaign thingy and gave me her verdict on what type of person i am... Dear Dr.Selva conclusion on her perception towards me was... "Shzeli...from what i see..you are an achiever. you know your goals and you know what you want and you know where you are heading to and you know how to get it. You will go all out to get it and you are the type that knows very well on your goal and what you want. But. along the way...you are so into your pursuit that you got careless...and there's wheres the problem is...you need to be more Open and of cos...very humble...you ought to learn how to consult others than to lock up your mind during your pursuit. And this have cost you greatly in this project. Work on that, and you wont have further problem." ok...i got all the entire part...but being very humble as she stressed? 0.o ... unsure on which she is actually referring to (my ego or overly confident self)..i ran a search on The Human Personality ..and did a couple of test...and VIOLA!  Here's my test result based on Enneagram ...whereby the Top 3 of my results lies my real personality... and I am a 8w7 My Dominant personality is "The Challenger" My Secondary Personality is "The Achiever" (just as what Dr.Selva said) My 3rd Personality is "The Perfectionist" so..looking at the results and my Top 3 personality..i guess it could be summarize that Im having an imbalance self....I do not have a personality that could counter or tame the overly confident and ego side of mine...which like what Dr. Selva said...needs urgent fix guess theres just to much power in my head, eh? lol~!!! and yes..i found the test to be somewhat 90-99% true. lol~!!! go on..give it a try..and know yourself better.. ;) *clickie on the italics in yellow pls...they are linkies...LOL~!!!* Labels: in a day life, misc, thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Saturday, August 16, 2008 @ 18:09
spur of life or the moment yes,..at the moment of spur...i take the opportunity from what you have said.. this very own remark and statement that you have made...will be turned into a battle field... the rebelious overly high-confident enigmatic ego side was awaken from its slumber...and it is with this that i'll proved you right and wrong...both at the same time. first step has already been long taken..but the spur of the moment has caused its execution...and it shall proceed...and i'll show you what you want to and has been believing all the while... i'll show you what i'm really made of! the essence of my soul ...and the capability that i have.... I am what I am... and you don't just mock me for things that we both knew better than anyone else... you, pay for it... you will see... Labels: in a day life, thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Tuesday, August 12, 2008 @ 09:03
morning tag i skipped class today..yes~!!! i woke up so early in the morning..all ready to leave the house when suddenly the potty is calling huge for me..lol~!! diarrhea. so here i am...slothing in the room, reading blogs and oh look! i found this cute-interesting blog from dear Yips. trust me..its cute... ahahha...i suppose i should put on English music to do this...lol..START! Rules of the game: 1. Put your music player on shuffle mode. 2. Press forward for each question. 3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating. 4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions. 5. Tag 10 people. How are you feeling today? ahahhaha~!!! well uh...im feeling..uh...immortal? 0.o ..ahha...well its a dark song so i guess im suppose to be feeling dark? which im not...and im trying and doing my best not to switch to my dark destructive mode. lol~!!! but overall..yeah...i agreed with this song...always had. on other bigger perspective though...ehhe "
wow! im gonna get far in life for All~~~ my life...thats...AWESOME~!!! plus!!! this is one of my fav songs~!! ^^ "All my life...i prayed for someone like you...and i thanked God...that i've finally found you..and i hope that you feel the same way too...and i prayed that you do love me too..." KYA~!!!! oh i just love those lyrics~!!! *meltz* now..thats a good way to start my day, eh!?? fu fu fu ~~~
aha! true true!!! to a certain extend this is true~!! i got tons of friends who calls me when THEY are sober ...and ONLY when they are sober...ahahahah~!!!which in away means that im a good listener and reliable? 0.o ..BLAH! ...and~~ the song title itself is as if im saying.."hey, buddies...call me when you are sober, eh? dun take it bad yourself,k?" *patpathead* ahahahhahaha~!! isn't it?
AHAHAHHAHA~!!! ok..2 way to look at this..1st. i moved forward from the current position and get hitched! yay~!! 2nd!!!! the lyrics "i stand before a road that will lead to the unknown, at least unknown to me...the outcome isnt clear" ...aha! thats pretty uncertain, which i also agrees cos it actually explains option no.1..AHA! ...so... to the question "will you get marries? " the answer would be...yeah you will if you moved forward but of cos the future is unknown..depending on which route you take. " *tumbsup* ;) What is your best friend’s theme song? hmmm...it actually applicable top one of my buddy..aha!
OMG~!!!!! this is getting freaky~!!!! i have to admit...cos im HONEST!!! and BRUTALLY HONEST!!!...no need to say much..its widely understood by most of you... one of my all time fav songs... and one of the BIGGEST theme of my life! hah! >_<
well....my life in high school is seriously like a "kiss from a rose in the grave..." .... but seriously it is also.."my power, my pleasure, my pain" ..its a time of my life when i actually got all of these in a strong manner from high school that contributes to making 5 years of my life hell. ..and oh ya..i actually thought taht finaly get kissed by a rose from getting admited into a good high school but just to found out that its actually a kiss from a rose on the GRAVE ...ahahh~!!
ahahah~!! is the song urging me to go look for my prince charming who is still sleeping in his lala land so that i can get ahead of life??? AHAHAH~~!!! eh, you all...COME!! tonight come let's go..YAM!!! ...ahahahhahah~!!! i need to wake him up..abo i canot get ahead of life, weh~~... ahahahha~!!!
"maybe it's best you leave me alone" ....yup! yup! that explains my friends...they know when to leave me alone for the betterment of myself and theirs...ahahah~!!! and of cos..the constant..."enuf! put an end to it!" that i got from some / most of my friends...ahahah *winkwink* oh you know what i mean... XP What's in store for this weekend? wow! ahahha..im going to be numb. WELL, I'M ALREADY FEELING NUMB FROM ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS!!! and yeah..i am still going to feel like this until i got rid of the campaign proposal campaign!!! a toast to till i get my senses back! ahahah *cheers*
uh....uh.....well..i sure know one thing ...grandparents loves to "stop and stare" and says.. "you kids these days ar...blablabla" ...ahahahhahah~!!! and yah..i agree to this lyrics."cant you see what i see" ..which i think it's obviously very true..to everyone. ehehhe
HEY! is this song teasing me now?????? HAR~!!!! i suddenly feel so being TEASED!!! *slapslapslap* ahahha... XP
This is sure one of the hell rock song to ROCK a funeral!!! ahahahahhaha~!!! but at least it doesnt sound sad..so yeah...i love changes...and..check this out.."late night come home, works sucks..i know..." which is like..telling partial story of my life? ahahahha..not bad, eh? ahahha
lies~!??? hmmm...true true. i dun and cant be expecting ppl to believe all that i said. and yeah...to a certain extend..i do live my life in lies which i want it to be view as living in denial and in my own fantasy land...not reality...so yeah...my world revolves around "lies" that i've created to hide myself from the saddening truth of reality...ahahha..no doubt the world view me that way...my Dad is one of them.. ho! XP
"If thats ain't love , then I don't know what's love is" ...aha! that lyrics explain all... *winkwink* ehehe..
HUH!??? so you are trying to say that ppl do secretly lust for me is just the chapter one/beginning??? theres even chapter 2 ke??? LOL!!!! aahahhaha...hentai!!!! hentai~!!!! lol~!!!! When You Look Me In The Eyes – Jonas Brothers oh yeah...i seriously "find my paradise when you look me in the eyes" ... ehehhe XP *blush-for-no-apparent-reason* woot~!!!??? ITS TRUE!!! ITS THE TRUTH~!!! who wouldn't be melted, huh???? i dun care!!! i love this song... *huggles* ehehhe What should you do with your life? Imaginary Origin Version– Evanescence aha! see!! i told you i lived most of my life in fantasy..away from reality for as much as i can...ahahah XP.. Will you ever have children? Better Luck Next Time- Lifehouse 0.o ...ahahahhah~!!! imagine this..Hubby: What? You are not preggy??? .Rei: oh well..better luck next time... .... AHAHAHAHHAAAHHAHAHA~!!! OMG~!!! OMg~!!! TAK TAHAN AKU~!!!! ahahahhahahaha~!!! ok ok..cut the crap...ahhaha...well...i'll let you know if that ever happens...BUAHAHAHHAHA~!! What song would you strip to? Frozen– Within Temptation uh...why would i strip when im feeling cold..or worst..FROZEN!!!???? lol~!!! ...ahaha...alright looking at the song and lyrics ...if you wana strip so badly..i guess i can look into "stripping" in the sense of getting rid of the sorrow which is in tune with this song...so yes..this is one of my fav songs when im dark or moody...or even frustrated and sick of everything..oops. certain things. ahahha What does your mum think of you? You Took My Heart Away – Michael Learns To Rock awww...thats just so sweet...wish she can look at me this way from the very beginning!!! hah! lol What is your deep, dark secret? Days Go By– Lifehouse uh....that i actually let days go by just like that without wanting to do anything? yeah...sometimes...lol~!! which i think its not any secret unless it deals with smtg of a more serious tone...hmmm~~ perhaps~~~...*evilgriin* What is your mortal enemy’s theme song? The Cross - Within Temptation ya!!! FEAR THE CROSS, YOU EVIL~!! BEHOLD THE CROSS!!! ahahahaa!!! "im sorry you can't stand the naked truth..i'm sorry you keep on living in your lies...denying what is real..." ....Ooooo...deep~~deep~~deep ar... XP What’s your personality like? Gone Going – Blacke Eyed Peas yeah..i don't wait for things to happen..i make it happen. so yeah..in a way...im the "gone-going" type...a second im here...if this doesnt work out the way i want or i'm done with this...its bye bye...im off to the next big thing on my list! fu fu fu ~!!! and yeah..i "dun give a damm" om most things... What song will be played at your wedding? Mother Mother – The Veronicas wow! so i'm suppose to call my mom on my wedding day to ask about how is my parents life and telling her that everything is going well over here? ahahhaha~!! does that means that i will be wed on some far away place that my parents cant be there? hahah~!! NONSENSE!! if i were to wed at such places..you think i cant afford to get my parents there? this ain't logic..but a rock song for a wedding? hmmm...not a bad idea...must be some rock wedding eh with a rockin bride and groom..lol~!!! fuh~! now im done..im gonna tag..MICH, MEL, FAY AND FRESH!!! Labels: misc Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Friday, August 08, 2008 @ 20:57
VICTORY~!!! : friday double post double post~!!! ahaha im gonna say this im gonna say this~!!! lol~!!! I WON THE BET!!! SEE~!!! DIDN'T I TELL YOU THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN??? and did you not believe me back then and even assured me and ask me to believe in you that it will not happen? tsktsktsk...and did i not say it to your face that it is on its way to becoming like this? aha! and what did i get back then? DENIAL! DENIAL! DENIAL! which pissed me off alot!!! if you were to just go ahead and not do smtg to make it seems like you are guilty or smtg...i wouldnt have been so pissed. so yeha..even when u r denying...i can already see through it all~~~ tskstkstk..*patpathead* ..and now..after so long d..only kam luan wana mengaku...tsktsktsk..u..penakut betul ler..eheh AND NOW THAT ITS BEEN PROVEN. AND THAT I'VE WON THE BET. WHAT DID I GET???? nothing, as usual. just some self recognition which proves that my instinct and prediction is still working good~. it adds credibility. hah! feels like having some Turbog now.. Labels: in a day life Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer @ 18:00
pet peeves -words lets be brutally honest. who does not have any pet peeves at all???? no1eh? GOOD! cos im currently having my moment of irritation... i have many pet peeves...and oh boy, i do categorize them into 2 category..action and words~~~ i just got pissed or irritated to some WORDS / style of talking which i HATE the most..cos to me..it sounds soo~~~ FAKE...macam buat drama... just like those crocodile tears that you are oh-so-good at~~~...u think thats smart? and that is called a victory?? oh, pelease~~~ thats like getting smtg exp from the black market! why???? cos its call...EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL!!! and oh, how i hate such ppl...pls la..save your words...save your precious crocodile tears.... although you didn't said it to me and practically its non of my business...but im so sorry that your verbal comm is my pet peeves!!! one of my top listing pet peeves~!!! so yeah...take that! *SMACK* ahaha..oh how i wish i can just throw at you pillows and knives to shut you up from saying things like that... if you were to say it in a right condition..i would have not blog bout this...but omg~!!1 you have to say it soooo many times...sometimes...at a irrelevant time. which added to how fake it is...and which irritates me more that i feel like tell you "whats your prob here?" why does it sounds fake? bcos the way you say it and plus the situation and the repetition blablabla...sounds so dramatize~~~ i cant feel a real heart in it...more like just for the sake of showing off, you bastard. you make it sounds like your just saying it just bcos u wana let everyone know you are SUCH a caring~~~ and supportive~~~~ person and all that when from wat i can see is...your the opposite and you are trying super hard to play a drama on a stage! AHA! and most of my pet peeves be it words or actions seems to be on you more. wow~! it seems that we are such a long~~~~ rival from many lives back then, i guess for you to be stepping my tail all the time, eh? and dun say that i do not and nv wana be "normal" with you..its just that...the face you show the public and what you did to me over the years...was just freaking shrewd.... come on la...i dun just kiss and forget..i may forgo certain things if you do try hard to change into a better person..but im so sorry...you just did not show me enuf of that..cos everytime things crop up..you will turn into a shrewd lil person again...which makes you a bitch and proves it? so yeah..since you have been giving me this kind of experience and perception on you all the long..even lil things that means no harm nor not directed to me...gal...you just irritates me. hah! talking bout prejudice! and 1 more thing..when im not asking or talking to you...of pls dun be such a kpc and answer. if i were to want you to answer..i would have ask u directly, right or not??? dun give me bullshit on talking on behalf of the other. my ass...thats one of my pet peeves as well...cos im asking bout serious things that needs to be made clear btw us...so whats your prob in answering on behalf of the person???? you are that person isit???? you know what that person thinks and feel isit and what taht person wana answer isit??? or issit you just wana show off that now you are the only person who understands most, huh? my ass la you...if you wana talk on that ar..i think...u'll just jump down into the drain la... see....so many of my pet peeves all aso you carry...you tell me how am i going to see you as a good person? you carry them so well some more...wow~!! *clapclapclap* Labels: in a day life, thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer Sunday, August 03, 2008 @ 16:08
sick ppl talk... i am currently down with a sick throat and a sick body... been having heaty body lately with it taking a toll over when it hit max which makes me go down with a oh-i-hate-the-most flu-like symptom of throat inflammation..which needs urgent doctor attention unless i was trying to kill myself la. but obviously while discovering im 100% K.O. while out shopping+movie day with mich, yesterday..i just drop by at the Jusco pharmacy to get some medicines ler...and omg~~~ i got 2 jenis of ubat...1 for my inflammation throat and another for my flu-symptom thingy...tsk! the freaking hot pink color strawberry flavored ubat for inflammation realy...GAWD!!! i was told then it will numb my throat as i need need to suck teh tablet macam itu gula gula...oh boy was i wrong. its not my throat that is numb..but my freaking tongue!!!! its been paralyzed!! i practically cant taste my food or feel my tounge properly for awhile..lol~!!! tapi tak pe ler...im cured anyway..ahaha...eating was weird though...ahahha anyway... life has been peacefull for awhile...no noise...no emails.... yes...when i say no emails..im talking bout dad's email...NOT the nv-ending-director's email...lol~!!! ...and I M glad that dad finaly stop sending me brain washing emails..buahhahhaha~!!!! mmm...i've done my researtch..here n there...even did some informal interview with related person to the field. and uh..i've come to the conclusion that i'm not in such a favour that i will take myself thru such hell n burden just to get it. AHA! oh come on..u gotta be kidding me...3 eng test+5 sub test (min pass of 3.5 gpa per subject) + 1 panel interview = admission. WTh~!!!????? i have to do all that just to gained admission????? oh come on..u gotta be kidding me. i dun have so much time to waste! lol~!!! and oh yeah...thanx to that...i've been thinking of scrapping it out from my plan anyway... so ok...MA go away... looking at Job's side..AHA! its not helpful at all...the ppl i interviewed gave me answers or perhaps open my eyes to the "biasness" of the working world..and to some certain extend the reality of the job that im trying to get myself into...which somehow..saddens me even more. it all makes my goal even further...GAH~!!! of cos there are other options that i can go for ...but for those options ...uh..i guess for a desperate moves only. Im not that desperate to go to such extend. ahahha or..perhaps i should just do that, eh? NEVER~!!!im not that type who will just give in even if im desperate over smtg that is against my will ... ^^ i nv do things agianst my will...unless i got no other choice but to do it YET it does not jeopardies my original plan..then i will close 1 eye...mmmm~~~ MAKAN~!!!!!!!!!!!! Labels: in a day life, thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |