silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006 @ 00:48
when your gifted... when your gifted...good morning ppl...yes..its 12.47am...n im just done chatting with jazz..."gifts" from heavens...a blessing sometime sthey called it...izit realy a blessing or its not after all?...well, it depends on how u look at it...tehre are many kind of gifts...the gifts that im talking about is not a born genius ...math whiz kid or smtg...im talking on gifts which are hidden...hidden gifts which often goes unnoticed by the society...gifts that are treated as somesort of horror to some ppl...yes! these are hidden gifts which ppl generally linked to the super-natural...gifts that most ppl fear of...well..thats the olden days...the new age has come.n ppl with such capablity were called ..physic...or watthe hell..i dunno how to spell it correct..ahahha..nvm... well..thers alot of such ppl in this world..but no1 realy know who they are...coz such talents are not meant to be known by public..u'll just freak ppl out!!!...ahhahahah... okok..enuf of that..coming back to wat just hapen...yes..was talking to jazz...n i just mentioned on how curious on wheter jar caught any fishes under the penang bridge or not...n voila! kena lecture!!!! ugghhh~~~....jazz,...i know wat u nag me on its 4 my own good..n i know u very care bout me...n i know wat u mean...n i get wat u wana say..n i respect the nagging n your point of view...but jazz...let me tell u this...its not as simple as u think it is..n its not as wat u see or think it is...mayb its the way i put my structure...but let me tell u one thing straight...n to all of u..hear me..im not gonna repeat anymore...im a person of principals (those who have read my previous blog layout should know this)...theres only 3 times for everything in my life...so bear in mind...jar has regained his title as my best buddy, right after jazz....though i may still care for him...but wat the hell? thats how i treated all my buddies...look at jane...when she was down the other day...i was dead worrying...i try to check up on her the next day..but to no sucess..but was very relieve that she' s fine...not enuf proof? ok...take my ex for instance....he mayb my ex...but it doesnt mean i cant care 4 him like i cared fo rmy other frens....some of u know that whenever he' s in trouble or smtg...he'll come looking 4 me...he once even waited 4 me to online at 3smtg am just to ask me wetehr im free to fetch him go c doc...obviously i cant..so late d..but i did offer him to take him go c doc tomolo....so ppl..are u trying to say that untill im willing to sacrifice my time n go take him c doc shows that i still care for him as my lover!!!???oh,god! for god heaven sake ppl!!! i treat every1 like that no matter who they are!!! lagi keng say la...i put aside n rush my assng so taht i can help edit my ex's assng speech...lol~~~...does taht mean i still care for him as my lover? no!!!!...he's still my fren...n he's trying to change...n im happy that he' s trying to change fo rthe betetr...im actually very happy for him by seeing him putting his education 1st...ahhaha...so tahts y i wana help him...n do u know taht i constantly folowed up on his well-being in kl!!???...no..u dunt know...i still remind him on stuff not to do ...caution him on stuff...asking when his gonna come back n stuff...hey! thats wat fresn are for...to show care!!!!...wats wrong of showing care like that!!!???...isnt the way i care for my ex is more xtremme than the way i care for jar!? ...y not say that i still love my ex,huh!? ...lol~~~..u all ar...hai~~~...i dunno wat to say....cant u all c that im a person who shows care freely!!!!???...i did that to every1 no matter wat rank they are...sometimes its more direct..sometimes its indirect... i realy feel like crying when jazz, u nag me on that...is like u r telling me not to care so much bout jar when all i say was wondering how his fishing trip turn out...hai~ ...well thats me...soemmore later u can nag me on asking me to be normal n be myself...im being myself, jazz!!! ....showing care n stuff is me!!! this is me...c....i told u...now do u understand y i tell u..its not easy to b yourself when ur diff from most ppl....do u think i do not care 4 u as much i care for jar?...no dear,...i did...just like every1els.e.i may not tell u..but thousands of questions were running in my mind when i heard ur in sega fredo...i know u will b allright...but i stilll have questions..wether ur ok or not? who r u mixing with...are theu good company or wat?..u know..stuff like that...does that means that i care 4 u as my lover?...no!~....look jazz...im not angry on u n stuff..i know u nag me just bcoz ur concerned...n dun wan me to turn into some of your frens...wasting their life like that...im diff,ok?...i know how to deal with such stuff...i know wats wat n wats not...i realy do appreacite u being direct to me n nagging me on this...but i realy hope u can trust me on this when i say i know wat im doing...n i only care for jar on best buddy basis,ok? ...n i know ur just voicing out your view...but it did cut thru me like hell...its worst hearing this then having jar telling me about being frens...sigh... i realy hope i've make myself clear for the final time....im tired of explaining again n again n again...hai~~~...n as for my blog layout n song....it will stay for as long as i like..till my next major mood swing...so u like it or not..u bare with it! i like it that way anyway...im feeling trashed anyway...it matched wat im feeling about everything now..my current mood...so deal with it...n remember...im kinda intune with everything...so i know myself better than any1 of you out there...anyway, i better go get done my factual essay...and jazz, you r my 1st ever best buddy in my life...n i just realy luv you for that... :) ..*huggles* ...thanks for always be with me... update: 12.28pm. - the reaseon that the sky is blue... im beng now...fed up...trashed...n a gulp of crushed sand im holding tight in my palm...hah!im pissed..yes i am...looking back at the process o thsi sem..realy pissed me off...im dumbfound...its upside down...evreything is...y ppl? y?..y isit so hard 4 u guys to believe me when i say i dun wana do this anymore?..im done with it...im very tired of it..n i dun wan ado this anymore...y izit so hard 4 u guys to trust me on that? ...hai~~...fine...think wat u wan athink..believe wat u wana believe...n i respected you thoughts n u should be with mine too... 4got to return my assng to ms.tan...doing it later in the afternoon...didnt write my essay during midnite..slepey lioa..cant take it nymore..will b passing up later though...guess later aso need to take physco assng 's pic...hai~~~...im thrashed...im devastated with this sem's assng flow...unbelieavable..cnat believe that this sem assng results is a huge dissapointment to evrey1...no..we didnt do our assng with much confidence as last time...somehow...we r just trying to get us thru with our own ways..own format n stuff...n cant believe that theres been so many lec that caution us in failling our course work...mr.goh even gives us so many chances...yet he keeps saying..stil lmany didnt pass...hai~~~...stressnya....buat tension saje...coursework would b seeing a drop for me...entah how many points wana b deducted for being late so many times!!!...ahhaha..cant help it ler..sleepy mer....ehehhehe... hai~~..its lunch time..n im not in the modd to eat...didnt even had proper breakfast...just a few sui mai...hai~~~...dun even know wat to eat...n no1 is available for chatting in msn now...this sux..wonder wher eevery1 go...hai~~~...class ends at 10.30am tody...will b continue at 5-7pm though..later inenr aso tak tau mau pi mana makan..hai~~~...it rained in the morning today...wind are now very cooling n breezy...ehehe...but almost had an accident this morning near union....sudenly teh front car goes on an emergency break...bloody!...luckily i slamed the break in time...if not ar...hai~~~...i dunno liao la...i know i will b all right...but that waj ainfront of me...ahha..i think his butt..gone case liao la....luckily my butt was save...there were no car bhind me that time...lol~...hai~~~...dunno y sudnely all in front were on emergency break...can even hear car tyres screehing...the traffic police who are on duty also stoped, n take a look...lol~...hai~~~...this sux... update:11.11pm...ahha...gees!!! im so dead by now..crisis!!! crisis!!! omg!! i just found out that teher will b replacement class tomolo...so taht emans..class will b from 9-6pm!!! omg!! with only 1 hour break!!! argh!!! then phsyco must pass up on fri...which i hardly edit anything yet..coz plan to do tomolo eh..mana tau...got replacement class pulak...hai~~n exam is like..in 2 weeks time!! that aso i saw jose's nick only know eh..omg!!! shzeli!!! wake up!!! *slapmyself*....omg!! wta the hell m i doing!!!???...im still in lala land!!!well..i didnt realise time fly so fast...ugghhh~~~n ppl i'll b changing layout soon...jbut nottoday...no time d...need to patch things up...hai! n jar actually caught 2 fishes under penanag bridge..wat a miracle! n my ex actually got 47/50 for his assng speech...fuh! tak sangka...ahaha...i aso sumbang tenaga 1,k!!???ahahhahaha...anyway,...arg!! assng!!!! assng!!! next week still got pr presentation....translation's as well...ugghh~~~....god! wat the hell i've been doing!?...not to say i was totaly in lala land..but i was taking everything too easy till i didnt realise this sem will ends in 2 weeks time!!! *faint*...bare with me ppl!! bare with me!!!...n mel!!! we shall strive for it!! n i'll b looking foward 4 u to come back n teman me!!! muacks! muacks! muacks! guess i better go OT now...argH!!!! GO! GO!GO! SHZELI GAMBATEH SHIYO!!!! MINA!!!! GAMBATEH!!!! USH!! OI,OI!!! ASSNGNO, MATTE YO! ANATANO KOROS!!!! USH!!!! *GRIBFISTTIGHTLY* IKUSO!!! Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |