silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005 @ 05:16
the truth is...i've been dying to get out hated my life...blogging from the office again....my home is no longer a safe place 2 blog 4 now as school holiday is here, my lil twerp sis had returned home and as usual being a kpc, checked all my stuff...budding in all my conversation and pretending to stand behind me while the main purpose was to c what did i chat on and who am i chatting with....in other words... my parent's spy!!!...hmph!...what a joker...anyway, for god heaven sake, why did mum go tell dad that there is course of mass comm offered in penang colleges itself???....eeeeeeeeee...geramnya aku!!!...i've been dying to get out of here and now this at the momment of my victory ?what the hell!!!???...10 years...10 years....for 10 years i've been waiting for this momment...the momment when 18 is the key for me to get out from here..miserable life!!!...for more than 10 years i've been doing things out of my will...when will this end!!!???...bakamono!!! how many times must i free myself from the thought of death!!!??? idiotic fools...they should b happy enough with me still being alive!!!...if i were to let myself drowning in the thought of death 10 years ago...they for-sure sure will not see me agian....took me 3 years to forget my thought of death...thinking everything will be different and well once i get into secondary school....but i was wrong...1st few months were like an angle's bliss...then here comes the devil again....life realy sucks...hated my secondary school life....hated all of them!!! forced to do stuff againts my will again...how i wich i could end all of this in a single blow! life gotten worst as i began to be black- listed in school among teachers due to my sleeping habit in class...i've given up hope to study the subject which i was force to study...soon...i became anti-social and dunt even know what the hell is going on that make me famouse in all schools in penang???...come on la...everyone seems to know who i am even though i dunt know them at all?...what kind of freaking shit is that?..anyway...lets c what's the stuff that i was forced to do for more than 10 years by all the peopel that i've known... 1. forced to pierced my ears at 4 just because my cousin sis had them too? 2. forced to learn to play piano when i was 7 just because all my cousin sis are playing? 3. forced to admit stuff that i didnt do and receive punishment? 4. forced to wear clothes which i dun like at all!!! 5. forced to cut my hair short in primary and keep my hair long in secondary? 6. forced to joined competion 7. forced to agree in what ever my sensei say? 8. forced to tell lies 9. forced to go into science stream 10. forced to continue my karate trainning 11. forced to work 12. forced to break up 13. forced to made a promise and keep it? and the latest... i will be force to take up form6!!!...god!!! i hate it and hate it and hate it!!!! dad had finaly comply with me that i'll be going to igs colege next week...we even had register in that...i was so damm happy coz finally i will be free...and the devil will be gone soon...and here comes mum!!!...ruining everything!!!...telling dad yesterday that penang also offered mass comm subject. no!..is not that i dont wanastudy in penang itself its just that...when she mentioned about studying in penang, dad will start his f6 plan again...he's been dying to get me into f6. and i dun like f6 so somehow he's gonna get me into f6 if i decided to stay on in peneng!!!!...AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!....force again!!!...but not this time...my decision wont change...i'm leaving and that's it...final!!!! if i were to stay...i wont even go into f6...so,dad, nice try, i'm not gonna fall for it now nor in the future! NEVER!!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!and mum...i'll go look up on the college which u sugested...but there's no guarantee that i'll study in penang and i'll prove you wrong that igs is a better choice! FOR THIS I PROMISE U!!!......AAKKAKAKAKAKKAKAKA Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |