When Passion meets Life

spinning and a new project

2010-05-18T22:33:00.005+08:00

yes yes...been having lots going on in my head..and dadada...

i have no idea why but for the past days not only am i troubled with things that i need to settled and things which i need to settle in the near future, which is like a huge burden on me. but oh heck.
i was deeply troubled by some hongs that has been automaticlaly pop up n spinning in my head for while..which make sme goes...WTH!!!??? WHY POP UP IN MY HEAD!!!??? and been faling sick for over 2 weeks now btw...

ANYWAY!!!! long story cut short...TADA!!!!

check this out!!!!! my friend is one of the cosplay event organizer..so this is one of the cosplay participant...i know he looks cook (ladies pls behave yourself)...*cougcough* CHECK OUT THE SWORD!!!!! believe it or not...he made that sword by himself!!!! WOOT~!!!!

and me..being typically me....(im attracted to cool weapons u see...XP ) ...i like expressing myself through writings or pictures...and fyi..yes...i damm muka tebal and im gonna say this...im damm proud of my weapons drawings collections...ahhaha..so..seeing this guy making this huge chun punya sword...I ASO WANA DO IT!!! IF I CAN MAKE MY OWN DRAWINGS COME ALIVE, I WILL DO IT!!! I WANA DO IT!! DAMMIT!!!

n how nice he is to teach me how~!! =D weeeeeeee~!!!! *hopshopshops* lalala....sad thing is..this project aint cheap. >_> darn~!!! and i still havent build my own DIY telescope and Submarine model due to the high cost involved and these projects have been pending for...years.... it makes me feel like a..cheapo somehow. incapable or smtg of that sort like. >_> chih~

May 3rd will be the day

2010-04-30T17:20:00.000+08:00

u just need to bare with it for a lil while more.
i swear to you it will be over soon. real soon and quitely i hope.
hold onto the pride that you have for my very existen is forsaken.
here I sign and here i take it all away...the pain and suffocation along and away...
bare with me my love bare with me..a lil while more it can wait...

once in a blue moon

2010-04-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

once in a blue moon....

i recalled...
so many things happened over the the months...
so many things happened so fast...
i dont know how besides trying my best to fight them off and to fed myself...to fend ourselves...

i dont know anymore but to just keep on doing in what i believe is the best..

and yes..i love you dearly...n it kills me...i loved you till it kills me...

sayang...please...no more...im just looking forward to see you in May...

Goodbye Yuki

2010-02-27T14:15:00.006+08:00

My baby ham ham Yukiyo or fondly known as Yuki passed away yesterday afternoon. We suspect she had a heat stroke since she was unable to changed back into her normal coat from winter coat. Plus the CNY weather was a fiery affair.

It was all drama...to write it out will make me emo once again. I better leave it. Akito felt it too. The most at least, as he still search frantically for her and panicky telling me that Yuki is missing and no where to be seen.

I say my final words to her as i clean her off...stroke her head and cuddle her like how i used to for the final time. She was fine the night before, was still fine the morning i saw her...and out of sudden she didnt make it through the evening. Heart-wrenching as it is, she was almost cured off from her urination tract infection...gained bck her weight etc etc...

Though she was still as active as ever, she takes lots of sleep...i guess she knew she was going afterall..since she has been wanting lots of attention lately. and for the past few weeks, keep on giving you lots of kisses her eand there...and not long ago...she will just come up to you on your bed and give you a peck on your lips. awww...i still remeber how sweet she was...n i was wondering why ar~~~ ehehe...the only thing i can think off is she was being manja since she was being away from me for 1 week during CNY break.

Enough of those, ....Baby Yuki was laid to rest at the Waterfall near our home. It rained cats and dogs that day. Ah Kit was there. And he was holding the umbrella for us and coincidentally both of us were wearing black that day when she was found dead.

Reminding her on how much I love her and how much we (Akito and I) will missed her...and giving her some good advice and saying a lil prayer...we send her off by letting her sail off at the waterfall in her newspaper and plastic bag casket.

Baby...you will be deeply missed.

For those who grew fond of her...and wasnt there. You could drop her a few kind words and share her your love at her Online Memorial. (click!)

killed..it killed our love...

2010-02-01T00:55:00.004+08:00

his attitude of "boh chap" killed us all
it killed his...
killing mine...
and ultimately killed our love....
it officially killed us...
today...
oh well.yesterday 10smtg...
8 month+...a record...smtg that i cant believe myself...
it killed me eventually...

everyone is rejoicing..well almost everyone...
but its typical..ppl always remember the bad side easily...
they forgot bout the joy n love that he brings to me...
they forgot about the day when i will always look forward and smile 24/7
they forgot bout the day when theres always a glow in my face
they forgot...and forgot...those happy lil things...a day that i will always laugh...even if its a bad day...

oh they had forgotten on all the good things he brings into my life...

my tears...are dried up...there are practically none to shed...
i did not...he did...trying hard to hold up his tears....i can practically hear him goes like a flue person trying to stop his runnynose like that..

sigh~ it breaks my heart to just see that...but i was calm and composed on the outside...n inside. but deep deep down...im shattered into pieces even though i knew it far before hand.''

kanashi....atashiwa koto kanashi yo...
kore wa ai to...anatano zutto kanggaeiru...
aitai...aitai yo...suki...suki dai suki yo...demo..itaii...
korewa kimochi kirai...
anata....:) zutto dai saitten! ;)

bleed it thru

2010-01-31T16:26:00.003+08:00

my hearts bleed every time its like this...
i'm at my verge of my existence...
i'm at the verge of patience...
but what ever it is...
i've say what i have to say...
it's all up to you now to do it or not...

*hearts*

Christmas comes Early with Dearie

2009-12-20T22:33:00.014+08:00

^^

today I pull on my dress and dash out the house looking and smelling all flowery nice. Drive shzeli drive to dearie's house.

ehhe...dearie came back yesterday JUST for 1 day...ehehe...

so when i reach his place..of cos we r going out to celebrate xmas early!!! since he's not coming bck for xmas ...(high possibility)

i saw a santa hat..and goes KYA~!!! *snapsnapsnap*

Take 1

Take 2...i actually put the hat on him and secretly snap him. kekeke...he's kinda reluctant. ekkee..but i think he looks cute here. tee-hee

Take 3: he finally gave in...but...

Rei: Dearie i cannot see your eyes! why you tak epic close your eyes!!???

Dearie: no i did not!!! I OPEN MY EYES!!1 its just small!!!! *evilglare*

Rei: oh! i see! muahhahahaha~!! TAKE AGAIN!!! OPEN BIGGER!!! and smile more!!! say cheese!!!!

Dearie: the hell!? no. im not going to say cheese.

Rei: nope. u follow wat i say...HAWAII WAIKIKI!!!

Dearie: WHAT!!!????

Rei: *falling off dearie's lap and quickly grab him and CLICK*

so yah.here it is...Take 4

we planed on to eat lunch togetehr and jalan jalan...but then...we dont realy have the time. he's train is leaving bck to singapore at 2pm. and its 12smtg already. so off we go to Kl Sentral and had our lunch at "Swiss Oven". They served stuff like deli france...BUT WAY NICER!!! *tumbs up* service not so good...but the food is good. very generous and seriously good!!! and affordable!!!

Mine: Toast Bacon & Cheese *very pang* Rate: 6/10

Dearie's : I 4got wats the name but heck its cheese and bacon as well but cook in diff style and yes its as huge as Subway's...and it syumy with its ownb originality! =D Rate : 7/10

Ours: Mash & Cheese Mushroom Sausage. =D Rate: 6/10

and w etalk n talk n talk...n i again.never failed to do stupid things.. >_> laughed out it..oh heck. and what xmas would be without pressie eh?

so i whoop up my pressie for dearie...and say.. "you are not suppose to open them before santa comes!!!" and he just goes...=D weee~!!!! like a lil kid.

well aparently many ppl hav ebeen giving him advanced xmas pressie. Aunty Christine got him a camera, a wallet from Florah and a brand new laptop from Uncle James. =D no wonder~~~

so what i gave him? THIS!

with a hand written "mushy-mushy" Xmas Card of cos. ^^

and now..its not your cheapo stuff..it cost me quite a handful of coins you know~!!!! even after a huge bargain i got for this. ehehe..i hopes he likes it since its not the usual ragged essence that he used. ehe

nyway...after makan a susal he will wan ago to the loo ...but i never expect him to bring this back for me.. =)

My Xmas Pressie!! ^^ *huggz*

Time flies ..so with a quick peak into the paper bag...i send him off to the waiting area...as we hugged and hold on while waiting for the train...we had quick talks and hahas here and there...he peck me on my forehead and a "love you" from me...we say goodbye as he walks into the train terminal and me off back home. :)

and oh no..it doenst ends here. back home, i unpack my pressie...and to my surprise..i goes KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all my fav stuff!!! eheheh

i love teddy!!! i love ferero rocheas!!!! i always wanted a candy cane!!! an di like the gummy gummy sweet!!! and i've been wanting a mug like that long~~~time ago. ehehhe~!! and i got'em all in a day!!! =D

I'm soooo happy that i text dearie bout it...ehehe

and oh..here's my new pink teddy. for once...i got myself a gal teddy. lol~!!!

I call her " Sweet Strawberry Shortcake Pie" ^^

Dearie...Suki. Dai Suki. :) *chu* arigato yo.

I'll see you soon...real soon. :)

Merry Christmas~

Pitch Baby Pitch!

2009-12-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

I pitch.

yes. Its my job to pitch.

oh yes...you love my job...free food all year round. who doesnt like free food.

The food is making me fat.

And pitching is driving me mad.

Try writing 5 pitching write-ups a day on the same topic "food" and you'll see...

die.

I'M TIRED OF PITCHING!!!!

*pulls out hair*

gah!

run rei run

2009-11-22T13:54:00.003+08:00

with an unsound mind..there are two things for me to click and i wonder which and should i not...reminiscence of the golden sapphire sends tremors of chills to my spine...im falling from my glory of crown...to the netherlands i become...i ponder...and ponder...

i just want to run ...

for all the things that i fought for ...
i spent my entire life of 22 years fighting against the many wills of ppl to drag me into living their lives n dreams...

i have my own...n i will do anything to get what i want even if it means hurting myself and risking a lil..the rewards reap is fullfilling...im a very determined person and to achieve what i want...i close the door to my heart...i close myself from everything and anything that could hurt me and bring my walls down...i was afraid...of losing myself...of losing control on what i am able to do...

i've triumph in many of these events...n came out champion..thats how i lead my life till now...everything planned out...everything runnig smoothly as what i want...to give me what i want...

till i met him...

emotions swarm over me like never b4 ...it was wild and a whirlwind...i loved him...too much i realised.

i thought of doom and giving up at 1st as it will be in my way..but i found way sto deal with it...why not kill 2 birds with 1 stone...i was greedy...and i was feeling rather bold. why cant i have both loved and success? why...

forced to choose and choose n choose...and with constant nagging...i;ve reach my limit. im at my peak...i've reahc a point which i just wnat to give up everything...im tired...very tired..of this cycle...

we had a big fight yesterday...our first and hopefully our last...over small minal things..hwich i can easily solved it...but as human nature calls..he's one though cookie. there. i got my wish. a guy on the same par as me. more to say....more on a higher note than me.

i panicked and stunned. n i donnt what to do. for the 1st time i actually cried over an argument and cried badly over a talk. like a kid i plea and all..it cut me through when it falls on deaf ears...yes...im looking at him...like looking at myself in a mirror....

i was beyond my sound mind...my door is closing...my heart is hidin behind the wall...my voice is gone...i look into the distance empty spaced with tears rolling down my eyes...till he holds me and calls out to me...took me awhile to have the strength back to answer him..

i was lost. i have lost. i've lost...

my ego tells me to hold on to it...future are unknown...anything can happend. you step into this knowing well that you are taking a big gamble. i throw away so many things to have 2 things in my life...my dream job and the man that i love so much. i had them all...it was worth it. but its reflection shown yesterday...kills me. i no longer want anything. i dont know what to choose. i dont know wat to do.

my investment just goes off like that...im right now...in a state of an unsound mind...im burn out...from fighting for things hat i want....im tired of chasing dreams...im tired of loving you so badly...im tired of fending off those ppl who wants to take away my dreams...im tired...

i've not a single energy left...i just want to run...

with this good luck charm chopstick that i tied for you...
may this be the last time i cried for you...
may this be the last blood i bleed for you...
may today;s brunch be my last cooking for you...
may this song i sang be the last song i will sing to you...
may this kiss be the last kiss i give to you...
may this huggles and cuddles be the last warmth i share with you...
may this memory today be the last to be locked away....
i declare you...to leave...
leave...
leave....i cant...

i dont want to...not that i cant...but i dont want to. all this feelings...all thsi words...all the time and effort i've invested...is eating me up slowly and gradually will devour all of me...and one day...like you say...when the real final blow actually came...i might not be able to take it by then. i night just be blown off so badly that im back to my old self...hiding in the dark empty space in my mind...emotionless...

i just want to run..and run...and run...and i will run...
i dont feel like waking you up now for my selfish self...
dear...please dont leave me. please dont... go...
*sobz*

the perfections of the lil imperfections

2009-10-25T13:25:00.003+08:00

with dearie leaving me behind soon in about 2 weeks time...

it is as though that i never thought of what could and might happened there and then..

till this that..thoughts of this clouded my mind ever since he announced to me his plan of leaving ti pursue his dream career..

i support.

as i keep this fear and worries in me, myself...i solved and managed ot talk myself out of the negative things that might be..and i;m all a happy kid again

nevertheless, yesterday dearie surprised me with questions of these like.."what do you like about me?" ...and questioning on us in terms of distance, security, trust and the unknown.

as i fight through to hold onto my tears in the public, i gave in to them eventually when i'm at home. its unbearable. the thought and feelings of having some1 so dear to you to slipped away like that is scarily frightening.

there was a time when i thought i was ok without him..when i dont needed him i'll be ok. like how i use to be when i'm with the other guys of my past relationships. but this had stop to came into a time when i cant live without him. ironic? yes i know. and i understand.

we have the most ups and down and the most exciting and fun filled loved relationship hat i ever had experienced. he was wonderfully fit to be my next partner in life. i practically cried my shit off throughout this relationship...ahaha..yah..laugh all you want. shzeli crying? ahahha...yes ppl. i cried like shit when im with him. he managed to opens up and held this fragile heart that i hide in me. so basically i can just cry naturally on small small things that makes me feel so sad without control. lol~!!!

so ok....i do understand on why and what he fears..but hey? ntg is perfect. and aint that suppose to be part of the fun being in a relationship? at least we tried to hold things and make it better. at least we put in an effort. and let things take its course rather than doing ntg and just let it be lik ethat.

as i said this dearie udnst what i mean..and yes...i wished that he realy undt waht im saying. :) but nevertheless

this i tell him " that it is the lil imperfections that he has that makes everything perfect. ...:)

and i love him so that way..:)

and now.i need to go wake him up from his so called prince charming deep slumber..ahaha..tsktsktsk

but im overall happy with him..and is glad that he opens up to me like that..:)

and just like that...we go our ways in loved with each otehr...waiting for another better wonderfuly day to see each otehr again..

till we embrace each other...LET'S PARTY~!!!! MUAHAHHAHAHAHAH...and yeah..pls remeber that i always loved you.

My hearts My dreams..crushed beneath you...

2009-09-25T13:27:00.003+08:00

For all the things that i thought i knew...

For all the thing that i have fought for...

For all my pursuit for things of dreams...

I've unconciously abandon and crushed you deep inside...

And I thought I knew...it all along....

I'm the sinner...

I'm the beholder...

Enlighten me...my love...

*hearts*

uh...Kid? my kid?

2009-08-13T23:10:00.003+08:00

So here's the thing. I;ve been up to many things ...n since today im having so much time to myself...i decide to follow the bandwagon. lol~!!

been seeing couple of my friends having some fun with morphthing.com in tehir so-called morphing my future baby. lol~!!! i hav elike pics of em in my fren's facebook pic album. keep on popping up on my feeder. ahha..so i decided to try

Rei + Dearie = WAHLAO EH~!!! i dont even know if its a boy or gal. ahahhaha~!!! and he/she look so mature!!! >_>

can anyone see any resemblance of eitehr me or dearie? 0.o

blog liao lor

2009-06-14T23:40:00.003+08:00

ahahha

busy ma...lol. then no mood to blog ma. all aso in plurk ma...lol

anyway~~~

many things had happen..both shitty and utmost sweet!!! ahahaha

been working..n staying late in office...but okler..life is ok. ehehe could be extra better and sweeter though..kekeke

DEARIE~!!! I MWISS YOU~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *huggztight* ><

O.K.! cut that crap..erm...lets see...

all aso work stuff..wth!? thsi week need to work till sunday... T.T

cos got event...aih~..tak pe ytak pe..exposure.

got job offer from shipping company..my fren want me to go over to help him badly...willing to give in to my demands and willing to wiat for me...BUT STILL~!!! ...sry ler dude...i dun like shipping... :( sowie~~~....n i dowan travel all the way to subang to do smtg that im not into ma...

then this week aso need to attend all sorts of meetings and briefing on behalf of my boss cos she is on annual leav efor 1 freaking week! gawd. pengan aku...

besides this...photo shooting here n there...including a VIP shooting tomorrow...ugghhh...then arrange this n that for upcoming events an dblablabla...GAH~!!!!

write this write that...blablabla...GAH~!!! IM GOING NUTTS!!! lol~!!!

sabar~~~sabar~~~~ actually its not all gonn ahappend in 1 da...its a whole week thingy to do...just that..i havent oraganized them properlu...so it looks like all to do in 1 day...hahaha... =.="

in which im going to do later...to organize my organizer...lol..aih~

all alone this freaking weekend..all balik kampung! chih!

luckily dearie come visit me at nite...*huggz* so sweet of him...though he had family gatehring n launching of his mother's shhop expanssion...he still make some time to come find me...awww~!! *huggztight* i lab him. ahahhaha

*COUGHCOUGH*

aaaaaaaaa~~~...for pics pls go see my facebook. sudah di-update-kan...and no~~~ i dun have any latest pic of me n dearie together...he just cut his hair..ehhe..AND IM GONNA FREAKING TAKE PIC WITH HIM!!!
FORCED HIM!!! XP

I WILL~~~~ U WILL SEE~~~ EEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE...BUAHHAHAHAAHAHHAHA

officially yours..officially us on Mother's Day

2009-05-19T15:14:00.002+08:00

^^ ...Dearie and I are officially together as a couple on Mother's Day!! 10th May!!! ^^ ehehe

*shucks~~* *blushblush*..and im all happy happy all smile up everyday.... ^^ *huggsles*

Maidtchi

2009-05-06T14:21:00.002+08:00

yo mina sama..lol~!!!

a lil updates on Mayu-Chan...fufufu

she evolved yesterday into an adult Maidtchi...byesh..she is now a adult...but she is still aged...3years!!! wth~!!?? baically all my tamagotchi evolved faster than their actual age. gawd. dunno wats wrong with them.

from a crybaby Mayu chan it become a hot chick Mayu Chan ..lol~!!!

why? cos...according ti the description provided by tama town...Maidtchi are always hardworking in cleaning the house and is one of the popular gals that the boys go after.

aha! so that well esplains why she got so many love mails~~ ahhaha..and not to forget...perhaps the reason why she is receiving snake in the mail could be of jealosy from the otehr gals...oh you know~~~ tsktsktsk

of love and Mayu-Chan

2009-05-04T02:52:00.005+08:00

ehehe

been long time since i last blog..been realy lazy and buzy..ahhaa

check this out...

I GOT MYSELF A TAMAGOTCHI FINALLY!! ahahahha

been wanting one for years~~~ since i was a kid. fufufufufu~~~

with isetan recent sale..my dream to have one had come true...ah~~ *flies off*

though i would want the v.5 so that i can rear 3 tamachi or the latest color 1...but then again..i couldnt afford and its our of stock. >_>

so im down with a v.4.
...

tak pe!!! asalkan ada! ahahhahaha~!!!
was pretty lucky actually...by the time i went there the rack was left with like..uhm..about 10 tamagotchi? ehhe

kore...atashiwa tamagotchi v4. desu! ^^

kirei nee??? ehhehehe

and let me tell you bout my tamachi baby!!! ^^

kore...ringotachi!!!

Kanojo no namae Mayu-Chan desu!!! ^^

She looks like that for now..ahhaa.. as a teenager. kekeke

aparently for every stage they grow, they become otehr tama species. lol~!!!

but watever it is..Mayu-Chan is Mayu-Chan..the cry baby no matter how old or what species she morph into. >_> *gribfist* tak tahan aku...chih~!

nyway~~~

AI!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

TADA!!!

Love sushi~~~ ahahahaha~~!!! was very very lucky to eat 1 like this!!! ahahhaha~!! *feels so proud and lucky* ahahha

ITADAKIMASU!!!

My heart...my soul...sings...this...

2009-04-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

Teardrops on my guitar -Taylor Swift-

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

no idea

2009-04-07T03:41:00.002+08:00

why i cant sleep tonight

its already almost 4am..and i have class at 10am. but still~~ i wonder why and i dont know why i could sleep...my mind is still up and active but my brain is not thinking...

most probably bcos of stress and the overwhelming feeling to proved them wrong and run away ...hmmm~~ and therefore i have been pinching up searching for jobs more often , to take me away...

now, if you were wondering wat will hapen to dearie if that realy happened...my answer is simple. lantak semua. dearie hav eno sense of urgency as well..so lantak pi...lol~!!!

ok. im talking craps. an di just spend a bom in "Restaurant City". cant stop refurbishing. ahahha

sigh~..jar~~ take me go uk wif you...*tearypuppyeyes* lol~!!! ahhaha

hmmm...

*10minutes pass*

okie!! i cna finaly feel the sleepiness kicking in...im off! adios amigos! ^^

a piece of thought

2009-04-05T21:06:00.002+08:00

that makes me wonder...

and wishes...

...

for all the time that i have left...i wish i would have more time and all the time i could ever have to do all the things that i ever wanted...

...with you...

... *faint smiles* :)

The Crusade Swords'09

2009-03-28T23:02:00.004+08:00

I just wana show off!!!

ahahahh..nah~!!!

i just wana share with you guys my latest masterpiece!!! ;)

BUAHHAHHA!!!!

its been years since i last got inspired to draw. And in-case you are wondering what got me to draw..ahhaha..Dearie did. lol~!!! not like he inspired me to draw..more like...I was thinking of him and SUDDENLY it came into my mind an di just need to draw it out. lol~!!!

and f.y.i. I sketch and draw according to my mood...so my weapons collections are manifestation of my overwhelming feelings and thoughts on things.

You can check out my other old collection in facebook. lol~!!! saje ler...wana share share my hobby ma~!!! ish!

The white thing..the white lil feeling

2009-03-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

It was such a beautiful day today..such beautiful morning that one could have never imagine how beautiful it is. Chilly and all...drops of dew..and the serenity of silence that encompass its surrounding...

:)

heaven..i thought ...heaven on earth... :)

Then i saw it...all white..the biggest so far i've seen...so white..so clear..it slowly floats...gracefully glide away ..and it came to me in my head.."oh..its so beautiful..its so happy.. :) "

and i can't stop smiling...its been awhile since i last saw a happy soul...its so beautiful...and i wonder..would i be the same? ..would i be that happy...will there come a time when i will glide away as peacefully and as happy and gracefully as she did... :)

it was so beautiful..such a beautiful sight..i have never seen or felt this beautiful before... :) a tingling feeling of peace , happiness and serenity run through me like never before, and i know that time is soon, will be..soon...and heaven can wait...a lil much longer.. :)

and i wonder.."eh..why is she so happy?" from the graceful way it glides.. i can only think of one... :) .."seeing and meeting the one.."

and with that my thoughts run to you..and yes i know this lil white feeling...

"i miss you too.. :)"

*tiny lil hearts from me to you*

Handphone Tag

2009-03-20T21:41:00.004+08:00

Handphone

Tagged by :Fay

1. Your hp model?

Sony Ericson Z610i

2. How many times did your hp get tortured by you?
zero! my handphone only get heart attack when i loose my grip on it and caught it back on time. lol~!! countless of time. lol~!!!

3. Which part of your hp u hate the most and why?

the keypad..its so ugghhh...ugly.

4. Which part of your hp you like most and why?

the led display on its cover. ;)

5. What icon do you like the most?

tak de.

6. What else to change to become a perfect hp?

the keypad pls~~~

7. You need a handphone because?

i need to stay and get connected. lol~!!!

8. Who bought this handphone for you?

hand-down from my aunt.

9. With the total amount of your hp price, what could you buy others than hp?

lots of stuff. anime~~~ anime~~~ and anime~~~ lol~!!!

10. Is your hp model popular in the market?

oklor...

11. Describe yourself as a smart hp user?

i dont do miss calls. heh~

12. How often do u charge your hp?

depends on my consumption.

13. Estimate, how long could your hp survive?

2 more years?

14. Actually are you interested in hp?

oklor...i have to telan everything as a pr..lol

15. Are u happy with your hp condition now?

not realy. it hang dude. the stupid phone hand for no aparent reason. lol~!!!

16. Every morning, what is the first thing u do with your hp?

Turn off the alarm? ~.^

17. Imagine someone takes your hp away for 1 day.. What would happens?

er...give me back my phone? i need my sim card. i dun rememebr numbers. except for dad's and grandma's. lol~!!!

18. No hp no life. agree or bullshit?
lol~!!! i have to agree. ahahha..cos..my hp is not just my phone..it is also my organizer!!!! LOL~!!!

19. Tag 6 sexy phone users

that is..if i have 6..lol...Mellie...Ming...Stevie...Wari...Jaryn...Farah D?

for all i know...

2009-03-14T19:12:00.003+08:00

it is not going to work like that...

sigh

i have no idea what got into me..call me emo or whatsoever

but all the damm shit i ever gonna care about is right now ..what the heck is going on in my head

i dont know what struck my head..or my heart. but suddenly...for this semester...i just loose all my confidence in doing things. most prob thnx to dr.selva. tsk!

i have no confidence in doing assngs..writing my cover letter,...or do watever shitz that i wana do.. and most probaly is FYP's fault as well..

hai~~ too much rejection through out previous sems and here you have. a soul without self confidence in things she do.

im ..hai~ i dunno.

guess it cant be help...im stil looking for jobs...otehr better jobs..ko is helping to look for job in Sg. everyone wants me to go Sg. aih~

but dunno ler...dearie is not awar eof any of this. he has no sense of urgency. selamba saje as always...

aih~

watever la...leave aso leave la..stay aso stay la...watever..watever la...

can i just run away far far away.....

my 22nd Birthday.. :)

2009-03-08T17:56:00.011+08:00

on 5th march....we celebrated my EARLY bday~~ ^^

at Nandos Jaya One..in which they make me do things.. =.="

tapi tak pe~~~ celebrate jugak~~ ahahha

then on my REAL BDAY!!! 7TH MARCH!!!

i celebrated it at Sushi Zanmai; The Gardens~

aku belanja of cos...ahaha

the Stamina Roll~~~

The guest~

My clubbing kaki

My roomie and supper mate

My good old frens from penang

Nice nice food... ^^

and of cos...Dearie~!! my dearie.. ^^ *hearts*

and im SUPER HAPPY bcos...i can finally celebrate my bday with some1 i hearts...yesh. ironicaly this wish of mine is never been fulfill by any of my exs.

but with it being granted...it just means..im left with 2 more wish...i think...and hopefully i will have the time to have it all before everthing ends... :) and most of all...hopefully ..yeah...hopefully...things will change and i will have more time to enjoy it all... :)

*hearts*

A day out with Dearie :H-A-P-P-Y~!!!

2009-03-01T19:29:00.007+08:00

i am putting on whole mellie's baday post...ehehe..because...and just because I am soooooo happy today~!!! ^^

eheheh ..*hearts* *hugglesdearie*

We had our lunch at Italianese at Sunway Pyramid..its Dearie's 1st time there...so i get to pick most of the stuff...kekeke ...we practically had a tiny scene in the restaurant..and it goes like this..

Waiter: Smoking or non-smoking area?

Rei: Hmm.....*looks at dearie*

M: Smoking area pls...

Rei looks at dearie...

Waiter: This way pls...

Rei: uhm..non-smoking area! XP

Waiter paused and looks at M

M: ahah..no. i'm smoking dearie. so smoking area.

Rei: *pout* mmm~~

Waiter still looking

M: Smoking pls.

Waiter senyum kambing and lead the way...

cis.

then once we are seated we start ordering in which of cos..dearie lets me choose all...buahahahah~!!!

4 types of pasta in 1...awww...dearie pick the lagsanea and some fetchuni with mushroom and brocolli...and as for me...i go for the classic carbonara and shrimp linguine..

we r suppose to share all ...BUT kekekekkeke...dearie didnt take shrimp.so i...MAKAN SEMUA~!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH~!!!

and of cos..while waiting for the food...

Dearie is being mean ... *pout*

he snucked up a kiss on my cheek when i click the camera...i was suprise ..and that explain why my smile in the pic looks a bit..uhm...straight and stone? lol~!!!!

and...we go watch Role Model and its HILARIOUS!! highly recomended for young adults. lol~!!! u gotta undst the dirty jokes dude..its 18PL or isit 18PG...hmmm...tak pe la...18 category jugak...lol~!!!

but anyhow...im happy....VERY VERY HAPPY!!! ^^

*huggles tight*

*hearts*

Bagan Lalang; Sepang

2009-02-24T16:43:00.007+08:00

pardon me for the long waiting...ahhaha

but few weeks back...mellie took me to bagan lalang for a nice nice seafood dinner. eehehe

we cam-whore by the beach after makan...and heres some pic..u can check them out in fb..ehehe

ah..n teh food...

we had tons of them. bamboo siput, fish, crabs, sotong...prawns and vege and 2 jug of watermelon juice which results me in falling sick the very next day. lol~!!

SEDAP TETAPI LETHAL!!

lol~!!!! down with a flue...ahahha

but memang sedap..worth traveling all the way up to sepang..an dof cos..melissa ong pay la...ahahhahahah~!!!

XP

it smells like roses

2009-02-20T00:55:00.003+08:00

my table is smelling like roses...

sitting just oh-so-close to it just make sme smells it. n oh how i just love its texture and color.

wished dearie can be cured off his personal dilemma if he ever get to smell it. n look at how it is right now. ahahah~!!!

and im falling asleep now , thinking whether i should go club later at night or should i just stay at home n wait for the IF kemunculan dearie. ahahahah

and stupid AEON still havent reply nor can i get thru to them. ish!

my valentine...

2009-02-14T19:01:00.010+08:00

February 14, the day when some ppl dreaded and the day which i am looking fwd to spend with someone i like. or perhaps...someone i love. *wink*

so this year...i FINALLY get to spend it with that someone. Dearie. :)

Dearie suppose to came to fetch me at 10pm on friday..but end up 12am only come and fetch me cos apparently dearie is not done helping his mum sending flowers. *you go figures*

I heart these colors..they are some of my fav colors and yesh. Dearie doesnt know about it. He just got lucky. lol~!!!

yeah..I 3 rose you too... XP ahahah

This is the 1st time you guys see him, rite? ok...i need you to focus on his hand. CHECK THAT OUT! ahahahhahahahhah~!! his hand in this pic reminds me of Jack Skeleton!!! ahahahahha

yup..thats the Chopstick pig for you.

And TAKO!! MY TAKO!!! i think the box is soooooo cute!! KYA~!!! 6 biji rm4. ;)

And yours truly~ ^^ ...and no...im not trying to eat the flower. >_>

although valentines didnt go as planned as how dearie wanted, but i do have lots of fun with the 2 hours that we had.

And i didnt expect Dearie to deliberitly skip his afternoon class just to come back from Nilai , early to planned for the night. To surprise me with dinner at TGI ,already reserved and arranged with his TGI friend which will then lead to him caught me by surprise cos he told me he would come at 10pm and we are only going to watch movie. *tsktsktsk* But thanks to overflow of flower orders, Dearie has to cancled all these last minute.

and therefore we end up going out at 12am when Dear is done with his job for the day.Drive around and talk and off we go to Asia Cafe at Subang to meet up with Dearie's friends and for supper.

AND~!!! Dearie gotta send me home early cos he needs to send flowers again later at 8am. will be busy wholeday and im stuck at home like this. ahahhaha

who ask me to date a florist's son, eh?

ahhaha

*hearts*

its sweet enough for me

2009-02-09T19:53:00.003+08:00

i sleep myself off from thinking alot and i was suddenly awaken from my evening nap by an SMS

partially cursing it to death

it reads:

"Sleeping beauty, you awake?"

a rush of sakura pink to the cheeks draws the happiest-gal-on-earth smile on my zombie face and the rest was memory.

its sweet enough to read or have such sweet thing for you to see or hear 1st thing when you open your eyes. it changes everything. made your day.

just like how some1 used to morning call me and say.."Good morning, Sunshine. "

It makes you feel like you are somewhat a princess in a fairytale land. :)

And of coz i wont deny the fact that being half awake and half dreamy, what can i expect more from my replies if its not kiddish, dreamy and sleep-talking-like, eh?

ehhehe...so yeah...it doesn't takes alot to make me happy..just lil sweet things like this will do. cos its sweet enough for me to be a great memory and makes me heart you even more. ^^

and souping up something for me is an added sweetness to everything.

i cant asked for more..nor afford anything more...

*hugglesdearie*

a word to dearie

2009-02-08T01:20:00.003+08:00

Dear Dearie,

Oh, don't be such an ass with me, you ass.

Love,

LOL.

J.Co Donuts with Ming

2009-01-14T01:59:00.006+08:00

Last Saturday, on the 10th Ming and I was hitting Sunway Pyramid to get some window shopping done and if possible, real shopping. ahaha

Ming took me to J.Co donuts for some munchies before we meet up with the others for steamboat later.

Was my 1st time there...and we ordered these!

[from top to right and below] Green Tea , Sugar , Dark Choco, Crunchy Crunchy, Oreo and Choco Nut for a...^^ nice Kaching of RM12+.

I love the Green Tea...disappointed with Crunchy Crunchy cos its not crunchy at all (donuts~~ i know~~ suppose to be soft, eh? ...but the name Crunchy Crunchy DECEIVES me!!!) ahha...and i prctically got Jilak with my Dark Choco cos..although its yummy, there is also some coffee filling inside the donuts...which makes it more creamy and more ugghhh~~ for me.

and so..i show Ming my puppyeyes and some goldfish face and Ming decides to save me from my jilak-ness by helping me to fininsh it up. ahahha

the rest? Ming seems to love it though. lol~!!!

and here comes Ming...re-apearing in my blog after a long~~~hiatus from hangging out wif me. lol~!!!! *hearts*

dun ask wheres my face cos Ming makes me look fat in the pic which makes me decide not to put it up. XP

Pancakie Breakfasie

2009-01-06T14:53:00.004+08:00

yes ppl...I finaly get to eat my all time fav breakfast set..Pancake with tons of maple syrup with sausages and cheesy vege omelet! ^^

of cos..i cook myself...go out like that makan? hard to find such stall selling these babies and its a bom even if u found 1. ahahaha

and yesh..bcos im the only 1 at home who is into eating american breakfast n all...i kinda practyically fininsh eating all these for couple of days straight. ahahah XP

talking bout freaks. XP

Merry 2009

2009-01-02T17:10:00.002+08:00

da da da~!!

its 2009..and i have been running away from my FYP..yes...dreadful isnt it?

so i just done sending email to the AIDS council blablabla...and hope for the best reply so that i wont get to do double work anymore~~ aih~

nyway nyway~~~

Dear dear came over for a short visit on Boxing Day which makes me happy~!!! ^^ *smiling beamingly*

and i drove all the way down to Butterworth for the very 1st time....chewah~~~ *bangga* i was so freaking super alert on the bridge and all that dear dear was getting very "concern" on his safety. ahahahhah~!!!

new year eve was pretty sucky..ntg to do this year ...so im stucked at home drinking beer alone and playing games. heh!

and oh look!!! if u realise on my Dragon collection..i actually have just added 2 new special edition dragons. BUAHAHAH~!!. The red stripy 1 would be a Chrismast Dragon (available only on xmas) and the Blue 1 would be a Winter Dragon..(ui have autum why not winter,eh?) of cos...both of them are still a kid...wait till they grow up and you'll see... ^^

AND~~~ i forgot to buy extra maple syrup for my wonderfully planned breakfast tmolo. >_>
i thought it always come in the packet togetehr with the mixing flour n stuff. chih! guess economy downturn has caused them to remove it. worst come to worst ui have to subsiture maple syrup woth honey. aih~

oh well... :)

MERRY 2009 ppl...may the best be with you... ;)

H-A-P-P-Y!!!

2008-12-27T16:38:00.002+08:00

the tittle says it all...

H-A-P-P-Y!!!! ^V^

*giggles all the way*

pissed. fkc off dude~!!!

2008-12-20T23:59:00.005+08:00

ya dude~!!! fuck off!

wth you think you are, eh??? not even my parents owned my time..so who the heck you think you are!!!???

hello~~~~ assholes~~!!!! are you listening??? are you awake??? *slapslapslapINFINITY*

for everyone infomation...i HATE ppl who thinks they are SOOOO big that they owned my time. MY ASS!!!

you plan and set a time.u make sure you follow it!!! if you cant you CAN always inform ppl ALWAYSEARLIER!!! and earlier as in 1 DAY B4!!! or..worst come to worst...AT LEAST few hours before.

DUN come give me such shitz calling me up telling me you cnat make it 1 HOUR B4 TIME!!! i will slaughter your ass off!!!

and DUN come calling me telling me shitz like you need to bring things foward to like..."hey...can we leave early? like...in 1 hour time?" i will MAKE SURE YOU WILL NV SEE TOMORROW!!!

so yeah`!!! take that you idiot!!! IDIOTZ~!!!

go get a life!!! you think my whole day is just for you??? dun even try to think of kissing my ass...GO KISS YOUR OWN ASS, SHITZ!! lol~!!!

to be honest to you...i dun even need you!!! and dun act as if my life depends on you~!!! you want me to carpool with ya...oh heck i can carpool wif ya. but dun come give me such lats minute shitz, cos i can just go get myself bus tickets to go off!! I DUN NEED YOUR GOD DAM CARPOOL in th every 1st place!!! assholes.

you and your last minute frens...and hell you are in too cos you submit to their last minute decision and let them push you around..so yeah..you and your last minute frens are dickhead. you think you can just take up my time and shift my plans just like that??? THINK TWICE, you idiotz...IDIOTIC BABOONZ!!!

you think you are all smart??? YOU ARE NOT EVEN AN INCH CLOSE!!!

a person who cant manage their own time and thing and don't even know their rights and cant even fight for their own principles and piriorities are NOTHING but a piece of shit walking around, like a zombified terrorists!

LOL~!!!! AHAHHAHAHA...

chih. assholes. guys are just freking assholes.

issit just me or the world has been populated by certain amount of humans who dun even know what is called time management and good planning???

anyway...

will be heading back to Penang in about...30 minutes time...and yes...with some freaking baboonz..which i screwed the driver's head for almost 20 minutes on the phone to get his head right. i pratically have to FOUGHT through to get this freaking time: leaving a 12.45am instead of 1 or 2 am as promised.

and it seems that after dr.selva's classes for 2 sem consecutive, i AM getting for particular with this aspect of life! i used to close one eye on such thing...but my ass!! oh boy, am i getting furious on such lame attitude. no sense of respect and responsibility at all. if you cant even handle such small thingz of your life, tell me...whatelse can you even handle properly,huh???

no wonder the world is filled with so many screwed up ppl. tsk!

pissed.

Tales of the Dragons :SPECIAL

2008-12-18T02:45:00.002+08:00

AHEM AHEM AHEM!!!

now..in this special edition of Tales of The Dragon...i'm going to break the news...yesh~~ THE news of conspiracy and the by-product of it! hahaha

you see...Empress shzeli...was getting bored during her study break..she got ntgelse better to do than to entertain herself by maximizing her curiosity and satisfied her greed. yesh~~ ppl~~~ oh, im such a player...uh..i mean gamer? oh watever~~~ *rolleyes*

ok...

cut long story short

we all know that Lady Irise is a high priestess? correct? (of cos its correct! lol~!!!) she has been keept away from the public's eye~~~ UNTIL 1 DAY!!! *dramatic chord* she decided to sneaked out from the the High Priestest Temple and during that time she accidently bump into none other the charming prince , Lord River Whyne~~~ And they fall in love at 1st sight of cos~~ (oh..i know~~~ i know~~ rei is such a typical farie tale story person~~~)

anyway...The love was brought into Empress Shzeli's attention which they were shock to find out that they are actually addopted sibblings! AHA! *lightning strike*

Bad...bad...AND MORE BAD DRAMA SUPOSE TO UNHOLD...bcos rei is a dark person at heart...well at times...*EVIL CACKLE* ....BUT!!! ...i'm curious on what kind of offspring i can get from them...and im greedy enuf to complete my dragon collection... *evilsmirk*

AND SO! Lady Irise was banished from the high priestest temple and was secretly married to Lord River Wyne with the blessing of Empress Shzeli of cos...with the promise that she shall not be seen in the public (remember what the malaikat said when she was born? ) and will forever dwell in the Palace of the East, far away from the Empire!!!

blablablala..and POOP! the Young-Lord Red Wyne has been born!!!! awww~!!! BUT HECK!!! He is sebiji macam dia punya bapak!!! *smackhead* i dowan~~~ ugghhh~~~ i was hoping that i could get a Yellow Ivy Green Dragon~~~ from this union...

chih. so yeah..if you could see on my dragon collection..theres now 2 Red Ivy Green Dragon. =.="

*dissapointed*

LOL~!!! XP

anyway...FYI ..i was pretty lucky that this union breed only 1 egg. Ussually bredding dragons will gives you many eggs and the player will have to decide which to keep (you cna only keep 1 egg) and the rest of the nest will be abandoned at the "cave" for other good samarinatn. why i say im pretty lucky? cos i would hate it if i were to unknowingly discard any Yellow Ivy Green Dragons!!! Players can traced back their Dragon's lineage (if they have 1). ;)

---SPECIAL end!!! ---

MY heroes ability

2008-12-13T19:31:00.002+08:00

as you all know..i was abut ding dong...bored and stuff..though its exam week..but typical me would be rotting away...

so TODAY i suddenly found myself to have "Precognition" -the ability to forsee future events~~~ ..chewah! canggih kan? ahahha

aha! I have already predict and paint future with my fellow friends..and i can even scared them with my predictions on when they are going to die!!!

buahahhahaha~!!!!

ok...so its just a matter of time b4 my dear frens start cursing me for predicting their death as if im cursing them to die! lol~!!!

but heck ya..im starting to enjoy myself there...fu fu fu ~~~

and i have upgraded my precognition skillz~~~ fu fu fu ~~ beware~~~

lol~!!!

*hummm~~~hum~~~*

Tales of the Dragons II

2008-12-11T05:17:00.002+08:00

As i'm adding more dragons...I'll tell you more... about my dwagon kingdom "Empire of the Sun"

The Great Sorceress

Sorceress Edea

Sorcerers Edea was feared by the people of the kingdom. She posses high magick including the rumored ability to even control the whether. As an egg, she was found by the High Priestess during one of their journey into the forbidden jungle. She was raised as King Darcus's playmate and is bound to serves the High Priestest and the Empire for the rest of her life.

Like any Grey Dragon, Edea is hot tempered. She lived among the clouds where Cherry Blossoms grew all year round, while watching and protecting the Empire from above. It is unknown to many people on how to keep contact with her and no one dare to come close to her. Only the King holds the key to her contacts and it is believed that she is the one who taught King Darcus the art of telepathy.

The Twin

Prince Lucass and Heigh

Prince Lucass and heigh are a special breed of dragon. They are born with two heads. It is not clear on what actually make them that way; 2 head on one body. Prince Lucass and Heigh, by right are to be crowned as Crown Prince after their older brother King Darcus. But due to the fact that they can never come to one agreement on certain issues, and the empire system that there should always be 1 King, Prince Lucass and Heigh cannot resume the role of a Crown Prince.

The twin are well respected for their varse knowledge especially on plants. Since young, they spent most of their time on books, studying biology in the Great Library in the palace as well as conducting experiments with their older brother, Lord River Wyne. Prince Lucass and Heigh are the ones who invented the "Honey Dragon Barb", a hybrid plant that produces honey that cures both internal and external wound within minutes.

The Neighbouring Scholary Prince

Prince Ehven Sky

Prince Ehven Sky is a sky dragon. He is the 14th Prince of the neighbouring Kigdom of Sky. At a tender age, the prince shows no interest in the politics of his country and do not wish to be involved with the constant power struggle among his many brothers. His late mother, Lady Quadelia was assasinated on the day he was born as an effect of the power struggle among the conqubines in the kingdom.

Feared for his safety, the King send him away to the Empire of the Sun at a very tender age with the mission in diguise of aqquiring vast knowledge. Prince Ehven knew about his mother's whoite death and has been working his entire life in finding out the truth behind her death. The prince is a good friend of Prince Lucass and Heigh and he is rumoured to harbour feelings for the Socereress. He is often seen spending his days at the Socereress's dent.

-----to be continue------

eve tag-100

2008-12-08T02:53:00.002+08:00

i was tagged by FRESH! 100 tag. lol~!!! and its the eve of exam. n i dun care! i just wana enjoy my freaking self and do all thee things to make me happy. ^^

here goes...

[01] Name: Shze Li
[02] Nickname: Rei etc.
[03] Married: Nope
[04] Zodiac Sign: Piesces
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 21
[07] High School: SMK (P) St. George
[08] College: Tunku Abdul Rahman College
[09] Height: 158cm .(.pathetic..ya i know.. >_> )
[10] Weight: weighing more than suppose to. XD
[11] Do you like yourself: Yeah..depends on what it is. ahahha
[12] Piercings: Ears
[13] Right or left: Righty (mostly)
[14] Are you a freak: OOoo...we are all freaks!! *does this ring a bell?* ahahha
[15] Hair: Jet black with natural waves and short to make it worst. god curse that barber! ahaha
[16] Skin: Exotic?
[17] Allergic: DUST!! tons of dust!!! and uh..papaya... XD
[18] What are you doing now: This and listening to music
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Sleep~~~
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Hmm...flying around the world or in Japan!! :D

FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: Not while studying which is now.
[22] Siblings (included you): 2
[23] Eldest: Muah!
[24] Youngest: Sis
[25] Love/hate your family: No preference. Neutral. lol~!!! ;)

MY ONE AND ONLY
[26] You found your another half: ah...yeah... :) ..I'm glad to have found him though I cant keep him nymore.
[27] If yes, who is he/she: The one i consider and strongly believes is my soulmate... :)
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: No one else but him. :)
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: Officially 2 :)
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Ahahah...yeah. ;)
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): The hell yeah~!!! ahahahha
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Yes and No.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: I once flirt heavily bcos I was ignored for almost a month for his "business". BUt i dun realy think i did wrong anyway. BUT what make me feel worst is i still cant believe that i actually raise my voice at him once. >_<
[34] Ever argue with your other half: Yes...we argued on only 1 thing and nothing else. >_>
[35] You with your other half since: :) ...long time ago...
[36] Are you straight/lesbo: How bout in-between? LOL~!!!! I best prefer guys ... ahahah
[37] Reasons you love your other half: :) He completes me and He is my everything.... :)
[38] You and your other half in which stage: Cresendo. :) ...always...
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: Vise versa. ;) ahahhah
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: Yeah...I do. :) He's my soulmate for god heaven sake! I'm 1 of the lucky few who get to meet my soulmate!!! gosh!

FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: I dun care who is 1st. :)
[42] Your first enemy: Oooo...i call it Rival! ;)
[43] The friend you love the most: My buddies and Best buds. *hugglesall*
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): Rival lor...ish! *tukul* Anyway, i dun hate..i just dislike. There is a diff, ok?
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: Too many to list. Lol~!!!
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: Ahahah...i will let you know when i find out. lol~!!! XP
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Stuckup Witch. lol~!!!
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Braggers.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Yeah.. :)
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: Ahahah...Yes, he is. *hugglestight* :) and I luv him. Always had and I just do. :)
[51] If your friend backstabs you: I'll remember.
[52] If your friend betray you: We shall "remember" together~~~
[53] If your friend woo your lover: Ooooo...I'll DEFINITLY "REMEMBER"~~~~
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: Ntg if I dun luv you back. And yeah sure, if i luv you back. Ahahha.. ;)
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: I already did..heh. ~.^

STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: Oh , you gotta be kidding me!!! AHHAHAHA~!!!
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments:Well I need to do my assng to get marks..but home work? ~.^
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: None. I'm not a teacher person. lol
[59] Always late to school/college: That's my Middle name. XD
[60] Your class: Is crazy?
[61] You love your seniors: No i don't. =.="
[62] Senior who you love the most: None. >_>
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Good and "Bad" ...fu fu fu ~~~
[64] Excellent result classmate: Hmm..Rhea?
65] Laziest classmate: Ahahha...whoelse if its not me!!! lol~!!!

PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: Works smart
[67] Stupid people: Are not wise enough
[68] Good looking people: Are loved by all ..chih.
[69] Ugly people: Are like me..invinsible most of teh time. chih. XP
[70] Funny people: Are abit ding-dong when they don't make sense and are lame. lol!
[71] Cute people: Are just cute naturaly...PPl who ACT cute are an eyesore. LOL~!!!
[72] Bad people: makes everything sounds so bad. lol~!!!
[73] Honest people: Are blunt at times. >_>
[74] Acting people: Are entitled to Grammy Awards. ^^
[75] You are what kind of people: The Silent and Invisible Wanderer....fu fu fu ~~~

PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: More on Eyes. ^^
[77] Hugs or kisses: Hugs!!! cos a good kisser is hard to come by. ;)
[78] Shorter or taller: Definitely Tall.
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous of cos!
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: :D ALL!!!! BUAHAHAHHAAH~!!! 40-60 ;)
[81] Listener or talker: 50-50. U need both to survive!
[82] Romantic or rich: Rich to support us and to support romance~~~ BUAHAHHAHA~!!!
[83] Good husband or Good Father: HUBBY!!! cos a naturally good hubby will be a good daddy. Luvs the wife Luvs the kids. ^^

FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: Best before 30? chewah.macam expriry date saje...ahahhaha~!!!
[85] Numbers of kid(s): OMg~~~ depending on who is the guy and the situation? lol~!!!
[86] Career: :D FLY AROUND THE WORLD!!!! OR work from home . bets is no need to work at al la..ahahahahah~!!
[87] Salary: OOoooo...eheheh *evil smirk*
[88] Retirement age: Sooner the better? ahahha..ehn got more time to travel the world. lol~!!
[89] Properties value: Entah la...
[90] Wishes: Banyaknye~~~

TAGGED
[91] Fay
[92] Mich
[93] Mel
[94] Rhea
[95] Elaine
[96] Steven
[97] Jar
[98] Ming
[99] Jaryn
[100]Whoever who feels like it. ahahahha

soothing tea

2008-12-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

I HAD THE BEST EVER YAM CHA SESSION IN MY LIFE EVER!!!

ahahha. nice environment...nice tea...and nice company~~ oolala~!!! ahahaha

you guys should try drinking SOOTHING TEA

it really soothes your mind and soul and everything else...and just makes you goes. "oh my god...im in heaven~~~ this bliss!"

and makes you wana cut down on your coffee and alcohol intake so much...ahahaha~!!!

try it guys Soothing Tea @ Halo Cafe

it has all the stuff to sooth you..chamomile, lavender and what sort not..

no Halo Cafe...go somewhere else to get it! ;)

taste the bliss, feel the bliss..BE THE BLISS!

chewah! macam buat ad copy writing saje..ahahha

XP

*soothes away~~`*

Tale of the Dragons I

2008-12-04T20:13:00.005+08:00

Lets talk bout my dwagons.

I've been playing Dragon Cave for some time and its not bad

basic knowledge bout the game is you gotta just collect all species of dragosn available..be a breeder ...bcoem a collector or RP with them in dragon cave fansite and so on. easy?

lets move on.

ah~ my aim here is of cos to collect dragons..."certain type of dragons". yesh. i am always trying to be a collector. cos i think its fun. n it makes the game interesting for me. ahahah. I've just started playing not very long ago. n i have some decent dragons on my scroll. though i still fail to obtain rare dragons and not ready to bcome a breeder yet.

teh game is based on medivel times, so yeah my dragons have names like that.

im pretty lazy to upload all the pics 1 by 1..so yeah just refer to my dragon list at the dragon collum in the blog.

here goes.

Shzeli's Empire of the Sun

High Priestest

Lady Carmilia & Lady Irise

both are females. yesh. they belong to teh breed of dragons which are only available in female? so yeah..u can say that they are less. lol~!!! and you guess correct! they mate among themself. females and females. lol~!!!

but that's not gonna happen in shzeli's empire of the sun! i dont plan to breed them. cos they just dun fancy me much. they are pretty easy to get from the game. normal breed dragons.
and heck! they are the High Priestest to my empire!!! ahahha..so tehy cannot married!!

and ah~~ yes~~ they are my princess. But both of them are sent to follow the peaceful ways of a priest. And therefore grant them the status of Lady. Why? because on the day they were born, the heaven descent an angle looking saint which says "Thy children must be kept away from the public eyes for they harbor powers that can changed the world and speak the tongue of the ancients"

The adopted Prince

Lord River Wyne

As you can guess..he is the plant dragon. lol~!!! ok..River Wyne is actually a "anak angkat". He is an orphaned dumped outside the castle. And on one rainy night, Emperess Shzeli (chewah! XP) saw this dark green egg outside the golden cave near the castle, so she brough it home. and VIOLA! River Wyne has been born. You can actually traced back his roots . Who is his parents and what sort not by clicking on him and go to his page. lol. And yes, he is a product of a breeding program by his parents' owner, which god knows who is that.

Since he is an adopted son, he does not carry the title "Prince". therefore he is refer to as Lord. Lord River Wyne. Maybe it's in his blood that he loves to spend time conducting experiments in his secret undergroud labatory and therefore he seldom make an appearence in the empire courthouse. And yes, he belongs to the breed of Dark Green Dragon which they are born naturally with poison ivy on their body. There are 2 types though, red poison ivy and yellow poison ivy. Lord River Wyne is of Red descent. ;)

Born to be King

King Darcus

King Darcus is the 1st heir to my throne. My 1st baby boy dragon. So obviously he is to be crowned King. Darcus is a Black Dragon. Though still young, he had displayed good skillz of a great leader! BUT! being a child, he sill likes chasing after small insects and go on hunting trip with River Wyne. And not to forget, he ALWAYS gets on his big bro's nerve, disturbing and playing around in River Wyne 's undergroud laboratary.

But then again, being a cute baby that the empire loves and hopes so much, King Darcus is the heart of the people of the empire. He spends his afternoon drinking milk and being lulabyed to sleep at the chamber of his sisters ; the High Priestests and occasionaly spend his morning chasing after butterflies in the palace's garden.

----to be continued... -----

h-e-el-s

2008-12-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

RM36.60 from Vincci

and so i bought it today...cos i was under attack by "ichy hands" . lol~!!!

am gonna officially wear it tomorrow night with dear. ^^

and yeah im nervous and feeling all sort like hell for a couple of days now..i dunno why..teh last tim eim feeling like this smtg sweet follow...but that's bcos i didnt take any action

i am tomorrow..and i hope everything will turn out well? :)

hope so..it has to. or i'll come back crying and blogging my heart out again...wrenching both my baju in reality and wrenching my blog. lol~!!

you don't wnat that, right? *bigbigpuppyeyes*

good! then pray hard for me that everything will be fine and goes on smoothly. ;)

*fingercross*

Twilight & Hazel

2008-11-29T22:12:00.004+08:00

first of all..twilight was VERY disappointing!

aih~ romance lovers may love it though...Dear say he enjoys the jokes.. and i heard from Mich that AL likes it too. Both of them are romance movies lovers. lol~!!

for a person like me who are not into romance genre...this is a huge disappointment. i expect it to be more vampire-ish and full with vampire action pack! but its just...more teen romance oriented and too much romance so called punch line just makes me go.."what!? uggghhh~~ lame~~~" and even lamer when their style of romance is not much different from BOLLYWOOD!!! oh you will understand what i mean whe you watched it. heh.

no doubt that i join in the cinema crowd going KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wherever thsoe hot vampire hunks appear...gosh~!! u just meltz~ and dear was like "ish".

anyway...

dear later drove us to his mum's florist shop and then to his house. There...Dear introduce me to his lil darlings~~~

Meet Hazel!

a 3 year old silky terrier-shi tzu cross.

KYA~!!! ISN'T SHE ADORABLE???? ahahha~!! *hugglestight* she is like so freaking friendly and SUPER HYPER ACTIVE!!! start jumping on me though she 1st time seieng me.. >_>

but seriously...awww~!! she iss such a darling. and yes..she jumps alot! >_> she canot stay still..she always wants to play. and She gets more mishevious when Dear went to bed for a nap ..and its only Hazel and Me in the living room. Oh, i had lots of fun with her. soooo geram. i feel like...eeee~!! squeezing her! ahahahha~!!!

nyway, i didnt managed to snap pics of the otehr doggies though. Besides Hazel, dear had a preggy rotweiller..which like hell i dun dare to go near her though she let me enter the house safely and quitely...dear say she is friendly actually...and~~~ dear had another 2 mongral puppies, Jackie and Jacko which are in a sperate cage.

enough bout Hazel...dear pinjam me his anime..Kure-nai. buahahhahahaha~!!1

oh, how i just love all the fun we had today...*huggles*

hatched!

2008-11-28T04:26:00.003+08:00

look look!!!

no~~ dun look at the time..i know its 4.30 in the MORNING!!!

look at my pink BABY dwagon~!!!

awww~~~ it hatched hours ago, while i was doing my fyp chapter 1. ehheeh

i havent named it yet cos i want to wiat till it matures into an adult to know its gender. ;)

so yeah..help me clickie on Pink Baby Dwagon as well.. ^^

now back to FYP~~ *rushs off*

Koishigaru Misscommunication

2008-11-25T21:50:00.005+08:00

when misscommunication happens..it drives you up your nerve. ESPECIALLY when that comes from some1 who you try to get your msg thru URGENTLY!!!

lol~!!!

i was talking to dear yesterday on msn..and out of the blues we start talking in japs. oh well..ok.

now...we all know that there are certain words that japs dun have and that you actually have to use the nearest words to get your msg thru...

for example, there are many ways to say i miss you in japs...such as:

1. Aitai ( I wana see you)

2. Sabiishigaru ( equivalent to I Miss You) comes from the word Sabiishi (Lonely)

3. Anata no koto wa kagaete iru ( I am thinking of you)

4. Koishigaru ( I miss you in a loving manner, said to lovers)

ok..so here's the point...you read things according to context...but SOMEONE reads it directly as in the text!!! APA NI!!!???

part of last nite conversation yg kek tung...

Misscommunication 1

R: dear..aitai yo... ^^

M : heh??? why??? why pain???

R: huh? what pain??? where where???

M: i was just kidding bout just now...hey...dun like that ler...

Rei: Huh??? wait wait...what pain are u talking bout?

M: you say itai.

R: woot~!!!???? where got??? nani no kore wa!??? aitai yo!!! AITAI!! ITAI JANAI!!!

M: oh..ahahha...read wrongly~~~

R: >_>

Misscommunication 2

M: actually i saje wana perli you...

R: so ka...ja..saki wa aitai...ima wa anata no koto wa kagaete nai...chih! *hopes that can clear the misscommunication by using other words and get the msg accross*

M: well~~ we can meet up la...i need to settle my part time job 1st ma...

R: *phek chek* did i even say that in the very 1st place? 0_0

---------end of misscomm --------------

gah~!!! otoko baka!!! Dear dear baka!!! must i used "Koishigaru???" gah~!!!

*tukultukultukul*

lol~!!!!!!!!! >_<

dragon cave

2008-11-24T02:20:00.004+08:00

dear readers and FRIENDS!!!

now dont just read and feed my RockyRock..help me hatch my new dragon eggs by clicking on them ^^

i have like wert...7 days to hatch an egg?

so yeah...help me grow my baby dragon egg!!! *bigpuppyeyes*

you can find him or her below my panda, RockyRock.

and i know its pink~~ >_> i dun care what color ok??? i was snatching my way thru the crowds to get hold of an egg!!! gah!!! ahahah

zonk!

2008-11-21T23:09:00.003+08:00

tada!!

i like this new layout much more than any previous that i got...sleek and clean..ah~

REFRESHING!

ok~~` ok~~~ YAY~~~~~~~~~~ 1 LAST WEEK TO GO!!! and study breaks start~~~then exam~~ then HOLIDAY~!!!

I'M SOOOO excited bout DECEMBER!!!! AHAHAHHAHAHAHAH~!! XP

of cos im excited bout tomolo as well u knoe? ahahah

madgascar2 was GOOD! not awesome but good! ^^

it would have been AWESOME if moto moto WAS NOT IN THE SHOW!!!

i dun like moto moto..more like i hate that character...cos u know why? I HATE BRUT BOYS WHICH ONLY KNOW HOW TO BRAG AND NO BRAINS!!! lol~!!!!

anyway~~ I LOVE KING JULIEN~!!!! ahahah~!!!

"Oh wow! I'm a LADY~ LADIE~~" *snaps coconut bra*

"which of you were attracted to me?" *shakes bon bon*

BUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH~!!!

and oh look!!!

MELVIN!!!! BUAHAHAHHAHA~!!! ...omg~!!! ahaha~!!

i mean...MELMEN!!!!

lol~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAH~!! OMG~!!!! OMG~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~!!! XP

im so mean~~~ XP

this feeling in me...

2008-11-17T01:18:00.002+08:00

i was having headache today for no apparent reason..like always...

went to firemen..i was awfully quit.i cant eat well cos i cant stand the sight of blood oozing our from all the red meat...gawd~! at that very moment...i just go..ugghhh~~~ the food makes me look like a savage..beast!

anyhow...i feed myself a lil..then come back to tons of emails...aih~ work to be edited blablabla...took some biogesid to cure my head...

and...i have to find out from facebook that dear has been robbed.

aih~ dun ask bout me calling him n stuff cos it sno point..robbed. you think his phone will be safe? nah~~

i dun care bout material lost..im more worried bout his physical and mental being. he's not online and stuff so yeah i have to like wait till tomorrow for him to reply my facebook message? aih~

im calling it a night..head too heavy...

chilly nite

2008-11-16T02:51:00.003+08:00

its a chilly nite

rainm has been falling to keep the hot day away..

ah~~ it feels cool..

but its getting far more chilly now..ugghh~~

its cold..i dun wana go to school..i wana sleep all day long..curl up in y bed with hagen for more huggles...aww~~~

campaign is over but still need to do prot foliio..ugghh...

dear holiday is coming soon..and im like a freaking fat zombie...

n i just spend rm200 on clothes n bag yesterday..ahahah

tak tahan..was trying to cheer myself up..lol

oh how i hate chilly days as well..

over chilly makes my arms lenguh...aih~

dear churuii...spanked me after a cuddle? gah!!! *bite*

i should have chop chop and munch ya into pieces!!! lol~!!!!

anata ..aitai yo...heh..takara...hayaku....kokoro wa...ima mate iru...ehe

dai suki...

Oooo..anime~!!! marathon~!!!! ahaha

life...love...lived it. end it.

2008-11-07T00:52:00.003+08:00

ever wonder why i'm all so hyped up bout stories of life and love and got very GAH!! at life and love again?

oh the hell you know...

i've had enough with ppl coming telling me of their joy and despair in life and love and therefore wanted to attemp suicide or have attempted sucide.

wtf!?

can u ppl just stop thinking of sucide and get on with life? what the hell la...dun like you mer dun like you lor..you think the entire world, no1 will like you meh? even if you cant true love you will still find the ppl around you loving you for you are...

that person who made you attemp sucide is not some1 who loves you...a person who loves you will not say or do anything to hurt you..and it is because they loved you, you are their everything and with taht they want to protect you...a single tears of yours will crush their heart...a single smile is all they need to stay "awake"... :)

*tukultuikul*

oi budak budak! u faham wat im saying bor??? celaka you all...lil bit lil bit wana end life...i kill u all baru tau ar~!!!

even if you love him soooo much you wouldnt be able to see him sad even abit!!! and therefore you wouldnt have attempt sucide~!!! *slapslapslap* u think by making him feeling sorry and miserable for you , you will feel much more better??? NO~!!! YOU WILL ONLY FEEL MORE WORST~!! and you want that???

and even though lets say you manage to got him back with such wicked ways..OH YEAH IM USING THE WORD WICKED!!! ...you are gonna make him gfeeling miserable..and you EVEN MORE MISERABLE ...becos he is ntg more than just AN EMPTY SHELL!!!

whats teh point of being with some1 who has a body but without a soul????

GEEZE~!!!

i think this is the 3rd or 4th time in tshi yeart that ppl around me are attempting sucide! SHOOT YOU PPL~!!! SHOOT~~~!!!

lol~!!!

tsktsktsks...mou ngan tai nia.. >_>

squeze in the library

2008-10-30T20:31:00.005+08:00

i was squeezing my brain juices out in the library whole day today..lol~!! i sit from lunch time at 1pm till it closes shop at 7! buahahah

as i write my thesis....dgn penuh ilham (utill dunno wta im writing)..mr.lee started sms-ing me expressing his concern that i will be there all alone...

now as the ocnversation goes..i didnt know that mr.lee will express his concern by calling me names? 0.o

wth~!!!

i almost LMAO is the library..i was holding back like hell n smrik smrik and giggle giggle in the library...at 1 deserted corner...table full with books and papers...and laughing alone...*imagine*

lol~!!!

anyway anyway...enuf bout dear dear today...stupid silly chopstick pig..buahahahhaha~!!!!!

*cough*

my chapter 1 thesis aso belum habis...buat sampai library tutup pun tak habis..cos entah apa aku tulis..panjangnnye~~~~ i hope it berisi...lol~!! will try to fininsh chapter 1 and chapter 2 by Sat...and email it to Ms. Kumu. by then. hmmm~~~

been dead like hell on Pc stuff..getting pissed wonr out now...

my chest is slowly feeling heavy and tight now...and i'm missing dear... :(

the irony of both being in KL is that i dont get to see him often...ussually one month once...dear is always stationed here and there...hmph! ...and plsu that..shzeli is always running out of time when comes to such things...yes~~ shzeli have to always fall for some1 in the very last minute when a person is going away~~~~ yes~~~~ very pandai pilih masa punya..bagus rei...bagus...keep up the good work..lol~!!!

okla...complain apa pulak kan~~~ why am i complaining bout dear~!!??? im going tobe like taht aso when i graduate and work...fly here n there..hahaha~!!lol~!!

AND IM SUPPOSE TO COMPLAIN BOUT MY ASSNG N LIBRARY~!! abo title put library for wat???

siao eh~!!!

and no~~~ im not missing him till chest tight, siao meh?

im having chest tight becos im not getting enought rest..i've been sleeping late and waking up early to work..work wrok...almost everyday work work work...meeting meeting...aih~

rushing deadlines like hell..and im broke..sooo broke... T_T

and i was half typing here n there ...putting in 80% of my concentration and energy to my thesis...and teh otehr 15% on layaning dear...and the remaining 5% to whatever taht crosses my mind and needed my attention especially PC....!@#$% *grumblegrumble*

n now im so tired feeling like sleepng now...but i think i better get going with editing PC stuff since SUDDENLY i found out that Rob is going to meet Dr.Selva tomolo ...so figured out better pass him the stuff to be quickly checked by her la..

and...YEAH~!!!!

IM DARN LOOKING FOWARD TO 3 NOVEMBER~!! KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM GONNA GET EVERYTHING DONE ASAP SO THAT I CAN GO OUT WITH D-E-A-R~~~ buahahahahhahhaha~!!!!

chopstick pig is coming home on 3rd nov.....weee~~~~ XP

and ooh oh~!!...dear plays the organ and guitar..and he sings~!!! kya~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XP

lil lovey stuff

2008-10-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

its been days...almost a week...and yes i know there are some of you who are pretty curious on what actually happen since the day i stop talking bout melv.

well, ntg's been going on. that's why i got ntg to say. its dead, just like that. stranded off an island alone...and i wonder...or so i thought....till yesterday or early this morning at almost 3am.

dear suddenly established communication after so many days of hiatus , god knows what happen to him..and you know what happen to me..ahahha

i just wana say..everything is fine. seriously . its fine. dear's hp died...so that explain why..and i dun even have to asked about the rest. he automatically explain himself bout this and that. which to me..is cool n a good thing.

and i laugh my ass out when he says "i'm telling you all this its because i want you to know and that i don't want you to worry.". LMAO~!!!

whats more..when he complained that i am worried bout the sheep more than him. ahaha. lol.

and yes dear..i hope to see you soon, too...

Nov 3 is approaching...and im happy bout it! ;)

and yes ppl...i have not increase back my investment...i don't plan to increase it back so easily..heh.

and yeah..thats bout it on my lil lovey stuff....

ktm serdang-putrajaya

2008-10-20T22:47:00.005+08:00

had a meeting with the health ministry today...so after class mich and I went straight to KTM Serdang, where Bryan will fetch us for lunch then take us to Putrajaya... ^^

so we go all the way down there to find the ministry 4got bot my appointment ... >_>

tapi tak pe la..since she said she will email me tomolo all the docs that i requested...hai~

dear said ... that he is sorry...he has been out of whack lately...work stress...

so yeah...im a lil ding ding aso...withdrawing some investment here n there...ahaha

sheesh. i dunno...stuff like that. hahaha

anyway...Bryan is a cute, spontaneous and fun guy to have around..lol~!! thanx Bryan for today! ^^ have a safe sailling journey, k? *bigbighuggz*

and uh...ehehe..on a seperate account..i had my hair short. >_>

teh person cut worongly for me...chih.

n here's a current oic of me at KTM Serdang..

verdict..i'll accept it

2008-10-14T21:07:00.005+08:00

i wont deny...

i know i say its weird...

i know i said that something is not right...

deny this and that ..just because i'm afraid...sooo afraid of this and that

i've been sorting out things in my head...and i'm just not being true to my feelings...

so yeah...it is myself that is not right...

and i'm sorry mel for saying things and acting like a mad person lately..ahaha..yes! u are truly right! ahahhaha

and i wana give a big hug to joshie for...aahhaha..always dedicating nice songs to me and never fail to put a smile on my face...ehhe

so yeah...i wont deny it...i wont close my heart...whatever it is

yes ppl~~~ i know its obvious from the start...but im a pretty complex person when come to all things like this...cos you know why..ahha

ok..so i'll admit it...

"in such a short time...yes..he holds my heart..."

"and yeah...i love him... i love my Melv.. :)"

pricked

2008-10-12T01:41:00.004+08:00

rei cant believe that she is acting this way...

rei cant believe that she is feeling this way...

rei cant believe what had just happened...

rei is now nuts...

rei fears for the worst...

rei is now very emo...

so rei says.."u got a problem? pack your bags and go home!"

lol~!!!

i just pricked myself...hard. :(

kabosh! the all in 1

2008-10-06T02:08:00.008+08:00

yes! kabosh!

tahts what im feeling now..not kaboom! but kabosh!

ahhaha

lets move on to the subjects...

raya break has be uh..fun ..ok...and a lil disappointing..

my dear..dear dear cant make it ...well, he is literally not mine..but yes..i still wana used MY dear. u got a prob with that? no? so shut up n listen ok? ahhahaha

*coughcough* dear dear last minute called and say he cant make it to PG cos his dad, bro and the bro's gf check in sick last minute and need hospital attention. aha! no panic ppl! its all fine. just some bowels problems form food poisoning i suppose...but nurse lee sya its under control and therefore...only dear's mum came over to PG.

ok..so here's the thing...he's been lacking sleep n working n taking care of 3 ppl...n now he is under constant fatique. yes a small thing that i often had but im worried cos he still needs to take care of them..and yes ppl....

i DO missed him (not gonna deny that)...n i have to wait till i go back to see him! and i hope he is well enough by then to show his face! lol~!!!! XP

NEXT!!!!

activities ~~programs~~

WOOOHOOO~!! out and out away~!!! since the day i can walk almost perfectly...im out of teh house. N GAWD I DAMM MISSED MY 3AM LIFE OUTSIDE! aaaaaaa~~ *huggles* i missed going out so n stay till so late~~~ IM LIKE A PRISONER IN KL!!! but look at the bright side!!! my life in KL is just about to be spiced up. FU FU FU ~~~~ *evil smirk*

NEXT!!!!

ah~~~ the nice charcoal roti bakar and all the agenda for tomolo...*oops! *zip mouth* secret!

NEXT!!!!

my foot! YES! MY FOOT! MY ANKLE!!! SPRAINED ANKLE!!! its getting BETTER!!! i can walk!!! BUT!!! dad has to go continue to urut for me...and gah~!!! i hurts like hell so i also screamed as if i was in hell. lol~!!! n now i walk also as if im walking in hell..limping a lil cos...now my bone hurts. =.=" when told, Dad say "you must excercise your leg more..if i didnt urut for you more..u go back KL tak payah jalan" ...and then Dear say, "haiyo. ask your dad to stop making it worst , later you cant go out with me when u r back, how?" so..your verdict, ladies? uh..n gentlemen?

NEXT!!!!

i havent been getting my hands busy in the kitchen..n i dun like it. i was thinking of souping smtg up but stil havent thought of any. perhaps any of you would like to make suggestion? wait...i know~!!! soup up an entire meal n get the gals over n we party!? 0.o wait...taht wont do..it will leave my pocket a big hole....heh. GOD! thinking bout food just made me remembered!!! I 4GOT TO BRING BACK MY CORNFLAKES COOKIES FROM GRANNY'S HSE!!! aaaaaaaaa~~~~

NEXT!!!

what next?? no more liao la...

ok..i lied...keep this just btw us ok?

as if la~~~ lol~!!

lately...i think that dear is ...inhuman...lol~!! HOW COULD HE SCORES SO MUCH!!!!???? gawd!!! i must stop myself from being further AMAZED and IMPRESSED and AWWED!!!! to the max? 0.o

i just cant accept the fact YET that there is actually a person whom can seriously keeps getting good grades in MY LIST! especially in MAJOR FIELDS!

so yeah! thats it...good nite. lol~!!!

to you and U

2008-09-28T13:41:00.005+08:00

To all:

My feet is getting well..i was screaming my lungs out yesterday with the pillow stuffed to my face to lower down my screaming..cos dad was urut-ing my kaki..n it hurts like hell~!!! i told dad taht i will urut myself! then he BLACKMAIL me to submit myself to his urut-ing, by saying "You wana go out or not? u wana stay at home for all your holidays meh?" well..demi TO GO OUT!!! i have to give in!!! T____T ...and i will be having yet anotehr pain stacking and hell screaming session tonite.

and specifically To Dear,

(as if he knows the existence of this blog)

i know you are out of credit..prepaid is like taht 1 la....*proud to be on postpaid XD *

an di know you will be coming down soon...

BUT STILL~!!!!!

so yeah~! HURRY WOULD YA!? lol~!!!!
im ichy to go out d..although tempang..tapi tak pe~~ i've had enuf of killing everyday..ahhahaha

sprained, X-ray and pregnant? 0.o

2008-09-26T16:43:00.003+08:00

yes...i injured my ankle...while i was on my way back to Penang

jalan jalan n sudenly mel say.."shzeli, pls walk slowly"

right after i reply.."ya sure" i terus *JATUH*

my big bags were on the floor...and i have scratches here n there...yes ppl..i seriously fell..ke tanah yg berbatu batu itu...di depan kahlayak ramai yg sedang menunggu bas... =.="

anyway..it hurts so bad that i almost cried...celaka punya..i was sweating cold sweat! gawd! and a lil fatique when i got up. oh tuhan!

but i die aso wana come back...tahan la for more tahn 5 hours...T_T

and teh stupid bus got so many siew kheong...i was damm freak out when i saw i near my bag and nanotehr tiny one crawling on mel's chest...*she didnt believe me though*

dear smsed to check on me and practically nurse Lee say dun worry its just a sprain...oh teh hell i know its sprain. i get sprian all my life..so of cos i know whats sprain and not..BUT this 1 hurts like hell...so i thought i had it fractured. cos its swelling bigger and bigger and it even hurt slike hell when i didnt even move!!! GAWD~!!!

after rounds of being the joke of the day =.="

dad say my ankle looks weird...and he thinks i dislocated my ankle.. =.="

now he is scaring me...so i go look for my online doctor...yes ppl...i ALWAYS have the tendency to look up at trusty medical internet site to unerstand my condition more.

so i was certain that it was ust a sparin...either 2nd or 3rd degree sprain (seriosu cases)..and so today i went for an X-Ray to check wether im having any fractured or dislocation.

dear was quote saying "X-Ray? i told you it was just a sprain"

yes i knoe its a sprain~~ but we are talking bout 2nd or 3rd degree sprain here..i need proper diagnosis!

so this is what hapen in the clinic room

THE SITUATION

i showed Dr. my foot...and she goes

DR: 0_____0 *gasph*

REi: 0_o i sprained it yesterday. was bigger. now got smaller.

Dr: 0_0 oh~ ...oh~~~ do you wana do x-ray?

Rei: ya sure ^^

Dr: ok...are you pregnant?

Rei: 0_0 im sorry? *i was about to aks her do i look that fat to you?*

Dr: eheh..are you pregnant?

*snap out from it and thought of pregnancy and xray in medical terms...and ok..i got it."

Rei: oh! no~~~ definilty no. ^^

*but actualy in my heart i look like this... >_> *

n my sis n my dad in the room was laughing~~~and laughing~~~ and dad say.."omg~~~omg~~~" as if like its so fun..lol

*smackhead*

so after go do those X-Ray...doc say my feet is fine..no dislocation no fracture ...not trusting whta she say i tell her bout my condition more..then she say..oh. its normal. most probaly you had strained your ligamen. it takes time to heal. bout 2 weeks to know wetehr tehres any furtehr prob with the ligamen.

then dad told he rthat he was worried that i had disslocation cos 2 of my ankle looks weird...i told him that both my feet is like that..n he sya..they look ODD!!!

n teh doctor agreed! n say that the swelling makes it looks weirder!

*faints*

and so now im diagnosed with 2nd degree sprain ankle.

painting sky blue

2008-09-24T16:55:00.003+08:00

on a separate account, dear dear has been loathing bout his prediction that he for-see the forth coming of his Blues Attack! which will start tomorrow, Thursday...besides other things..small small things... *coughcough*

so i told him that i'll paint him with pretty colors to make him look pweety, cheerful and not so blue...lol~!!! and he says, "Dearie, are you going to make me into a rainbow, now? 0.o"
and that was yesterday night.

today's sky is pretty nice..lets forget about the fact that it just rained. so yeah, i told him that i'm painting him sky blue on his face

and i can't wait to see him during this raya hols in penang!! kya~!! he's coming down!!! ^^ and im super excited now! ahahah~!! dun have to wait till 11thOtc... ^^ though dear dear say his parenst havent fix a date, but they are definitly coming down for the holidays...yeah~!! XP

20th Bday Bash

2008-09-24T15:10:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BDAY to Xin Yee!!!

there are over 20 of us....attending the bday bash at Tao, T.T.D.I

im so lazy to type more.ahahah...for more pics pls go visit my facebook album

the unspoken words...

2008-09-18T01:59:00.002+08:00

i have to blog this b4 anything else....

be it SS..or SS kuasa 10..

though i didn't say it..but yeah...

"Dear...you are someone special to me too ..and i'm glad that i am to you too... :)"

dakara...there are certain things that i don't care and don't wana think much about..becos out of all the important things that i know is... "hora! yatta mitsuketa, nee. " ^^

cute stuff

2008-09-16T22:43:00.006+08:00

in this episode of cute stuff...i mean seriously cute..we look at the latest breast cancer awareness campaign...SERIOUSLY CUTE ..why wouldn't it be cute with a pink rubber duckie, eh?

ppl pls remember..boys and gals..please DONT "DUCK" your breast examination...it keeps you safe and of cos makes you looks cute with the rubber duckie.. *quackquack* lol~!!!

aahah..cute eh, the van?

n..i found this flair to be cute as well... ^^

ahah..oh yeah it is...ha ha..

1 2 and 3

2008-09-14T17:40:00.001+08:00

1!!!

GERAM!!!

2!!!

GERAM GERAM~!!!!

3!!!!

PISSED GERAM!!!!

HAPPY LANTERN DAY!

2008-09-14T02:11:00.001+08:00

ya! happy lantern day ppl!!1

of cos lantern celebration will be much later in the nite~~~

and look what i found!!! ahahah

check this pieces of flair out! XP

yokatta, yatto mitsuketa

2008-09-09T17:42:00.005+08:00

hora!

mitsuketa!

ehe..nee? ^^

mmm...oh yeah..everything new new new...look a lil bit fresh! ahaha

i am HAPPY! and of cos will be depressing soon when i start revising or do my fyp and not to 4get this Thursday afternoon paper with a morning meeting..*smackhead*

ah~!! and im hungry now...

anyway..with this new layout i will be trying up on the imeem player as certain songs i want my hardcore iwebmusic tak ada..so uh.yeah..

Murai E by Kiroro

...uh..loading are pretty slow though..ahahha~!!!

sekai wa ai no tame ni...

2008-09-06T00:44:00.003+08:00

despite there are so many...

there's always only one that you would die to see...

there will always be only one who you would give everything...

and there is always one person that you would always love and ever be...

sore wa...

sekai wa...

zenbu wa...

ai no tame ni...

zutto ai no tame ni...

"you make the dying butterflies in me flatter their wings...like they never been before ..something which i have long forgotten and thought it wouldn't have happened...but yet. i'm confuse. lost and confuse...there is still a chain tied to my soul...i'm tied down to my toes...reluctant to move"

a piece inspired by manga "The Gentlemen Alliance"

2008-09-01T20:10:00.004+08:00

it's been awhile since i was last inspired to pen down my thoughts in the poetic self...so i got inspired today by a manga i read.."The Gentlemen Alliance"...and so here it is..a new piece to my collection...

The Challenger-The Achiever

2008-08-27T13:43:00.004+08:00

now..as most of you guys know (or perhaps not) i got myself into deep shit last week on my mega campaign project...

i indirectly made Rob, my CD cried *rolleyes* ..ya ya..he is a such a freaking sentimental and emotional guy..lol~!!! ..and he practically cried in front of the lec and also the entire class of 100+ ppl!!! *smackhead*

anyway, yesterday i was summoned by my lec for a talk or two...asked me a few questions on that campaign thingy and gave me her verdict on what type of person i am...

Dear Dr.Selva conclusion on her perception towards me was...

"Shzeli...from what i see..you are an achiever. you know your goals and you know what you want and you know where you are heading to and you know how to get it. You will go all out to get it and you are the type that knows very well on your goal and what you want. But. along the way...you are so into your pursuit that you got careless...and there's wheres the problem is...you need to be more Open and of cos...very humble...you ought to learn how to consult others than to lock up your mind during your pursuit. And this have cost you greatly in this project. Work on that, and you wont have further problem."

ok...i got all the entire part...but being very humble as she stressed? 0.o ... unsure on which she is actually referring to (my ego or overly confident self)..i ran a search on The Human Personality ..and did a couple of test...and VIOLA!

Here's my test result based on Enneagram ...whereby the Top 3 of my results lies my real personality... and I am a 8w7

My Dominant personality is "The Challenger"

My Secondary Personality is "The Achiever" (just as what Dr.Selva said)

My 3rd Personality is "The Perfectionist"

so..looking at the results and my Top 3 personality..i guess it could be summarize that Im having an imbalance self....I do not have a personality that could counter or tame the overly confident and ego side of mine...which like what Dr. Selva said...needs urgent fix

guess theres just to much power in my head, eh? lol~!!!

and yes..i found the test to be somewhat 90-99% true. lol~!!!

go on..give it a try..and know yourself better.. ;)

*clickie on the italics in yellow pls...they are linkies...LOL~!!!*

spur of life or the moment

2008-08-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

yes,..at the moment of spur...i take the opportunity from what you have said..

this very own remark and statement that you have made...will be turned into a battle field...

the rebelious overly high-confident enigmatic ego side was awaken from its slumber...and it is with this that i'll proved you right and wrong...both at the same time.

first step has already been long taken..but the spur of the moment has caused its execution...and it shall proceed...and i'll show you what you want to and has been believing all the while...

i'll show you what i'm really made of! the essence of my soul ...and the capability that i have....

I am what I am...

and you don't just mock me for things that we both knew better than anyone else...

you, pay for it...

you will see...

morning tag

2008-08-12T09:03:00.004+08:00

i skipped class today..yes~!!! i woke up so early in the morning..all ready to leave the house when suddenly the potty is calling huge for me..lol~!! diarrhea. so here i am...slothing in the room, reading blogs and oh look! i found this cute-interesting blog from dear Yips. trust me..its cute... ahahha...i suppose i should put on English music to do this...lol..START!

Rules of the game:
1. Put your music player on shuffle mode.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 10 people.

How are you feeling today?
My Immortal – Evenessence

ahahhaha~!!! well uh...im feeling..uh...immortal? 0.o ..ahha...well its a dark song so i guess im suppose to be feeling dark? which im not...and im trying and doing my best not to switch to my dark destructive mode. lol~!!! but overall..yeah...i agreed with this song...always had. on other bigger perspective though...ehhe "

Will you get far in life?
All My Life - Kc & JoJo

wow! im gonna get far in life for All~~~ my life...thats...AWESOME~!!! plus!!! this is one of my fav songs~!! ^^ "All my life...i prayed for someone like you...and i thanked God...that i've finally found you..and i hope that you feel the same way too...and i prayed that you do love me too..." KYA~!!!! oh i just love those lyrics~!!! *meltz* now..thats a good way to start my day, eh!?? fu fu fu ~~~

How do your friends see you?
Call Me When You're Sober- Evenesence

aha! true true!!! to a certain extend this is true~!! i got tons of friends who calls me when THEY are sober ...and ONLY when they are sober...ahahahah~!!!which in away means that im a good listener and reliable? 0.o ..BLAH! ...and~~ the song title itself is as if im saying.."hey, buddies...call me when you are sober, eh? dun take it bad yourself,k?" *patpathead* ahahahhahaha~!! isn't it?

Will you get married?
Moving Forward– Hoobastank

AHAHAHHAHA~!!! ok..2 way to look at this..1st. i moved forward from the current position and get hitched! yay~!! 2nd!!!! the lyrics "i stand before a road that will lead to the unknown, at least unknown to me...the outcome isnt clear" ...aha! thats pretty uncertain, which i also agrees cos it actually explains option no.1..AHA! ...so... to the question "will you get marries? " the answer would be...yeah you will if you moved forward but of cos the future is unknown..depending on which route you take. " *tumbsup* ;)

What is your best friend’s theme song?
Hand Of Sorrow - Within Temptation

hmmm...it actually applicable top one of my buddy..aha!

What is the story of your life?
Thats Why You Go Away – Michael Learns To Rock

OMG~!!!!! this is getting freaky~!!!! i have to admit...cos im HONEST!!! and BRUTALLY HONEST!!!...no need to say much..its widely understood by most of you... one of my all time fav songs... and one of the BIGGEST theme of my life! hah! >_<

What was high school like?
Kiss From A Rose- Seal

well....my life in high school is seriously like a "kiss from a rose in the grave..." .... but seriously it is also.."my power, my pleasure, my pain" ..its a time of my life when i actually got all of these in a strong manner from high school that contributes to making 5 years of my life hell. ..and oh ya..i actually thought taht finaly get kissed by a rose from getting admited into a good high school but just to found out that its actually a kiss from a rose on the GRAVE ...ahahh~!!

How can you get ahead in life?
Where is Your Boy Tonight - Fall Out Boys

ahahah~!! is the song urging me to go look for my prince charming who is still sleeping in his lala land so that i can get ahead of life??? AHAHAH~~!!! eh, you all...COME!! tonight come let's go..YAM!!! ...ahahahhahah~!!! i need to wake him up..abo i canot get ahead of life, weh~~... ahahahha~!!!

What’s the best thing about your friends?
It Ends Tonight – The All-American Rejects

"maybe it's best you leave me alone" ....yup! yup! that explains my friends...they know when to leave me alone for the betterment of myself and theirs...ahahah~!!! and of cos..the constant..."enuf! put an end to it!" that i got from some / most of my friends...ahahah *winkwink* oh you know what i mean... XP

What's in store for this weekend?
Numb -Linkin Park

wow! ahahha..im going to be numb. WELL, I'M ALREADY FEELING NUMB FROM ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS!!! and yeah..i am still going to feel like this until i got rid of the campaign proposal campaign!!! a toast to till i get my senses back! ahahah *cheers*

Describe your grandparents.
Stop And Stare - One Republic

uh....uh.....well..i sure know one thing ...grandparents loves to "stop and stare" and says.. "you kids these days ar...blablabla" ...ahahahhahah~!!! and yah..i agree to this lyrics."cant you see what i see" ..which i think it's obviously very true..to everyone. ehehhe

How’s your life going?
Leavin' - Jesse McCartney

HEY! is this song teasing me now?????? HAR~!!!! i suddenly feel so being TEASED!!! *slapslapslap* ahahha... XP

What song will they play at your funeral?
All The Small Things – Good Charlet

This is sure one of the hell rock song to ROCK a funeral!!! ahahahahhaha~!!! but at least it doesnt sound sad..so yeah...i love changes...and..check this out.."late night come home, works sucks..i know..." which is like..telling partial story of my life? ahahahha..not bad, eh? ahahha

How does the world see you?
Lies – Evanescence

lies~!??? hmmm...true true. i dun and cant be expecting ppl to believe all that i said. and yeah...to a certain extend..i do live my life in lies which i want it to be view as living in denial and in my own fantasy land...not reality...so yeah...my world revolves around "lies" that i've created to hide myself from the saddening truth of reality...ahahha..no doubt the world view me that way...my Dad is one of them.. ho! XP

Will you have a happy life?
Cupids Chokehold – Gym Class Heroes

"If thats ain't love , then I don't know what's love is" ...aha! that lyrics explain all... *winkwink* ehehe..

Do people secretly lust after you?
Chapter One - Lifehouse

HUH!??? so you are trying to say that ppl do secretly lust for me is just the chapter one/beginning??? theres even chapter 2 ke??? LOL!!!! aahahhaha...hentai!!!! hentai~!!!! lol~!!!!

How can you make yourself happy?
When You Look Me In The Eyes – Jonas Brothers

oh yeah...i seriously "find my paradise when you look me in the eyes" ... ehehhe XP *blush-for-no-apparent-reason* woot~!!!??? ITS TRUE!!! ITS THE TRUTH~!!! who wouldn't be melted, huh???? i dun care!!! i love this song... *huggles* ehehhe

What should you do with your life?
Imaginary Origin Version– Evanescence

aha! see!! i told you i lived most of my life in fantasy..away from reality for as much as i can...ahahah XP..

Will you ever have children?
Better Luck Next Time- Lifehouse

0.o ...ahahahhah~!!! imagine this..Hubby: What? You are not preggy??? .Rei: oh well..better luck next time... .... AHAHAHAHHAAAHHAHAHA~!!! OMG~!!! OMg~!!! TAK TAHAN AKU~!!!! ahahahhahahaha~!!! ok ok..cut the crap...ahhaha...well...i'll let you know if that ever happens...BUAHAHAHHAHA~!!

What song would you strip to?
Frozen– Within Temptation

uh...why would i strip when im feeling cold..or worst..FROZEN!!!???? lol~!!! ...ahaha...alright looking at the song and lyrics ...if you wana strip so badly..i guess i can look into "stripping" in the sense of getting rid of the sorrow which is in tune with this song...so yes..this is one of my fav songs when im dark or moody...or even frustrated and sick of everything..oops. certain things. ahahha

What does your mum think of you?
You Took My Heart Away – Michael Learns To Rock

awww...thats just so sweet...wish she can look at me this way from the very beginning!!! hah! lol

What is your deep, dark secret?
Days Go By– Lifehouse

uh....that i actually let days go by just like that without wanting to do anything? yeah...sometimes...lol~!! which i think its not any secret unless it deals with smtg of a more serious tone...hmmm~~ perhaps~~~...*evilgriin*

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
The Cross - Within Temptation

ya!!! FEAR THE CROSS, YOU EVIL~!! BEHOLD THE CROSS!!! ahahahaa!!! "im sorry you can't stand the naked truth..i'm sorry you keep on living in your lies...denying what is real..." ....Ooooo...deep~~deep~~deep ar... XP

What’s your personality like?
Gone Going – Blacke Eyed Peas

yeah..i don't wait for things to happen..i make it happen. so yeah..in a way...im the "gone-going" type...a second im here...if this doesnt work out the way i want or i'm done with this...its bye bye...im off to the next big thing on my list! fu fu fu ~!!! and yeah..i "dun give a damm" om most things...

What song will be played at your wedding?
Mother Mother – The Veronicas

wow! so i'm suppose to call my mom on my wedding day to ask about how is my parents life and telling her that everything is going well over here? ahahhaha~!! does that means that i will be wed on some far away place that my parents cant be there? hahah~!! NONSENSE!! if i were to wed at such places..you think i cant afford to get my parents there? this ain't logic..but a rock song for a wedding? hmmm...not a bad idea...must be some rock wedding eh with a rockin bride and groom..lol~!!!

fuh~! now im done..im gonna tag..MICH, MEL, FAY AND FRESH!!!

VICTORY~!!! : friday double post

2008-08-08T20:57:00.004+08:00

double post~!!! ahaha

im gonna say this im gonna say this~!!! lol~!!!

I WON THE BET!!! SEE~!!! DIDN'T I TELL YOU THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN??? and did you not believe me back then and even assured me and ask me to believe in you that it will not happen? tsktsktsk...and did i not say it to your face that it is on its way to becoming like this? aha! and what did i get back then? DENIAL! DENIAL! DENIAL! which pissed me off alot!!! if you were to just go ahead and not do smtg to make it seems like you are guilty or smtg...i wouldnt have been so pissed.

so yeha..even when u r denying...i can already see through it all~~~ tskstkstk..*patpathead* ..and now..after so long d..only kam luan wana mengaku...tsktsktsk..u..penakut betul ler..eheh

AND NOW THAT ITS BEEN PROVEN. AND THAT I'VE WON THE BET. WHAT DID I GET???? nothing, as usual. just some self recognition which proves that my instinct and prediction is still working good~. it adds credibility. hah!

feels like having some Turbog now..

pet peeves -words

2008-08-08T18:00:00.003+08:00

lets be brutally honest. who does not have any pet peeves at all???? no1eh?

GOOD! cos im currently having my moment of irritation...

i have many pet peeves...and oh boy, i do categorize them into 2 category..action and words~~~

i just got pissed or irritated to some WORDS / style of talking which i HATE the most..cos to me..it sounds soo~~~ FAKE...macam buat drama... just like those crocodile tears that you are oh-so-good at~~~...u think thats smart? and that is called a victory?? oh, pelease~~~ thats like getting smtg exp from the black market! why???? cos its call...EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL!!! and oh, how i hate such ppl...pls la..save your words...save your precious crocodile tears....

although you didn't said it to me and practically its non of my business...but im so sorry that your verbal comm is my pet peeves!!! one of my top listing pet peeves~!!! so yeah...take that! *SMACK* ahaha..oh how i wish i can just throw at you pillows and knives to shut you up from saying things like that...

if you were to say it in a right condition..i would have not blog bout this...but omg~!!1 you have to say it soooo many times...sometimes...at a irrelevant time. which added to how fake it is...and which irritates me more that i feel like tell you "whats your prob here?"

why does it sounds fake? bcos the way you say it and plus the situation and the repetition blablabla...sounds so dramatize~~~ i cant feel a real heart in it...more like just for the sake of showing off, you bastard. you make it sounds like your just saying it just bcos u wana let everyone know you are SUCH a caring~~~ and supportive~~~~ person and all that when from wat i can see is...your the opposite and you are trying super hard to play a drama on a stage! AHA!

and most of my pet peeves be it words or actions seems to be on you more. wow~! it seems that we are such a long~~~~ rival from many lives back then, i guess for you to be stepping my tail all the time, eh? and dun say that i do not and nv wana be "normal" with you..its just that...the face you show the public and what you did to me over the years...was just freaking shrewd.... come on la...i dun just kiss and forget..i may forgo certain things if you do try hard to change into a better person..but im so sorry...you just did not show me enuf of that..cos everytime things crop up..you will turn into a shrewd lil person again...which makes you a bitch and proves it?

so yeah..since you have been giving me this kind of experience and perception on you all the long..even lil things that means no harm nor not directed to me...gal...you just irritates me. hah! talking bout prejudice! and 1 more thing..when im not asking or talking to you...of pls dun be such a kpc and answer. if i were to want you to answer..i would have ask u directly, right or not??? dun give me bullshit on talking on behalf of the other. my ass...thats one of my pet peeves as well...cos im asking bout serious things that needs to be made clear btw us...so whats your prob in answering on behalf of the person???? you are that person isit???? you know what that person thinks and feel isit and what taht person wana answer isit??? or issit you just wana show off that now you are the only person who understands most, huh? my ass la you...if you wana talk on that ar..i think...u'll just jump down into the drain la...

see....so many of my pet peeves all aso you carry...you tell me how am i going to see you as a good person? you carry them so well some more...wow~!! *clapclapclap*

sick ppl talk...

2008-08-03T16:08:00.004+08:00

i am currently down with a sick throat and a sick body...

been having heaty body lately with it taking a toll over when it hit max which makes me go down with a oh-i-hate-the-most flu-like symptom of throat inflammation..which needs urgent doctor attention unless i was trying to kill myself la. but obviously while discovering im 100% K.O. while out shopping+movie day with mich, yesterday..i just drop by at the Jusco pharmacy to get some medicines ler...and omg~~~ i got 2 jenis of ubat...1 for my inflammation throat and another for my flu-symptom thingy...tsk! the freaking hot pink color strawberry flavored ubat for inflammation realy...GAWD!!! i was told then it will numb my throat as i need need to suck teh tablet macam itu gula gula...oh boy was i wrong. its not my throat that is numb..but my freaking tongue!!!! its been paralyzed!! i practically cant taste my food or feel my tounge properly for awhile..lol~!!! tapi tak pe ler...im cured anyway..ahaha...eating was weird though...ahahha

anyway...

life has been peacefull for awhile...no noise...no emails.... yes...when i say no emails..im talking bout dad's email...NOT the nv-ending-director's email...lol~!!! ...and I M glad that dad finaly stop sending me brain washing emails..buahhahhaha~!!!!

mmm...i've done my researtch..here n there...even did some informal interview with related person to the field. and uh..i've come to the conclusion that i'm not in such a favour that i will take myself thru such hell n burden just to get it. AHA! oh come on..u gotta be kidding me...3 eng test+5 sub test (min pass of 3.5 gpa per subject) + 1 panel interview = admission. WTh~!!!????? i have to do all that just to gained admission????? oh come on..u gotta be kidding me. i dun have so much time to waste! lol~!!! and oh yeah...thanx to that...i've been thinking of scrapping it out from my plan anyway... so ok...MA go away...

looking at Job's side..AHA! its not helpful at all...the ppl i interviewed gave me answers or perhaps open my eyes to the "biasness" of the working world..and to some certain extend the reality of the job that im trying to get myself into...which somehow..saddens me even more.

it all makes my goal even further...GAH~!!! of cos there are other options that i can go for ...but for those options ...uh..i guess for a desperate moves only. Im not that desperate to go to such extend. ahahha or..perhaps i should just do that, eh?

NEVER~!!!im not that type who will just give in even if im desperate over smtg that is against my will ... ^^ i nv do things agianst my will...unless i got no other choice but to do it YET it does not jeopardies my original plan..then i will close 1 eye...mmmm~~~

MAKAN~!!!!!!!!!!!!

Part 1 out of 3

2008-07-26T21:07:00.010+08:00

PART 1

Rei and Mich is sooooo PROUD with tehri presentation on ANIME!!!!

yes!! u heard me right!!! FOR ONCE IN OUR STUDENT LIFE WE WERE SOOOO EXCITED AND ALL HYPE UP TO DO PRESENTATION...OPEN TOPIC PRESENTATION ON ANY ANY ANY TYPE OF CULTURE!!! ya ya~!! im getting so excited now as im typibng in CAPS! aha!

our dear dear one of a kind Tutor, ( trust me..when i say he is 1 of a kind..he seriously is...with his 5red and 5 green all the time XP ) gave us a whooping FULL SCORE for our presentation!

in fact!!! he gave everyone *mimicking selva* jump on top of the roof 's marks~~~ LOl~!!!

when it is a rare chance for an open presentation...what do you expect constant thinking out of the box students like US ( :D) will present on, right?

FAILED ATTEMPT ON MIDNIGHT SECRETARY COSPLAY: apparently "Kyohei sama" is SHORTER than "Satsuki san" that "he" has to tip-toed... XP

berikut ialah rakan rakan seperjuangan aku dgn hot hot topic mereka itu...lol~!!!...yes ppl topic topic presentation kali ini memang berapi...ahhaha...naked naked dan half half naked pictures are allowed...presentation kali ini menampakkan unsur FREEDOM OF PRESENTING yang mempunyai unsur-unsur ke-NUDE-an, ke-TABOO-an dan ke-SEXUAL APPEAL-an...

mempersembahkan....

Cik City Kellieh dgn mukanye yg waiting to "kill" N.C.C... XP ...bersama dgn partner in crim nye...Cik Al-Leen

MEMPERSEMBAHKAN

FASHION culture which makes the class or at least HP to ask Sir..."models in their undergarments..Sir, faster go and save all those pics!...I /We know you got tai pa at home 1~~~ BUAHAHHAAH"

learning from the"PRO" ...Kissing Guru Madam Sexy happily introducing (more like to reinforce awareness) their topic on 'Kiss" ..and yeah..thats the sub topic of kissing of body part...and (the 1 "hiding") her associate Kissing Professor, Dokrtorrrrr XY uh..preparing herself for a demo session i guess... XP

LIVE class demo... ~.^

MR.NG.CC: *speechless* he cant even click his camera...

CLASS: WOOHOO~!! FASTER TAKE PIC WEH!!! *clickclickclick* XP

the kisisng pros: SIR!!! got take pic bor??? XP

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and uh mich! i think the reason why HP wana muax you so much lately must be the aftermath of their presentation kut...BUAHAHHAHAHAHA~!!! *evilgrin*

oh oh..and a short conversation with Yang & Shin who are the 1st group to present weeks ago reveals that they REGRETTED going 1st with a play-safe topic of Peranakan culture just to find out the groups after them going for a much more adventure-risk taking topic...

the only 2 guys in class is quote saying " Why not present on "The Art of Making Love" ? Sir sure love it wan...and will give us Bonus score eh! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

empty

2008-07-19T12:47:00.002+08:00

basically i got ntg special to update about...

life's been the same besides having Jose coming to me almost everyday to ask me whether do i feel that im getting fatter... >_>

which of cos i everyday give her the same answer..."nope..i dun think so..." lol~!!!

lets not talk on my campaign stuff...its blah! same things goes to uni life...its all BLAH!

24/7 work work work...and there goes my internet balance again~~~ wow~~~ i need to top up my internet credit again~~~ hai~

been getting a good dosage of laughter wif shin and gan , lately...ahahhah...of all things...of all topics~~~ their favorites~~~ *rolleyes* ...ahahhaha

and budak CY itu up til now aso belum bagi aku pictures...our Heneikken Party For 2 Pictures ~~~ and the pics we took while meeting up with Jini and Matt...ish! malas aku nak tanya from her again...later she say im so vain~~~ to want the pics... =.="

hello~~ thats my pics..of cos i want them...i nv knew that asking for my own pics is consider "vain" ...=.="

oh come on..dun be lame wif me now..

so without those pics..how am i suppose to update you guys on my outings, rite or not?

lol~!!! ...itu saje ler..my brain system aso shutting down d...just got a heart attack after looking at certain parts of my assng by my member...im bracing myself for more of the after shock...

what actually happen in ss2

2008-07-15T14:54:00.002+08:00

after class today...Mich & I went to SS2 for lunch..some grocery shopping and indulge ourself into Snow-Ice! *tumbup* everyone in PJ area should go and eat Snow-Ice!!! its way~~~ much better than Lolo!!! ^^

anyway~~~...as u know...and as usual..things do happen...stuff...blablabla...so this is what actually happen in SS2!!!

*Kids under 18 is advise for parental guidance*

Scene1

*walkswalks*

Sl: MICHIE!! OMG~!! DUN STEP ON IT!!!

Michie: HUH? WAT? WAT???

Sl: OMG~!! U STEP ON IT!!! OMG~!!!!!

MIchie: what??? step on what????

Sl *points*

Sl: u just step on a condom... eek!

Mich: OMG~!!! no i did not!!!!

Sl: yes you did!! i saw you did!!! if not why would i shout at ya to not step on it!!!??? and omg~!! its open!! and look!! its been used!!! GAWD~!!

*the gold packet of Durex Featherlight is open..and the condom itself is spread out on the ground...besides it*

Mich: omg~!!! they must have done it here yesterday nite to just throw it out like that...

Sl: done it here???? omg~!! who the hell wana do it out here??? di koridor???? and you..even step on it!!!

Mich: u knoe~~~ some ppl~~~ can just do it here~~~ they dun care..wana display their "affection" haiya...nvm ler..i just go home and wipe it nia ler...

Sl and Mich goes silent for a while...Sl looks at Mich..Mich looks at Sl...

Sl: WTH~!!???? wipe it!!!??? wipe it~!!!??? gawd!!! eeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~

Mich: *feel disgusted herself* eek!!!! come lets just go and get our stuff...

*and so..whole way to the hypermarket we were talking bout condoms condoms condoms..entah how many times wana repeat thsi word someore so loud!!!...i doubt that no1 hear us... >_> *

Scene2

*Mich and Sl were checking out some breads in the bakery when sudenly!!!

Sl: BUAHAHHAHAHAH~!!! omg~!! mich mich!! come come!! look look!!!!

Mich: wert?

Sl: *points to a bread* what does it looks like 2 you, eh?

Mich: uh...bread? 0.o ...a nice bread decorated with 2 flower shape thingy?

Sl: ahhahaha...the flower...how they put it...it looks so obscene

Mich: wat? obscene??? where got???

Sl: it looks like *toot* ahhahaha~!!!

Mich: woot????

Sl: it looks like tits la... =.=" ...fu fu fu~~~

Mich: WTH~!!!!???? where got???? where got????

Sl: got la!!! u look at how they place it..it looks like it ok!

Mich: no its not!!

Sl: yes it is!! u look at it properly..doesn't it reminds you of some lil mermaid starfish shape bra?

Mich: no? 0.o

Sl: yes it is to me!!! it looks like some sort of starfish bra..u know..those hawaii gals in coconut shell bra..so this is like the mermaid's starfish bra...BUAHAHAHAHHAHA

Mich: sioa eh..u like it so much why not you buy the bread and place that flower on yours~! >_<

Sl: BUAHHAHAHAHA~!! very funny~~~ if i wanted to...i would get a bigger 1...like the lil mermaid's 1...i dun need a flower....i prefer starfish~ XP..macam itu lil mermaid punya bra...ho ho ho~~~

Mich: sioa eh siao eh!!! ei! can u pls stop looking at the bread n go and pay bor???

Sl: ahhahahahahahah~!!! paying la!

*mich..i wonder that bakery guy who sudenly come and layan us on the choco cake, heard what we said bor? XP*

*clack* CUT!!! GOOD JOB!

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"what actually happen in SS2"

living without regrets..dying without one...

2008-07-12T12:42:00.004+08:00

how often have you ever thought that you have lived your life to the fullest...without regrets..and one day ..you might leave this world without one..

have you ever thought of what you will do...who will be the last to see you off...who will be the last to hear off...

in many cases...ppl don't. its not that they dont but its more like they dont wan to. talks and thoughts on own "death" is still a taboo in most community.

to be frank, i am one of the very few who can talk on death very openly and easily. death to me is part of what i am. i am here...alive today its bcos of my ignorance to death when i was lil....i've cheated death many times...more like im here today thanx to the understanding of the terrestrial beings to compromise with me then ...

and no..i dun sell my soul to the devil (u guys watch to many movies! such things dun hapen in real life!!! the devil dun come to "collect " you!!! trust me...shinigami sama is actually a pretty nice person...well..at least to me...heh~)...more like i was offered a bargain... did i not always tell you guys that everything has a price to pay... heh...anyway, in layman term...or what most ppl believe...what is known as "given a second chance" or a "miracle"...and yes..these chances are 1 in zillion...and opportunity don't come knocking on your door twice...

blablabla....cut long story short...so therefore...i've always do my very best in living in the present ..enjoy what i have today...try not to worry much bout over reaching things..and of cos...since i know it very well...i always strive hard to live my days without regrets, by making sure i grant myself my own wishes... so far...i've make 50% of my dreams/wishes come true...and i would like to thanked those involve in making it real (and im sry for causing you much trouble in a way~~ XP ) ...in fact...having your dreams...your deepest dream , wish or desire being realized...you will in fact...have no regrets or attachment to leave behind everything in this world...for you know you have lived your life to the fullest... :)

"so my dear friend....

i hope you will not lose yourself completely over his death...as you can see...he had lived his life to the fullest...i know its hard...but hey...he knows /sense that he wil be leaving soon...so at least to the very end...he finally managed to say.. "i love you" ..and did he not say that it doesn't matter what happen or what you will think of it...and that he just want you to know...at least you gotta know...that he had always loved you...now...and always...

though it also come to me as a shock on the news of his death on the very next day after confession...dear...i do believe whole heartedly that he had lived his life without regrets and leave without one..for his deepest wish has been granted ...and he has a piece of you in his heart and as his will always be apart of you...

dear be strong....he's watching over you (u know it well with "that" ) ...and you know that he hates to see you cry..ehe..so yeah...we r here for you ..to see you pull through it...

and uh...try not to dwell into it for too long, k? ..its not a very good thing...ehe "

that said...ladies and gentlemen....do spend a lil time thinking bout it...on who or what is the most precious to you...

back to my earlier question...on who and what will you do if you know you will be leaving soon...be it to happen suddenly or not...it is always at the very last minute or the very last second that your actions/ thoughts will help you to decide whether you had lived fully or not...

so don't wait till then...think bout it now..and plan and work towards your dreams now...you may say its silly and what sort not...but when the time calls for it...wouldn't it be great for you will be able to do it all beautifully...and leave happily without regrets...

i do...for i have already found it and had it... :)

and oh...i actually love this show... "Touched by an Angel" ...its a very old show..back in the late 90s ...its my fav show of that time...its a very beautiful show indeed...it might be dry to most people...but to ppl like me...its something...

Rob and his male EGO

2008-07-10T19:06:00.004+08:00

1st up...smtg super funny today...ahahha~!! i nv actually meet a guy that is soooo vain in my life. ahahhah~!!!

i know guys are humans too...which place good looks a priority...though they tried to hide that part of theirs most of the time...ehhe..but there are those a few known as the metro-sexual guys who dare to show and tell bout their own beauty stuff. ahahha..i do have frens, buddies who are like that...im not surprise...but what actually happen today..SERIOUSLY makes me go... *speechless* and laugh my heart out...ahahhaha~!!!

me and El were in the library doing research for our FYP Thesis when our Campaign Director Robert decides to join us.

we were doing our work and getting bored.so sudenly! Shzeli spotted a cute guy which is totaly-her-type-of-cute-korean-guys and goes..PSST!!!!

Rob and El look up...Rob was obviously puzzle...well..not wanting to "hurt" Rob's feeling~~ ahahha...i was giving signal to El .."eyes language" ..but to no avail..i finally decide to just tell her.."look! behind! cute guy!"

both of them turn and saw..and El was getting excited as well...

now...those that knows Rob actually knows that he is a metrosexual guy....and we all know HOW TALL HE IS!!! ...and yes Rob..i know you got pigeon chest..i can see that..u dun have to SHOW OFF!!! ahahhahaha!!!

Rob as the only guy at our table..of cos his Ego tercalar~~~ ahahahah!!! in order to defend his male ego...guess what Rob says,...ahahhahahah

ROB: cheh! like that aso handsome meh? Shzeli u laugh wat?

EL & SL : *giggling*

ROB: see...so happy till like that. got 1 infront of you now dowan see...

SL: BUAHAHAHHAHA~!!! you dun ler jelose~~~~ he IS cute wert...ahahha..infornt of me? where? where? ahahhaha

ROB: this 1!!! * starts taking down his specs..sit up straights..do watever wif his hair..act cool*

EL&SL: 0_0 ... *coughcoughcough* ahhaahahah~!!

ROB: see! he is so short! so short for a guy...wana compare? hmph! i will now show you gals who is better at heights.

EL & SL watch in horror as Rob pretend to look for a book and happily walk pass our cute guy who is obviously shorter than that more than 180cm Rob ..amazingly Rob did a cat-walk turn-about and smile happily at us~~

ROB: see who's better now, gals?

EL & SL: ahahha~!! wahlau you...you dun caci our cute guy har...so bad la you ni...tsktsktsk

ROB: i will now tell you wat i have that most guys dun have...

EL & SL: woot~!!!!????

ROB: i am very proud of my V-Shape body...if you realise..not all guys has it...and my body measurement is almost perfect..i actually been ask to be a model b4..but i decline the offer cos i dun like to sell my ass...and i seriously at times think that my body looks better than most gals...now...im now working to get thinner so my waist size can cut down to 28cm..tahst perfect! ahah...aint i much more better than him?

EL & SL: *speechless* ..u dun talk crap here!! siao ta po!!! u so thin d...want what more thin??? and who the hell ask you to go sell your ass... ahahhha~!!! ask u to be model, go think of selling ass pulak...ahahah~!! and apa pulak measure here and there..u more cham than gals ar...lol~!!!

ROB: im serious~~~ *starts talks more on his ideal body measurement* 28 ..28 ...28...*suddenly turns* shzeli..your waist should be 28 rite? should be 28 kua? ~.^

EL: 0_0

SL: heh? uh...yeah...y? o.0

ROB: har! see! i know 1...cos i aso want my waist to be 28...i must do this do that...

SL & EL: ...siao eh~!!! AHAHAHHAHAHA..

ROB: now will u all still say THAT guy is better than me???

EL: ahahahhhaha

SL: LOL~!!! of cos he is!!! he is cute!! he got a korean face!!!!

ROB: korean face? i aso got...see this part of my face...*points* .and see my V-shape body *sudenly stomach in and chest up*

SL: no~~ i dun see any~~~~ ahahahah~!! hey! come on la..dun have to do that! i can see very well that you got pigeon chest which is aso a rare asset on guys. dun have to TIEN here ok?

EL: *giggles*

ROB: *feelsproud* ...abo leh... *smilingtotheears*

EL & SL: *rolleyes*

and by that time..we were laughing too loud that we get the "SHHHHHHH" from our neighbour...lol~!!

so yeah...it was yet another "eye opener" on the male ego...lol~!!!

guys - "cute" - pic

2008-07-09T17:48:00.004+08:00

ok im gonna say this...

guys...should act like a guy...ESPECIALLY when taking pics

and im gonna be very honest with you that many times i have had mistaken my frens' boyfriends as..gals. =.=" by just looking at their pic.

come on~~~ where's THE factor???

YOU ARE A GUY!! STRAIGHT!! for god heaven sake whats with the puppy face which is not puppy at all and whats with acting cute in pics!!!????

i actually asked one of my friends once whether if she suddenly turned less. 0.o n she just tell me..uh..thats really a HE.

and all i can say to her was...OH!?uh...oh~~~ ok. ^^

gawd! come on la~~~ act natural can bor? *tukultukul* dun need to "kek" until the face like that kua~~~ even i as the fairer sex aso cannot stand it when gals try so hard to "kek" the face until..until...ugghhh~~

and no~~~ im not gonna post up any pics that support my claims above...hah! im not so chin kak...but im sure...some of you out there has encounter 1 or 2 guys who take pics like that...

and of cos im going to give exemption to our KTAR. Mr. Anime and his gang...cos these guys are undeniable naturally cute eh...AAHHAHA!!! no need "kek" aso dam cute like cha bor ...and damm yeng like ta por eh~!!! lol~!!!

ahahah!!! oh god.. >_>

look~~ my campaign director just sent me an email~~~ hai~ must be regarding to work work work again~~~

guess i better go check it out now...ja! ^^

take 5 for FAY

2008-07-06T19:28:00.008+08:00

kya~!!! i canot tahan!! i must blog!!! lol~!!!

i sudenly feel so proud n wana share wif my rakan seperjuangan !!!

FAY SAN~!!!!

ok..b4 that...im suppose to be editing the stupiak campaign proposal and reading crisis case studoes for tomorow's paper..

but then again...i need to rest rite or not? okla...i've been resting whole day...its weekend wert...

*coughcouhg*

FAY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sowie ler fay i now VERY INTO MANGA!!! i basically cnaot buy any more anime untill i pindahkan all my harta back to PG then only i can refill my anime over here...ahahha

i aso very lazy to update my anime/manga list in here..cos..TOO MANY un-updated ones..lol~!!!

i saw your post on *ahem* the kissing scene btw MY kaname sama and yuki!!! tehn of cos..such good news...i must quickly go read eh la...HOHOHOHOHO~!!!!

i was pretty looking fwd to that chapter..but hor Fay...the story for that chapter somehow...doesnt capture me ler... i know Aileen will be having shock now..but seriously...i dun feel the "oomph" feeling ler when i read it. it just...just...ah..i dunno..not passionate enuf kut...i mean..come on~!!! teh word "oni-sama" just spoil the whole thing...though it show staht she will return to him...but ..WHY ONI SAMA???? and that kaname sama lagi satu punya..its life and death thing ma...its now or never thingy...so wth??? he keep cool n quiet all the time...

GAH!! YADA!!! i wana see Kaname sama in more action!!! hiak hiak hiak!!! check out that scene with Zero and Yuki...though its feeding time...but at least..it looks and feel yeng! it can makes me go KYA~!! MOE~!! MOE~!!! and i knoe...u all Zero fan out there dun try to "tien" here just bcos of 1 scene nia ok!!!!???? *tukultukultukul* kaname sama aso got nice nice scence , ok???? ahahha!!!

but overall..i like the scene whee Artemis Rod morph into some eeky cool scythe. ;) that 1..yeng!

and yes..i finish reading teh entire series of LOve MOnster..

Love monster deserves a B+ though im a fan. bcos...THE ENDING SPOILS IT ALL!!! it jumps to fast into ending...it take soo long for it to climax and when it did...everyone is getting hook...it just drop to the ending so fast that u goes.."huh? end d?" but anyway anyway...if Vampire Knight were to produce another nice kissing scene..i really hope that the next 1 would be as beautifully drawn and beautifully wins the heart of the audience just like what Love Monster is seriously darn good at. *winks* Fay you should check this manga out ...and i believe you can and will like it...though its a lil hentai ....but its a nice story.

oh ya Fay...heard of "Rosario + Vampire" ???

aha! i actually read the manga b4...its not bad...so so...

then i saw its anime on sale...and i bought it! and guess wat!!!!????

OMG~!!!! ITS ....ITS..SO.....SO.....ECHII/HENTAI/YAOI/SMUT/JONSEI!!!

lol~!!! ok..i was exaggerating ...but its seriously diff from the manga version...manga version is more..uh..acceptable....cos..i tak tahan that ...that...scene!!!! THAT SCENE!!! gawd~!!!

wats with the constant "boink boink" and "toink toink" sound, huh????? though it manage to make all of us in the room laugh like hell...but its seriously...make us goes like.." wtf~!!!!??????"

and i tak tahan the *chu* sound...come on~~~~ why must they exaggerate ever single details which is NOT necesary~~~

Ahem! for those who doesnt know...*chu* is frequently used in anime/manga as a sign of kiss / kissu. its another adorably cute form of saying muax/muacks etc...

and yes..im one of them who actually prefers to use.. *chu* ..all thanx to Ritsuka from Loveless kya~!!! XD

now back to the main point...chu yg begitu kawaii sekali...ADA PULAK fay~!!! they go dramatize it become... "KAPU! CHU~~~~~~~~" in a very very "hiao" manner...

OMG~!!!!! WTH~!!!!!???? I CANNOT ACCEPT!!!!!! it always gives me goosebumps whenever i hear it..infact im having goosebumps now while writing this...

anyway..if u r free and rotting kat Johor sana tu...ahhaa..i heard form Mich what happen to you this morning kat bas station~~ *pokespokespokes* kekekekkekekekek .....AHAHAHHAHAAHAHAH~!!!1 OMG!!!!!! ...u ok bor???? i hope.ur not hurt anywhere. *patpathead* XP ehehhe

i was saying..if ur free and rotting away kat JOhor sana tu....u can try reading the 2 manga i mentioned....i know u wont let my drama stop you from reaidng..cos i know that you read/watch Okane ga Nai ...har~~~ ...and if you can handle Okane ga Nai..this small small meaningless ones shouldnt be a problem to you la, rite Fay? ^^

b4 i chao... let me clear this. tough Okane ga Nai got nice story line...i stop reaidng it after uh...1 chapter saje..cos..its just..too much for me to take. lol~!!! dia punya lvl terlampau high sampai i tak boleh accept. lol~!!!

sebegini saje update aku kepada mu...lol~!!!

nonethless...

2008-07-04T22:53:00.003+08:00

so im here blogging this ...on a pathetic night ...

my whole week has been hell ...work work work 24/7 work on the clock

i've lost count on how many times i have had proper rest and sleeps...

practically 3-5 hours per day is all i got to sleep..which sux...

im drained mind and soul..mentally and physically...

since this sem starts, i;ve lost count on the total of fatigues, lost of appetite, body ache , burns and cuts that i've suffered due to...dilemma dilemma , stress stress stress, lacking of sleep/rest...and the clumsy dreamy self of mine, which has no cure...ahahha

i have many things to say..but theres only 1 worth saying out loud now...

"if it is as what i see it is, then i understand...it can't be help....i'll take it as what it is and what it is suppose to be...for i know where and when next should be"

that said...i'll leave out talks on WKU not until i've sit thru the appointment...same thing goes for Dubai...

and yesh...next week will be hellish as well..JULY is Horrific...BUT!!! i cant wait to see you , Jazzie~!!! *hugglestight* ^^

and dun forget to bring my "favour" down, k??? *hopshopshops*

!@#$% futchi infinity~!!!

2008-06-27T22:41:00.004+08:00

i....im just done with my toot-ing campaign online meeting...and...and...its already 10smtg...and..and..

JULY HORROR HAS STARTED EARLIER THAN EXPECTED!!!!

!@#$%^!@#$%@#$%!@#$%^!@#$%!!!!

futchi futhci futchi futchi futchi futchi futchi~~~~~ FUTCHI INFINITY~!!!!!

BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!!

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kore wa yada yo~~~~ *sobz*

Hagen~~~~jazzie~~~~ jar jar~~~~ T__T i wan BIG BIG hug~~~ *snivellsnivel...stretch out hands...*

mmmmmm...... hug hug pwease.... *bigbigpuppyeyes*

in a minute...Escapism- ranting like nv before

2008-06-25T19:46:00.006+08:00

ah yes...

life has been peaceful for a sec...
past weeks / month has been hell...work work work work work...OT OT OT OT...issues issues issues issues....worries worries worries worries....complaint complaint complaint...

gah! watevr

so after 1st stage of proposalS has been submitted...

tis week...well...these few days are rest days...

all i ever do..is ESCAPISM!!!

how?

sleep sleep sleep...

pray pray pray that i wont be seeing Dad's Email... ugghhhh ...i dun wana think on "that" nymore..at leats for now...

expressing myself freely with buddies...shoot out whatever i've been unable to express properly in the past/lately..

cry myself out...which is bad..cos the next day you will look like some extreme kungfu panda ..its not good for the eyes ...ahahha

crap crap crap...

read lots and lots of manga...not being picky this time...what aso i telan...even hardcore romance (which is totally out of my league) ..*nodnod* see how desperate i am to "run away" ...

make lots of dates/appointments to go out....janji keluar aso kam luan..who where aso doesnt mater...lol~!!

OMG~!!! LONG LIFE!!! Dad just called.... uggghhh~~~ asking this n asking that..been having trauma lately from dad...uggghhh~~~ always talk bout that always talk bout that...gah~!! give me a break!

and yes...i went out for while to ss2 for dinner b4 coming home n publish this...lol~!!!

so many things to do ...so many things to think...wth wth wth wth~!!!

and yesh...July is coming...

its about time for me to get ready for the worst...*shrugs*

July is the worts...August too... hai~

im sooo not looking fwd to it...but on the other hand i want it to quickly end..

and no..its not that i dun loook fwd in seeing you guys in July and August ... but this 2 months is hell for me too...i have to deal with my lecs in July and in August...i have to deal with my parents...

i wish i get to go back in August to celebrate grandma's 80th bday...hang out by the beach with mel daling...and perhaps get to see jar dear b4 he goes off in early sept...yes...i pray that im not "so lucky" to have those dates booked by my lecs~~~ *gribfist* but i aso dreaded the idea on my own meeting with my parents once i got back...hai~

i had enuf of australia and singapore ...i might as well tell them..im going to dubai!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!! so u see..my next trip back to PG will be hell be it in August or Sept...curently i thought of giving up everything as they dun listen or they just pretend to listen..i feel like telling them "just do watever you want. im sick of everything"

after a talk with you, jar jar today somehow...manage to lit back a lil fighting spirit...im so happy for you though im kinda bitter from knowing taht you wil end your course earlier than expected which means...i wont be able to go to your graduation day as wat i wanted, planned and as i promised. nether less, it never once cross my mind to scrap all of my plans...my earlier plans. y? bcos its MINE anyway...ahahaha. modify ? yes! scrap off? no. i do wat i set out to do.. ^^

but anyway, im still very happy for you that im pretty excited bout it. ahahha!! and it makes me wonder again when can i settle mine quickly...wether should i continue fighting for my rights or just go ahead with wat they want...hai~ which obviously im gonna regret for the rest of my life...

solid justification...solid justification...gah~!! y isit so hard to totally nail my dad down. n im sure he'll start calling and writing email to me again~~~ after this Sunday since he knows that im going to the postgraduates fair this sunday. n im going to be so depress again~~~ dilema dilema dilema....then everyone in uni will sart askimg me.."shzeli...wats up? y r u looking so hollow this sem? u ok? dun worry much...i got your back..we got your back..." ah ya...thnx for that , Shin ..and otehrs....

wait till i tell him that i dun wana go to singapore this sept or even january next year...EEK! he will most probaly got a heart attack..and i'll be shoot with tons of questions...and wait till mum hears that i dun wana go australia...she wil give me "that" look and tell all my auntiess~~~....AH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...then dad willl call me up for a face to ace talk...blablablablabla....then my aunt will start calling me and ask and ask..and persuade persuade....WTF~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????????

mayb i should just tell them.. "HEY! its my life...im gonna live it my way..y should i go someplace that YOU wana go and NOT ME!!!??? " they they will most probaly tell mebaout gratitude blablabla....but sry la...you know me well enuf..that is not the way i hold my gratitude.

gawd!!! u understand wat im saying bor??? AH~~~~~~~ RHEA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T________T i understand how you feel~~~ we understand eahc other...we r i the same boat..just that...im not as serious as you cos i still manage to HOLD my dad from making my visa to Sg.

but at least your family is giving you a 1 way straight answer of their mind..my dad on the otehr hand is giving me a uh...his answer is complex...and confusing...I DUNO WAT THE HECK HE WANTS... stop giving me all the IF IF IF when you already has a solid answer in your mind. JUST SAY IT! n stop lecturing me on life philosophy..the heck i know them very well...u dun have to almost everyday remind me that:

1. watevever happens is all from my own doings~~~

2. that i can nv be smarter than nature..certain things no matter how hard u fight, you will nv get it..

3. there lies a fact that sometimes, somethings are blessing in disguise...

4. my future is in my own hands...

5. things happens for a reason..

oi, Dad! pelease la ~~~~ the more you repeat this...the more u made me depressed...jumping from the options i have upon graduation as you want...i will be confused as well, u know??? you want a throught research??? i will give it to you when im back...that is only on postgrads.but if you want a through research on work...im sry. i cant do that. i do not have the time n source to dig out every info that i want/ u required.

but if you want me to decide n present it to you by the time im back in my next visit...i will give it to you. but i wish you will REALY listen n not pretend this time and do wat you promise me. n i want you to realy understand that no matter wat you say..or what others say...

i will stick to my original plan , my dream...and I WILL FLY ONE DAY.

wether you like it or not.

plus with the fact that i've work myself up so far n im already on the 3rd stage of execution...u should understand well better than anyoneelse...that im teh type that who will not easily give up on things that i've fought so long for. n i dun mind to prove you wrong again.

and oh look..i have to say all here...i dun have the guts to say all these infront of him...ugghhh~~~ perhaps i should...if im unable to control the situation when im back ...perhaps i will...of cos...with modification to my sentences...gah! this is ..sickening...

anyway...sunday sunday... give me your best offer... ;)

back at 3am

2008-06-22T20:45:00.002+08:00

ah~

this is it...

the sms came it at 12am...reading "hey, u busy now? Yam cha most probaly ss2..on?"

the sms was my saviour...its a BREAKTHROUGH that for once in my KL life that i finaly get to go out at nite and yam all i want~!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!!

with great eagerness i replied "ya sure, see you dowanstairs".

so the 2 of us Zoom off to SS2 open air hawker stall...

fuh! damm packed! not bad for 12.30am ...we sat there like happy kid....and had the best ikan bakar EVER~!!! and the BIGGEST GLASS of milo panas EVER~!!!

yes!! u heard me right!!! MILO PANAS!!!! it must be a shock for you all that OMG~!! rei is drinking Milo panas~~~

*coughcough* yes! since i go on my internship...my coffee consumption has been cut down to some drastic meassure. UGGGHHH~!!! then it was further enforce that "NO COFFEE" when i was back in Penang for my 1 month break whereby...i got a "supervisor" *coughcough* and of cos..my health condition at that time doesnt allow me too...so when i got back to KL...somehow...i just seldom drink coffee la....*sipsipcoffee*

anyway CHEAP BETUL ITU IKAN BAKAR!!!! SEDAP GILER~!!!! RM7 for an Ikan Pari yg boleh dimakan oleh 2 orang.... :D

as me and Gan were enjoying our yam cha session...celaka some guy got drunk and were simply shouting ....*smackhead* tsktsktsk..n his frens were like..sorry sorry...ahahhahahahah~!!!

as we were crapping and telling grandmother story...i noticed that Gan telan the whole ikan...YES! including the TULANG IKAN!!! Gan say..."shzeli...u must learn the skill to eat soft tulang" and i just stare at her blankly...*blinkblink*

the funny thing that hapen was...ahahha~!! half way eating Gan sure need to cabut somewhere to "settle" her BF's call...tsktsktsk... imagine this...

*phone rings*

Gan stares at phone...

Rei stare at Gan...

Gan stares at Rei....

Rei stares at the phone...

Gan say "Shit! Its my BF"

Rei say "Then pick it up la"

*long reasons talking *

Gan say.."wait! i must go somewhere far far from here to talk to him"

Rei say.."aduh...go la go la..."

now back to my 1st EVER yam cha session in kl..T_T...ah~~~ i can just feel my PG nitelife slowly taking place in KL...buahahahhahahah!!!!

so as we crap and crap and crap bout uni life...love life...future life...past life...watever damm life u can think of...ITS ALREADY 3AM!!! woot~!!! but look at the crowd~~ its still around~~ shop aint closing yet~~~ so i ask Gan what time here tutup?

Gan say...5AM!!! AMMAZING LEH~!!!???

Rei say..." WAHLAU~!!! GOOD AR!!! next time can come here phek till par weh..."

Gan say.."ahahhah!! today canot la...i yesterday just did..."

Rei say,.."Oooo..like that la...boh chio la..."

Gan say..." aahha...buy from 7-11 then drink in room nia...ai meh? "

Rei say.."AI LA!!! i dun care! u next time got such plans u better tell me....i go up to your room and we phek, ok??? er...bottle? "

Gan say.."ya...bottle la. lol~!!!"

Rei say.."ahahha...bagus bagus bagus!!!

our trip back was fantastic! super no car on the road..and amzingly!!! GAN DRIVE SO SLOW~!!! lol~!! compare to normal day with traffic like hell...she's one freaking hell driver...but when come to empty road...she take her own sweet time to drive..and like a turtle slowly pass thru the red light...yes...RED LIGHT....SLOWLY~~~ ....lol~!!!!! n i was like...uh....wishing to get home quickly n speed back home cos....

FOR GOD HEAVEN SAKE!! ITS KL~!!! 2 GALS IN A CAR AT 3AM ON AN EMPTY ROAD , WINDOWS HALF WINED DOWN AND MOVING LIKE A SLOW TURTLEENJOYING THE NIGHT CHILLY BREEZE~~~

*smackhead* Gan~~ lets not get ourself into ttrouble! *cekikcekikcekik* *TOUCHWOOD*

next time...uh..let me drive home, k? XP

beautifully broken...

2008-06-21T23:08:00.003+08:00

leave...me alone...

stress

2008-06-18T00:17:00.003+08:00

im gonna suffer from acute stress soon...

and i am just gonna

T_____________________________T

and going nuts soon until friday comes...

the pres yndrom of media planning-like version 2 has attack me once again

oh-such-sinful-post...

2008-06-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

after much days and weeks of depressing post...and im not gonna talk on the "car broke down" incident...hah!

im currently...having a sudden sweet tooth attack! for all that you know...i dont fancy sweet stuff especially when it comes to food. im a sour bud person, BUT with the right amount of sugar and combination ...i will drown myself into the most sinful temptation...EVER!!! and i will crave and crave for it whenever i can....and i am craving for them now...

Fruit Pancake...

Rei's Special Sinful Request: lots and lots maple syrup and sizzling melting butter with or without fruits

Belgian Choco Waffles

Rei's special sinful request: More choco, more honey...more more strawberry!!!

Fresh Fruit Cake

Rei's Special Sinful Request: Lots of fruits in 1 slice and lots n lots of whip cream~~~ *drolls*

Choco Orange Marble Cake...

Rei's Special Sinful Request: KYA~!!!!!!!! more choco swirl and tangy orange taste!

Muffins!!!!

Rei's Special Sinful Request: I only take...Choco, Orange, Poppy Seed, Choco Chips and Berry Berry types of muffins~~~ XP

Fruit Tartlets

Rei's Special Sinful Request: Chef Suzaini~~~~ i want extra whip cream and choco and sapu more gelatin on the fruits..so they look shinning shinning...lol~!!!

Walnut Paraline / Paralinosa

Rei's Special Sinful Request: the more walnut chunks the better...and more more whip cream~~~ KYA~!!!! served chill pls....fu fu fu~~~

ah yes....most probably you realized by now...im a big sucker for whip cream, butter, maple syrups, strawberries, hot choco, walnuts and tangy orange taste food.... *drolls*

so if you ever cant or do not want such sinful things on your plate...oh please...let me help you...fu fu fu~~~

2008-06-14T13:03:00.003+08:00

ottosan~~~ *glare*

for many years i've fought for what i want...and now that im almost there you want me to drop it!?

OH P-E-L-E-A-S-E~~~~ *rolleyes*

call me stubborn or stupid..but let me tell you smth...

time is not an issue for me...for i can wait to get wat i want...

i am a very determined person...

once i've decided...im bound to go all out to get it

and i dun let things to get into my way....

i know what i m doing and what i want...and thats why i dun mind sacrificing certain things and taking risk , for i know what im capable of and where i stand!

so say watever you want and do watever you wana do...it wont change the fact that i will lived thru wat i dreamed of...

the process is not impt..it is the end product thats worth the prize...

tehrefore...before my final year ends..dun dismissed and intefere into my plans and dun underestimate me...

have faith...and believe in me...and you'll see...

"dear...there are things that i wish i could tell you...but i cant. the risk is too high. a risk that i cant afford to take. as the very backbone of all plans, lies a locked hidden agenda. be it you remember or not, please do have faith in the "pinky" words...for it is my very own and not yours ...words that are part of the plan...words that are worth living for... "

speechless

2008-06-11T22:20:00.005+08:00

im starting to take this into consideration

"be careful of what you wished for, for you might get it all"

and the hell ya!!! im getting it all now that to a certain extend...im freaked out!!!

i knoe wat u wana say~~~ "shzeli~!! mother luck is finally on your side!!! its your opportunity!! dun waste it! grab it! you lucky ass...stop complaining~!! *slapslapslap*"

but..but...the fact is...its freaky~~~and scary at the same time...i mean..WHERE GOT EVERYTHING SO EASY DROP IN FRONT OF YOUR DOOR ONE BY ONE, DAY AFTER DAY EH~!!!!?????

you dun have to pinch me...i dun need to slap myself...cos i know that its REAL!!! and being happy & restless about this sudden arrival of opportunities at the same time.

uggghhh`~~~

one thing for sure....when you have plenty to choose from, you just gets more undecided? 0.o...at least that's always my case..... >_>

so...for now...i decide...to swallow everything that has come my way...n still coping with the sudden shift of things ...

week4 is approaching...the incoming dreaded days will began soon...and hopefully...we will make it through much better than last time...

cherry cherry love...

2008-06-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

now.. the main agenda...

WOOT~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! look at my schedule/organizer.....BANYAK CANTIK!!!!

*clapclapclap* tq~!! tq~!! tq~!!!

Month of July

dear...ji-ni....

i can spare you 1 week ...but it gotta be from 11-17 July ...i got things going on other dates...but! i can still arrange certain things ...ehehhe ... ^^

lets just pray that i don't have any last minute meetings~~~~ >_> ...been getting plenty of these lately...tsk. but die aso i will come meet you 1..its now or nv thingy...god knows when your coming back again...hah!

and *cough* some1 aso must tell me when he is coming down to do his visa aso...har~~~ *pokespokespokes* if not i have to go korek maklumat from other source ar....i would prefer 1st hand information though~~~ can or not? *tukul* ehe

Month of August

3 reasons for me to go back in August are...1. to meet up wif some humans be it coming back or leaving for UK & to celebrate granny's 80th Bday...and of cos...to present a solid answer on which is to be the main & backup plan (baru kena for few hours saje tadi...heh~) and whether i would be going down to Singapore this Sept/Otc or Dec/Jan ..since i just buat pembentangan yg mendapat response yg amat menggalakkan..lol~!!!

so...i need a favor everyone. you are suppose to PRAY for me that my campaign presentation falls on the 13th!!!!! GAH~!!!! if not..i wont be able to go back on 22nd (granny's bday)

toot 1...my lec has to set presentation date on either 13th or 22nd...very good ler... *clapsclapsclaps*

then perhaps mel..if you plan to come down KL on 24th August...we can come back together...^^ *huggles* and i'm all yours till early Sept! :D ...buahhahah...see..see.i arrange things 4 you super nice 1 hor~~~ *gettingthinckskin* n i know you very the miss me there...so you everyday every nite MUST pray that my presentation falls on 13th la...^^

MUAX! TAI SEK NIA~~~~ XP

fu fu fu~~~

broken...

2008-06-09T23:32:00.003+08:00

8th June 2008...

I'm bleeding without words...
I'm crying without tears...
I'm broken beyond return...

Ai, Sayonara...

looking at July & August

2008-06-08T17:48:00.005+08:00

im terribly looking forward to July....jini is finally coming home with matt

and im super duper excited to see her after such a long time and of cos to get to know matt...

putting that aside...im undecided whether i should start executing my plan in Aug when im back in Pg for a while...but then again..im thorn between the inner conflict of myself. should they approve one of the plans...wat will then happen to the other one. is the plan they i currently stand for...will prove to be the best for me? either plan will take me to my goal...but what makes them diff is the period of time involved...

perhaps its just like what jose said..the question is..

are you fully prepared to risk it be it turning out like what you want and not? will you feel worth it no mater what the outcome? do you relay know what you want?

its not like i dunno what i want...i'm already on my way in reaching my goals and have been fighting for it all along...but you see...although all plans points to reaching my ultimate goal...what set them apart is the post-effect that may come...

unlike the 1st stage of execution..i have no prob with it as the effect expected is concrete , paving way to where and what i am today...but the next stage of execution bears a predictable feasible 50-50 effect...2 plans = 1 goal = 2 diff aftermath

so the question should be...

how confident are you in dealing with the aftermath, whichever plans may bring? knowing this...do you still dare to put your faith in it and risk it all, once it's approved and lived through it with much self worth and content?

hah~..another thing to look fwd to is the month of Aug...Verdict: PlanA vs PlanB

bday bday bday...

2008-06-08T00:40:00.006+08:00

4th June marks Aileen's 22nd Bday...

and so we went to Nandos at Jaya One (opposite Utar) directly after our final class ends....

Eat like we've nv eat b4....

talk and laugh as if we owned the shop.....

does lil meeting of sightseeing as if that Hunk's gf was never there....

mimicking Tzu on how she reacted to HP's everyday kinky side...

*coughcough*

Take lots of pic...

and..be entertained by this sort of everyday Drama we have in class...

its a rare opportunity to be able to share wif you guys on how our daily uni life is...and be careful..it might be contagious!

who says class is boring? ;)

...finaly at last...its moving closer~~~to me... evilgrin

2008-06-05T19:23:00.003+08:00

the freaking part?

its always like that...at the crucial moment when i can no longer hold it down...n im blowing off or either at the peak of blowing off....THE TRUTH WILL SPRUNG OUT like hell...and i'll be like...WOOOOOOOOT~~~!!!!!!??????

then i'l be like...gah! see...y cant it just be direct at the very 1st place..must wait till i naik gila d only appear...toot 1

the damm good part?

at least i know smtg~

and~~~

yeah..in a way im kinda happy to be proved wrong... T_T ...dats how certain things should be wert...hah!

anywa anyway~~~

putting aside the fatigue that i've been going thru for the past few days...which god knows why am i suddenly struck by low blood preassure...all aso my own fault...wat do u expect from some1 wif a dilema? ok fwine...i lost my appetite for almost 1 week...>_> ...happy now? ish

anyway~~~anyway~~~anyway~~~

I FOUND IT~!!! I FOUND IT~!!! BUAHHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!! TODAY MARK THE HISTORIC DAY THAT I FINALY FOUND WHAT I WANT ~~~~~ MY DREAMS IS 1 STEP CLOSER~~~ FUH~!!! FUH~!!! FUH~!!!!

*hopeshopeshopes*

i want it~~~ i want it~~~ i want it sooo badly now~~~ KYA~!!!!!! *excitedgiler* im super impress...and now so super motivated to do watever it takes to have it in my hand...FU FU FU~~~~ nv have i come across an offer with 80% matched what im looking for....KYA~!!!!!!

now...now....kekekkeeke...now to work it all out this sem ...and i'll immediately fly back to PG to convince / brain wash my parents to change their mind!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA~!!!! im gonna travel around the world~~~~ KYA~!!!!!

then!!! then!!! then!!!! if i succeed in my 1st 2 plans...i will ply to Sg wif EL / Rhea to personaly check it out by either sem2 or sem3 break! KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!

such comprehensive info~~~ ah~~~such...professionalisms~~~ looking at the chart... if i made it thru the test! i basically will spend almost 2 years...1 year and 9 months to be exact based in Sg ..and by my 2nd year..HOPEFULLY..i will be....will be... T_T ....PLYING~~~~~~~~ KYA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*coughcough* 1st thing 1st...my current stand?

academically im only 1 point short from their requirement~~~~ fu fu fu~~~~

and its time to use back my persuasion and PR skill to deal with my parents...and...my aunt...and...whoever is against me*uggghhhh....but ayway...im a person who is pretty confident in my persuasion skillz~~~ fu fu fu~~~

its time...to show you fully what im made off...heh~ *evilgrin* im some1 who will make sure that i will get what i want~~~~ *grin*

kekekekekekkkekekekkekkekkekekekekekekeke

let the war begin! *wavewaveflag* XP

for the record...

2008-06-04T16:42:00.006+08:00

-open record-

It is to be understood that I've done my best and very best in keeping things warm but have failed, so don't blame me if things gets cold... I'm just responding to what ever that I've received...

-close record-

and yeah...fck! i cant bring myself to do it...

*rolleyes*

finaly...dreaded?

2008-06-02T23:16:00.005+08:00

finaly...im ONLINE~!!! buahahha

internet line is still sucky~~~ ...cant seems to be able to upload pics well enuf..lol

so most probaly if u wana see my current dumb ass face wif my new haircut..oh~~ how i just love quick cut in kl...buahhahaha

loyal cust...lol

leaving footprints in PG ...i drop myself to PJ

where dilema n miseries awaits me...lol~!!!

1st thing that greeted every1 in class was..."dreadfull" lecs...and "killer" subjects...*depressed*

2nd thing that greet us was..."less than 1 year to decide what u wana do after graduation"

my dillema?

1. i duno wat the hell i wana do....still undecided~~

2. everyoneelse knows wat industry they are aiming for...and the toot wif everyoneelse was...THEY ALREADY PREPARE WATEVER THAT IS NECESARY TO TAKE OFF THEIR FLIGHTS!!!! except me~!!! im still a ding dong~~~~

3. dear dad...stop la hinting me ....i'll let you know when i know ~~~ lol~!!! ish!

and the good thing is?

been talking to few of my fwens...and aparently....2 out of 3 i talked to shares 1 common thing wif me...somehow..after internship...n jump back into uni life..we r sudenly so fweaking stress n feeling the pressure...excitement...of our final battle...lol~!!!

hai~

this is new face that i show everyday to my course mates...the half dead face...i cant help it ok...*tukul* im so dreaded~~~ lol

feel "thanked god" that u get to see this unedited half dead face of mine in here...lol~!!!

anyway...im also half dead now wif my head going ding dong d...i need to sleep~~~

so of cos..as complimentary~~~ XP

u shall see me going off to bed wif a sunny face!!! :D

TADA!!! EDITED HALF DEAD FACE = SUNNY FACE

K.I.S.S.

2008-05-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

my leave...my absence...

my sem break has nv been this great..its pretty unbelievable that i could actually really accomplish so many things in life in just 1 month...make it 3 weeks...

short but sweet...

or perhaps like wat we learn in producing our best writing piece...

K.I.S.S.

keep it short and sweet....

:)

but watever the future may hold...it doesnt realy matter...as 50% of my dream has already come true...

pretty much no regrets in you taking me away now, shinigami sama... *wink* ahhaa...but hey! *smackback* patience~~~patience~~~ our dear "contract" is still on...ahhahaha

anyway...i'll be going to genting tomorrow...then straight back to kl...and unfortunately~~~ 1 WEEK WITHOUT INERNET!!! im so sorry mina san...u just have to leave without me in the cyber world...lol~!!!

anyway...i still cnat figure out where to keep my lil red guy n my lil red gal back in kl...so at this momment..to avoid it being lost in kl...

i shall..IMMORTALIZE them in my blog...my adoptables of cos...n i love them...n i love you...always do...always will...

:)

-for immortality is eternal and forever is always... -

speechless

2008-05-19T18:18:00.005+08:00

sometimes..i wish i could tell the world...STOP DECIDING THINGS ON YOUR OWN~!!!! GAH~!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean..wat?? coem on~!!! give me abreak! at least ask fo rmy opinion~!! n LISTEN WAT IM TELLING YA~!!!!! ARGH~!!!!

directly after i graduate?????
wat do u mean by directly~!!!!!?????

i thought i just told him 3 YEARS~!!!! an di DID told him my other options!!!

so wtf~!!!!???

since when did u guys discuss n decide that im to go next year~!!!!?????

*cekikcekikcekikcekik*

IM NOT READY~!!!!!

ah~!! n stop feeling so proud of it n telling ppl im going off next year~!!!

i told u guy smany many times~~~ ah~!!! y arent u guys listening to what im saying....

hai~

time off pls...time off...

n dun say it as if its a must for mr to go there so fast...i only got 3 options tehre, huh??? HUH!!!!???

mum: im gonna wear this to UK next yera..^^

rei: huh? ur going to UK?

mum: im gonna keep this shirt for you so u can wer it when ur in england...^^

rei: huh? im sry..im going to china? 0__0

mum: no~~not china...im saying....ur going to UK next year...either england or london...right after u graduate... to do your masters ...^^

rei: wat!!!????? *explainexoplain that its not necesary n gives out oteh rplans she has in mind*...so wat u want me to do there excatly?

mum: well..ur dad told me bout it...so..ur going to uk...but sineu say like that ..well...u can eitehr go there to study...work n study...or work...^^ u have 3 options there...pik 1...its up to you to pick 1 ...im fine with which ever you pick... ^^

rei: *mouth drop open*...uh...huh~!!????

see~!! now she;s making it sounds like its already been decided...ur going teher wetehr u like it or not..n when u reach tehre u decide wat u wana do out of the 3 options~!!! GAH~!!!!!!!!!! at least it sounds taht way to me~!!!

ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ why~~~~~~why~~~~~~~~~~~why are u guys not listening to wat im saying~~~~~ T______________T

gawd~!!! i have less than half a year to decide n....MAKE THEM LISTEN PROPERLY~!!!! ...i need a crisis management plan....ugghhhh~~~...

n im getting cracky wif all the heart attacks im getting lately....uggghhhh~~~

swing...song of the mellow...

2008-05-16T18:12:00.002+08:00

swing...swing....
swing...song of the mellow...

i hereby summon thy
o'great lord of what it should be...

serenading with angle's wings...
the heaven cries like a deviled beast...

so what if...
i do...and i dont...
what difference does it make...
when all i can see is shadow...

swing...swing....
swing...song of the mellow....

the forest is calling ...
calling out to the unheard oath...
buried are the lavenders...
of falling leaves and grey grey shadows...

eyes upon the skies....
hopes are oh, so high...
but blessed it be the day...
for its forsaken in a way...

the heaven turns....
the sorrow flow...
oh please tell me lil swallow...
where should i go?

swing...swing....
swing...song of the mellow...

hidden are these hands...
of golden rust and dust....
with linings of cracks on the broken glass...
oh so slowly it cracked and healed...
tell me the magician of the hour glass...
why is this so when you have our hearts...

so what if...
what if we do and what if we dont...
wings are flapped and the flights has begun...
spin, spin the spinning wheel of destiny...

oh please...please...
take me up...
way up high above...

swing...swing....
swing...song of the mellow...
what art thou shall be without me...

swing...swing...
swing...song of the mellow...
what I shall be without thy....

swing...swing...
swing...song of the mellow...
oh please..please...lil swallow...
tell me please oh tell me please...

what if i do and what if I don't....
what if I am and what if I am not...
will summer still calls onto me...
just like snow for eternity...

dreamer's rights!

2008-05-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

a dreamer like me...STILL HAS OUR RIGHTS IN GAINING WHAT WE DREAMED OFF!!!!

so why....tell me why....

-my everything...and my everything is you...-

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?