silvermancer a.k.a. Rei. I sloth my entire day doing nothing but FUN things which i think they are with a main purpose to solely entertain myself. Like all, I have my temperaments which are pretty bizarre at times..hmm..perhaps most of the time, eh? ahaha. And I'm feeling 
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Saturday, July 12, 2008 @ 12:42
living without regrets..dying without one... how often have you ever thought that you have lived your life to the fullest...without regrets..and one day ..you might leave this world without one.. have you ever thought of what you will do...who will be the last to see you off...who will be the last to hear off... in many cases...ppl don't. its not that they dont but its more like they dont wan to. talks and thoughts on own "death" is still a taboo in most community. to be frank, i am one of the very few who can talk on death very openly and easily. death to me is part of what i am. i am here...alive today its bcos of my ignorance to death when i was lil....i've cheated death many times...more like im here today thanx to the understanding of the terrestrial beings to compromise with me then ... and no..i dun sell my soul to the devil (u guys watch to many movies! such things dun hapen in real life!!! the devil dun come to "collect " you!!! trust me...shinigami sama is actually a pretty nice person...well..at least to me...heh~)...more like i was offered a bargain... did i not always tell you guys that everything has a price to pay... heh...anyway, in layman term...or what most ppl believe...what is known as "given a second chance" or a "miracle"...and yes..these chances are 1 in zillion...and opportunity don't come knocking on your door twice... blablabla....cut long story short...so therefore...i've always do my very best in living in the present ..enjoy what i have today...try not to worry much bout over reaching things..and of cos...since i know it very well...i always strive hard to live my days without regrets, by making sure i grant myself my own wishes... so far...i've make 50% of my dreams/wishes come true...and i would like to thanked those involve in making it real (and im sry for causing you much trouble in a way~~ XP ) ...in fact...having your dreams...your deepest dream , wish or desire being realized...you will in fact...have no regrets or attachment to leave behind everything in this world...for you know you have lived your life to the fullest... :) "so my dear friend.... i hope you will not lose yourself completely over his death...as you can see...he had lived his life to the fullest...i know its hard...but hey...he knows /sense that he wil be leaving soon...so at least to the very end...he finally managed to say.. "i love you" ..and did he not say that it doesn't matter what happen or what you will think of it...and that he just want you to know...at least you gotta know...that he had always loved you...now...and always... though it also come to me as a shock on the news of his death on the very next day after confession...dear...i do believe whole heartedly that he had lived his life without regrets and leave without one..for his deepest wish has been granted ...and he has a piece of you in his heart and as his will always be apart of you... dear be strong....he's watching over you (u know it well with "that" ) ...and you know that he hates to see you cry..ehe..so yeah...we r here for you ..to see you pull through it... and uh...try not to dwell into it for too long, k? ..its not a very good thing...ehe " that said...ladies and gentlemen....do spend a lil time thinking bout it...on who or what is the most precious to you... back to my earlier question...on who and what will you do if you know you will be leaving soon...be it to happen suddenly or not...it is always at the very last minute or the very last second that your actions/ thoughts will help you to decide whether you had lived fully or not... so don't wait till then...think bout it now..and plan and work towards your dreams now...you may say its silly and what sort not...but when the time calls for it...wouldn't it be great for you will be able to do it all beautifully...and leave happily without regrets... i do...for i have already found it and had it... :) and oh...i actually love this show... "Touched by an Angel" ...its a very old show..back in the late 90s ...its my fav show of that time...its a very beautiful show indeed...it might be dry to most people...but to ppl like me...its something... Labels: thoughts: heart to heart Mitsuketa! ♥ silvermancer |